Note:English is not my first language and also I am new to sharing fics, so I know there are greater fics out there, but if you hang around I believe that I'll improve. I am sorry for the pace that I am going to upload chapters as life keeps me busy and it takes me a lot of time to be at least half satisfied with what I write.

It's been one hell of a case. The silliness of the story that hail from the overly exaggerative imagination of the Guy Mann, just gave him a headache. But now that it is all over, despite the gibberish story, there are words of the were-lizard man that stuck with him.

"Because if there's nothing more to life than what we already know, then there's nothing but worries, self-doubt, regret and loneliness."

At some point he had felt useless and so his obsession deepened and he fell into depression. He didn't even know when or how it had happened.

He had started worrying.

About the world, the future that's coming, the conspiracies, global warming, crop circles, ufo's. He was looking for life in some other planet, while life on this one was still moving forward without him.

He didn't believe in anything, he was doubting everything, and he himself, became a victim of self-doubt.

And for what? The only feelings left in him was regret and loneliness. At the beginning he was bitter that she left him, but then he realized that she didn't just leave him but her attempts at helping him were futile. He wasn't letting her. And he regretted it now.

And loneliness. What is loneliness? If he has to define it he'll say: Existing, but not living.

Mulder grabs his phone and calls her. He needed to hear her voice, to feel something, anything. Finally she picks up.

"Mulder, what's going on?"

"Hey Scully, is it a bad time," he doesn't like that he has no idea what she's doing. They use to do stuff together, and now she's in some apartment, alone. Or is she? He starts to sweats.

"No, no. I'm just reading a book. Is everything okay?" She wonders why he called her at 11pm. And gets just a little bit worried.

"Oh everything's fine," he thinks he fooled her, "Are you alone?" He did not mean for that to come out. He is not sure why he said it.

"Wha-"

"I'm sorry Scully, I do not know where that came from," he interrupts, "I didn't meant to say that, and it is non of my business."

"What is bothering you Mulder?" She asked gently. Clearly he called with a reason, and she'll figure it out.

"Scully-nothing. I don't why I called, I'll go n-?"

"Don't hang up!" She literally screamed at her phone, " Mulder?"

"Yeah?" His voice sounding small.

"Why did you call me, Mulder?" The ache she is feeling at not being able to just be right there with him, soothing his worries aside was slowly killing her.

He decided that he'll be bold, there is literally nothing he can lose. "I am lonely, Scully," but when the first words came out of his mouth, he thinks that maybe he should shut up. But instead he keeps on going, "I screwed up, I screwed up everything in my life. But I don't really care about that, the thing is..."

His voice just trails of, he can hear her breathing but she's not saying anything.

She's not sure that they should have this conversation over the phone, she believes they are ready for this conversation, they should both be present and on a clear head.

"I regret taking you for granted, for not showing you what you mean to me, how much I appreciate you," he is on the verge of tears and I don't know what brought this on.

"Mulder-" she means to calm him down but, apparently, he has something more to say.

"I know what you may be thinking, but I am okay, really. I am trying to get better, for you..Scully. Do you think I am getting better?" he sounds so fragile.

"Mulder, yes, you are, indeed getting better. I can notice and I believe in you, I believe that you can do whatever you put your mind to. I know you, Mulder," she is desperately trying to assure him, and the best thing of all is that it's true.

"I love you, Scully," after a beat, " do you still love me?"

It breaks her her to think that maybe even for a fleeting second he thought that she doesn't love him.

"I have never stopped loving you, Mulder," please believe me, is what she thought. "Do you want me to come over?," it isn't really a question, so she doesn't wait for an answer when she says, "I am coming over."

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