I think I'm in love. I don't know what it is, I really don't. I mean, I've felt like this before, what I had with Kurt was real enough, until I went and messed it all up that is. I don't know, this just all seems a little strange. Different. A good different, though.
Sam Evans. I really couldn't have fallen for anyone as different as Kurt, could I? But its real, I'm sure of it. My heart flutters when he walks by, and it skips a beat when he smiles at me, that cute half-smile that he does, it kills me. And don't even mention those impressions he does, too cute. I'm not stupid though, I know he's straight. But inside of every gay guy, there is always some heterosexual heart-throb that they think they can turn. And he is mine.
Just look at him though, that sandy blonde hair and dashing smile. His football player's body, and no doubt a perfectly toned torso underneath. It's not just his body that attracts me though, it's just him, and who he is.
He's nothing like Kurt, maybe that's why I've fallen for him. I need to stop thinking about Kurt. Why can't I get over him? I screwed up, and if I could, I would reverse the clock and do things differently. But I can't, I need to move on.
'Blaine….BLAINE' A familiar voice woke me from my daydream.
'Tina' I said, turning with a smile.
'You're not even trying to hide your undying love for him, are you?' I saw her glance over my shoulder at where I had been staring, where Sam stood talking to Brittany at his locker.
'I've fallen hard, no point denying it. But how do I get him?'
Tina sighed, and looked me directly in the eyes.
'Blainey-days, we need a plan. You're in love, so we need to get you your man!'
'I agree, I'm so lucky to have you Tina' She just smiled, a little sadly. I know that this is hard for her, but i'm never going to be straight. I'm gay, I'm sure of that. She knows it too, and we are just remaining best friends, its perfect.
'C'mon, let's go to Glee rehearsal.' I linked my arm with hers and we walked to the choir room, brainstorming ways of getting Sam to fall for me.
'Hey you' A bit risky, but playing it safe wasn't going to get me anywhere.
'Oh, hey dude, how you doing?'
'I'm good' Very good actually, all the better for seeing you. BLAINE, c'mon, concentrate on the plan here!
'Cool.' He smiled, his eyes sparkling a little.
'Listen, why don't you sing something in Glee this week? I was thinking maybe we could do a duet, what do you think?'
He hesitated. 'I dunno man, I'm kinda busy this week'
'Sam! I know very well you don't have much on this week, what can you lose? Come over to my place tomorrow night and well take a look at some awesome duets.' This has GOT to work!
'Ok, as long as it's not a show tune'
'Wouldn't even dream of it.' I said, letting a smile appear. Part 1 of Operation Blam is complete!
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