I knew no one would care if I committed suicide. Sure, Renee and Phil would cry and mourn my death. But, as a child, my mom always said to me, "Be where you are happy, Bella." I am not happy here. I could hear her voice saying that to me, repeating over and over. Then, I heard Edward, and had a flashback to the first time I saw a vision of him.

FLASHBACK

"I think I know those guys," I said to Jessica. I walked down the hill and saw Edward. "Bella, you promised me you wouldn't do anything reckless," he said. "You promised me I would forget you. That, as we both know, will never happen." I walked past him to get to the biker. "Hey babe, wanna hop on?" he asked me. I looked back and saw Edward again. "Please, don't do this." He begged. "I was thinking the same thing many months ago. Apparently, you didn't stop to think about my feelings." I flung my leg over and sat down.

END FLASHBACK

Screw him. He doesn't want me. I was just a toy, a manipulation. He never loved me, or even CARED about me. I was just something he could show off. Let him rot in hell. I hope Laurent and Victoria come for him and gang up. He'd never win that. I hope that Victoria gets a hold of him. She'll make his death long and painful. After she is about to finish him off, she'll ask for me. He'd say that he left me unprotected and alone. She'll come for me. I know it. Victoria might find me alive, or she might find me dead. She might even change me. Think, that since she has to spend eternity without her mate, I might as well do the same. Hopefully, I'll be gone by then. All that is left is to write to every person who this might affect.

Alice,

You are my best friend. I know that maybe, just maybe, you don't love me anymore. But that's okay. I still have a place for you in my heart. You'll always be there, right next to Edward and the rest of your family and Renee and Charlie. I hope you read this someday, long after I'm gone. But, this is for the better. Edward may be able to go on without me, but I can't do the same. I really do love you Alice. Best of wishes,

Bella

It felt fitting to write Alice's first. She probably saw a vision and sent Edward to save the day. Except, he can't save the day. Why? Because the day is over, it's been over, for months. The next letter should be to my parents.

Mom and Dad,

I realize that you pain when I am in pain. I don't have a better way to say this…. But I can't stay here anymore. I'm not happy here, and there is no other place in the world that I will be happy except with Edward. I understand that you think he took over my life, but he did, in a way. I can't live without him. I love both of you in a way that you couldn't imagine. I'm sorry this is it, but maybe we will meet again, in the afterlife. As a child, it seemed like I said the words, "I love you," too many times. Now I realize that wasn't enough. I really do love you. Please take care of yourselves,

Bella

The next one is to the rest of the Cullens.

Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rosalie, and Jasper,

I love you all like family. I really do. Esme, you were like a second mom to me. Always caring and loving. Carlisle, you were, in a way, a fathering figure. Always having advice and a warm smile on your face. Rosalie, I'm sorry we got off on the wrong foot. In a different lifetime, we could've been friends. Emmett, you were always like a big brother. Lastly, Jasper. You probably blame yourself because you don't have the control that the rest of your family does, and I'm sorry. I can't understand why you blame yourself. It would've happened eventually. I'm sorry that it had to end this way. I thought that you were beginning to accept us as a couple and accept me as a part of the family. I really love each and every one of you, and will continue to love you until my heart stops beating. And lately, I've been thinking, possibly even hoping, that it will be soon. Best of luck and wishes,

Bella

There is only one last letter that I need to write.

Edward,

I will always love you forever and ever. Lately though, I've been questioning that. I've been questioning if you feel the same way as I do. There will always be that empty darkness inside of me. The only thing that is keeping us apart is you. I know that my only options are to kill myself, or let Victoria change or kill me. I really don't know her intentions anymore. I don't really know your intentions anymore. Please, don't kill yourself. You must not realize how catastrophic that would be. The family would be torn apart. When you left, you ripped my heart out. I would've said for you to take care of it. Because I do not have a heart anymore, I leave you with this letter. I really do love you.

Bella

Words can't describe how I feel for him. Words can't describe what he did to me, also. I know that Alice saw me. Edward might just ignore her, or he might come. I'm not second guessing myself. Charlie should know to at least lock where we keep the knives. I would call the house number on my cell phone and tell him I love him. Then at least my parents will always be able to hear my voice say that I love them. I pulled out the cell phone that Edward gave me, but before I could dial the number, Alice called. I picked up the phone.

"Alice," I said.It wasn't a statement, it was a question.

"Bella I swear don't even move a muscle. Edward and I are on our way right now. Please, think about everyone. Don't do this to me, or Edward, or Charlie." She pleaded with me.

"Did YOU think about me? No, you probably didn't. Why is…" I couldn't even say the name. "He coming here. I thought he didn't want me!" I shouted. Then another voice came on,

"Bella, I'm sorry. It was all a mistake. I do want you, I do. Bella, I'm sorry, I love you more than anything."

"I'm hanging up now," Ireplied coldly.

"NO!" Alice yelled. "I will talk to you."

"You don't get it, I have to go. I have to hang up. Wait, you're still in the car, right?"

"Yes Bella, I am. Please don't hang up, not yet."

"Goodbye Alice,"

They were probably right outside the door, so I had to think fast. I grabbed the knife I prepared and dragged it down my wrist, causing blood to flow. I didn't know if Alice would be able to come. I knew Edward would, but that may be out of guilt. At this rate I knew that I wouldn't be gone quick enough, so I made several more cuts on both of my wrists. I was on the floor, because I just couldn't stand. I heard the window open, so I turned my body around the best I could. In came Edward and Alice. Alice scooped me into her arms and picked up the phone. That's the last thing I remember before everything went black.