She was a bird, a very stubborn bird at that. She knew her wings were broken and yet she wanted to fly. She wanted to be like the others who were able to leap and soar high into the sky instead of being cooped up like a caged animal.
Tomoe had told her multiple, no, countless times not to dive into a situation head first. But Nanami being Nanami, wanted to prove him wrong. How foolish of her. She knew she couldn't do it but still she believed. She stupidly believed that if she tried hard enough, maybe just maybe, Tomoe would acknowledge her as a Land Goddess who could take care of herself instead of a helpless lovesick girl who needed constant saving . But that belief got her nowhere. Instead, she was here locked in her room while her two shinshis were out there risking their lives.
It hurts to be pushed aside, but it hurts more if the one you loved dearly was the one who pushed you too. And Nanami learned this the hard way. No words could describe the feeling of hopelessness she felt as her knees buckled under fatigue from trying to fight off the miasma, she knew then that she had failed her duty as a Land Goddess to purify and cleanse the town.
But most of all, Nanami had failed Tomoe. Tomoe, who with such grace and elegance taught her everything she needed to know about being a Land Goddess. Tomoe, who put up with all her ridiculous nonsense on a daily basis. How could she let down someone who had done so much for her when he expected so much from her?
What Tomoe said was true, she was just a girl trying to fit into a God's shoes. Her wings weren't broken, they were never there in the first place. She was never meant to be a Land Goddess, it was all a mistake. Someone else was supposed to be in her place. Someone who didn't need constant saving, someone who knew how to use their tsuriki and was able to protect the shrine. Not her, not Nanami Momozono. Nanami Momozono was clumsy, loud, obnoxious, restless, stupid and worthless.
It was no wonder Tomoe rejected her love. She wasn't what he wanted. He wanted someone who was beautiful, strong, capable of saving herself, hardworking and smart. She wasn't any of them, she wasn't even close to any of them.
Nanami closed her eyes as she felt the sadness give way in herself. It had especially accumulated in her eyes for when she opened them her vision was cloudy. Her nose began to turn red and sniffles could be heard. Her chest on the otherhand, was throbbing with ache as she tried her hardest to suppress the oncoming sobs. But in the end, she let go. She allowed the tears to fall freely from her eyes, creating a stream down her cheeks. Her sobs were loud and uncontrolled, a sign that she had given up. Nothing was worth it anymore. Tomoe didn't love her, she was hopeless at her job and she was failing in school. It would be better if she just upped and left, that way everyone wouldn't have to be held back by her. They would be happier, much happier if she just left.
So that was what she did. She packed her bags and ran out the door, face still wet from tears. She was a burden and burdens should always be dropped at the first sight.
Author's Note: Hey guise :D My exams are finally over *throws confetti* Actually they've been over since last week but because I had writer's block I didn't actually get to write anything. So how are you guys? I hope all's well with you :) Anyway, I hope you enjoy this angsty one-shot. I know it's pretty short but it still is quite okay right? I don't really know, my angst is the kind that will not get any reaction out of people so yeah. I hope that one day I will be able to write the angst that completely rips your heart out and leaves you in tears. Enough rambling for now, please favourite and comment if you liked it or just comment if you have feedback. Byeeeeeee~