Hi! thanks for taking the time to read my fanfic pls r&r! constructive criticism welcomed!

disclaimer: last time i checked, i didn't create ouran...

I was always there from beginning to end, I knew about you much earlier than Tamaki and of course I knew about your gender from the very start. It just amused me no end when you became a host but the vase breaking was a terrible waste. At first, you were just an indulgence, a secret plaything to amuse myself with; the fact that you were such a good host was merely a bonus albeit a very huge bonus.

I do wonder when that indulgence changed into something more, perhaps it was when I felt that prick of worry when you got lost in my resort, my resort of all places! Or maybe it was when you barged into my room at Nekozawa's vacation house to vomit, when I pinned you to the bed and for just a moment felt like betraying my morals, to show you that sometimes I had human feelings. Then the spell broke, you said in that completely unruffled way of yours "Even if you do molest me, there's no profit in it. Am I right?" I wish I could have convinced you that you were wrong but I still wanted you by my side so I laughed and my mask came back on.

Then, it became rather obvious that Tamaki liked you, not that it wasn't from the beginning but so much more, rather blatant in fact. The father act became much more ridiculous after that, sometimes I sneered at his act, not that anyone could see of course, my mask never cracked. I wondered if he honestly thought that he was your father or as he put it 'like your father'. He didn't even have your biological father's approval for goodness sake! However, I did and I always felt smug when I was the first to obtain your classified information and photographs, though they didn't remain classified for long, however, I bet that none of the host club members know that I have an entire secret album on you, I have never shown anyone and don't plan on doing so.

However, Tamaki was not the only one who fell in love with you, the Hitachiin twins did too. I felt especially jealous when Hikaru went on a date with you; I even had to watch the date but when Hikaru just left you, I felt my mask slip and for just a second, wanted to beat him up, I think Hani-sempai noticed. I wished that I was the one who rescued you but as always, I let Tamaki shine, I was only the shadow after all.

I always thought that my mask was perfect until one day Hani-sempai said to me, "Kyou-chan, Haru-chan will never notice unless you tell her, are you sure you want Tamaki to steal her? I'm sure you can make Haru-chan happy ne?" I nearly did a spit take with my tea but I stopped myself in time, I forced my mask back on and turned to him but the look Hani-sempai's eyes stopped my words, it was almost…pity. "She'll be happier with Tamaki." I muttered, Hani-sempai looked as if he was going to say more but then the guests came streaming in. I never realized it until then but Hani-sempai was truly the scariest out of all the hosts.

I was always quite content to stay in the shadows until you came along, I had an irresistible urge to show off in front of you but as an Ootori, it would have been highly inappropriate so I did what I always did, let Tamaki shine. Even now, while my heart is being shredded by your blinding smile, while you look upon Tamaki with more love than you will ever show me, I shall do what I do best, let Tamaki shine and give you your happily ever after.

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