Everything You Had..


By Kalasu

Warnings: Yaoi, shounen ai, lemon, gayness, violence, angst,

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, obviously. but if i did...well..that's a different story...

Summary:Everything Sasuke had is slipping from his grasp, can he steal it back?

Notes: there will be more! just wait for me to have time to upload more!

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C.h.a.p.t.e.r1


Jealousy

'Hey Sasuke, where's Naruto? I never see you guys together anymore..'

Sakura asked, leaning across the table over to a certain raven who was staring out of the cafeteria windows at a certain blonde with a look of longing on his face.

'New boyfriend..' He said, cutting up his pancake rather too violently as a twin version of himself with a stupid grin on his face walked over to the blonde and started kissing him passionately.

'That's never stopped you before..' Sakura trailed off looking at Sasuke's intense glare with passion.

'This one's different..' He murmured, as though talking to himself..

It was true, for the first time in his life he had actually felt threatened by one of naruto's many boyfriends. For the first time in his life he had actually blown his cool over a guy. For the first time in his life he had felt what it was like to love someone so much and not get anything in return.

Was it selfish of him to want to be loved by Naruto?

'Sasuke, it's your own fault you know.' Sakura smiled back.

'What?! how is it my fault that this happened sakura?' Sasuke flinched as he watched naruto's smile increase as the grinning raven kissed him.

'you had naruto right where you wanted him, didn't you? and you didn't act on it! worse still, you toyed with his emotions didn't you?' Sakura hissed back.

'What do mean "right where i wanted him"?'

'Oh please! Couldn't you see that naruto was desperately in love with you?'

sasuke spurted out his drink. All over he table, missing Sakura by an inch.

mopping himself up he gasped, mouth wide open.

'what?! Naruto liked me??'

Sakura rolled her heavily outlined green eyes. 'Yes you idiot!'

'How? When? What? How?' sasuke paused mid-wipe, Naruto had just looked at him directly in the eyes. Those brilliant, gorgeous..

He ducked, then, after realizing what he was doing sat back up awkwardly. Naruto glared at him and turned back to his boyfriend with a smile on his face.

'You really couldn't see it...?' Sakura sighed, 'Even after all of the blatant signs?'

Sasuke didn't answer her, so she left him in his puddle of drink with a small pitying look.

'What did she mean...I couldn't see it...?' he trailed off still cleaning himself.

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At the end of the day Sasuke pulled his backpack over his shoulders, he couldn't wait until he could get home and relax for the summer.. Maybe go on the internet or watch some of his favorite television series.. Or spy on Naruto's date with Sai..

Walking down the hallway he heard small cliches of girls giggling as he walked past. It was the same shit day after day..

Reaching down to tie his shoelace he heard a familiar voice, and as he looked up his eyes met his favorite sapphire blue ones momentarily. Momentarily i say, because less than a second later the eyes darted out of connection and glared in the opposite direction.

Yes, That was the result of Sasuke's life.

A million fangirls and the only one who he actually wants to love him rejects him.

If life was a cartoon or an "anime" as so Kiba liked to quote so often, then his was most definitely a fanfic.

Ironic.

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Reaching home was definitely not an anti-depressant.

The bleak and empty mansion simply opened in it's same pristine perfection, and the staircases to his room remained empty. Without the mother and father running down them to greet him and his brother sidling down after them like they used to, now it was desolate, with only the haunting of memories from the past to light the dark corridors to his room.

The room itself was fine, over the years he had spent some of the many riches left behind by his parents to furnish and decorate this room. Having an en-suite bathroom and kitchen was a definite must for him, and having all of the latest consoles and computers definitely put paid to the many lonely days and nights he had spent in there.

The king sized bed lay lazily in the corner, its four poster magnificence swathed in crimson and black silks that complimented the tone of his room and home which was also the same crimson and black.

Sighing heavily he flopped onto his bed and reached for the phone.

should he call someone?

Or should he simply stare at his phone's wallpaper for another half an hour?

Either way it didn't seem like he was getting anywhere.

Tossing his phone violently onto the conveniently placed futon on the other side of the room he screamed.

'Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!' He punched his pillow rhythmically with each punch, each "fuck" letting out a lot of pain every time he hit his pillow.

'Why..?' He whispered, pulling the pillow to him. 'Why?' he felt tears slowly fall down his cheeks as he pictured naruto's smiling face with sai.

He curled up into a ball on the bed still clutching the pillow tight to him, if naruto had liked him like sakura had said. Why didn't he notice or make a move? He had loved naruto for ages.. Since he was ten years old for fucks sake..! How did he not know?

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Morning came and the Uchiha was still lying awake on the bed, his eyes wide open and staring at the black ceiling above him.

Pulling on a blue and black striped jumper, sasuke now realised just how pointless this whole thing was with naruto. It was totally ironic in a way that made him want to slit his wrists so harshly that even the bone would show... so why couldn't he just do that..?

No.

No way was he going down that destructive path again.

Not after what had led to hospitalisation, naruto's screaming and crying on his bed, the stares and whispers at school, kakashi's disappointment and a visit from his brother.

As if Naruto's tears weren't enough, the obvious smug look on his brothers face still riled him enough to break the nearest thing to him.

In this case he tore a pillow in half.

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Ok. Sneaking around following Naruto and his "soul mate" definitely wasn't his idea of a great way to spend the first day of the summer, but damn it if sasuke was going to spend it at some shitty karaoke with a bunch of girls trying to sneak date rape pills into his drink instead.

hiding behind a bin sasuke held his breath as naruto scanned the outside of the cinema.

Did he know he was there?

No, impossible...

'forget it, this is just pathetic..' Sasuke straightened up and walked off in the opposite direction, could he really spend his life following Naruto and his stupid cheshire cat boyfriend?

Yes.