All characters are from the Harry Potter saga and so owned by J.K. Rowling.
If being cynical isn't a possibility for me, why is being mean one for you ? I'm not ironic here, I'm just trying to be honest a moment.
I grew up alone. Supported by a family which doesn't actually care. Surrounded by friends thinking I was their natural leader because my father was one.
You've got your friends, you've got your family behind you when I have no one.
And I'm still taking all the blame. Always. Everytime we fight, and not because I'm always the one who has to be blamed, but because I can't stand seeing you hurt, or sad, or angry, especially when I know it's because of me.
And again, I always do it. Hurting you. Getting you mad. Making you cry. Then I see you going to your best-friend and explaining it all, when I can't do the same. When all I do is causing you pain and after feeling guilty.
So I take the blame. Because it's the less I can do to hope to be forgiven and get another small chance with you by my side. And if, or when, we break up, your friends would be able to stay with you, repeating you deserved better. And they would be right. I'm not worth it. No one is worth your pain, your sadness, your tears.
I wish I could be better. Better like you. Be at your level and make us work. Be loved by people, be looked up to. Lose some of my flaws for a handful of your qualities.
I'm not like you, Harry.
I'm not like you, and I don't know how to make this work.
Draco.