Title: I Scream For You
Author: RetrospectMex
Characters: Sasuke, Naruto, Sakura, Kiba, Hinata, and Kakashi.
Song: Because of You by Nickelback, Drowning (Face Down) by Saving Abel, and If You Only Knew by Shinedown.
Warnings: Cutting, Anorexia, Yaoi [boy x boy love, baby.], …Cussing and Violence?
Rated: Mature, for well, you know. ;]
Authors Notes: Lets see. Here is the EDITED version of the original 'I Scream For You'. I like this a lot better, to be honest. Much more detail, and stuff. So, reviews are great! I love them. Hate flames will be used to make some Vegan cookies for all the nice or constructive reviewers. 'Nuff said. ;]
LYRICS
THOUGHTS
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Hands on the mirror,
Can't get much clearer.
He hummed along with the song, thinking back and remembering everything. Everything he had said, everything he did, everything. Tears started forming in his crystal blue eyes as he made himself throw up once more. I'm so sorry, Sasuke....
Now that you're bleeding,
You stare at the ceiling;
Watch as it all fades away.
Walking over and stepping on the weight scale, he sighed as he saw the numbers. "109". I'm almost there, just 9 more lbs. I can make it. Stepping off, he brushed his teeth and got ready for bed, still humming along to the song that played on his radio, never noticing a pair of coal eyes that watched him silently.
He stared into his reflection before he exited the bathroom. He saw sun bright bright hair, pointing in different directions, a thin-tanned frame, blue eyes that were marked with red from crying an hour earlier, three scars on his cheeks, and scars on his wrists that Kyuubi refused to heal.
The blond remembered what Kyuubi had said one day when he had cut and centimeter too deep.
"Idiot. I'm not healing anymore cuts after this. You're stupid to be doing this, all for the moron who had left you for power." He agreed with Kyuubi soon after the bleeding had stopped. He was an idiot. He was stupid for doing this. He did leave for power. But he didn't care. Hurting himself was better than the hurt and the pain he felt on the inside.
I'll do anything for this pain to go away.
Now that you did this, you ask for forgiveness,
Doctor could you be my priest?
You say you're mistaken, but look what you've taken.
You laugh as you lie through your teeth.
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They all saw him the next day. Staring at the once tall, and handsome blonde who was now anything but handsome with his bone-y hips and arms, black and blue under eyes that seemed to lost its soul long ago.
Whispers of him filled the Village, none of them knowing why he was doing this, none of them doing anything to fix it, simply because they did not care. None of them would miss him if he even died.
He continued walking, until he got to Team Sevens' meeting place and sat down in a corner, not saying anything, even though the others were there. "Ahem, Naruto, you're late. Again. You're going to stay after for two hours," Kakashi had said.
All he could do was nod, he didn't care that he was late, even later that Kakashi.
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Seven hours and hard work later, Naruto was at home, about to do his nightly routine, when he heard a knock at the door. Sighing, he got up to answer it, and saw it was just Sakura.
"Hey Naruto!"
"Hi," he said dully.
Sakura sat on Naruto's couch – inviting herself in -, noticing how uncomfortable it was. No matter how many times she's gone over to his place, she can never get used to this couch, or the apartment.
"Well, I came over because I wanted to know if…" Naruto started to drown her out, thinking of Sasuke when he heard her speak his name.
"Huh, what?" He muttered, looking at the pinkette.
"I said, do you want to go this new club."
"I-I don't know, Sakura. I have to-"
"Oh come on! You need to get out of here and have fun!"
"Sa-"
"Sasuke's going."
And that was all he needed.
Pretending to think it over, he nodded his head in agreement, causing the other to get excited and telling him she'll pick him up at eight tomorrow night.
After she left, Naruto started wondering what he had gotten himself into.
Heading to his bathroom and started his routine. Throw up, brush his teeth, shower, stare at his hideous reflection, and then go to bed. On his way to bed, however, he noticed something shining on his bathroom counter. Picking it up, he smiled and took it to his arm.
Oh, how I missed you. He thought, slicing his wrist, – ignoring the ranting of Kyuubi in his head – making blood run down his arm.
And he still never noticed the pair of eyes watching him as he went to bed that night.
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The next night, Naruto dressed up in his clubbing attire – an orange shirt with black jeans, both making him bones pop out – waiting for Sakura to pick him up.
He had tried to brush his hair, but sadly it just made it worse.
It's only seven thirty, I've got some time.
Just as he was about to sit down on his highly uncomfortable couch when he had heard a soft knock on the door.
Must be Sakura to make sure I'm properly dressed.
Sighing, he got up and opened the door and shock came over him when he saw him standing at the door.
Sasuke.
Sasuke was dressed in a black buttoned dress shirt and black skinny jeans, that made his ass pop, with some blue and black converse. His raven-colored hair was still in it's duck-butt style, as always.
"Sakura and Ino wanted me to get you. Let's go." Sasuke stated after he looked Naruto over, turning and going down the set of stairs. In a rush, Naruto put his black Converse on, locking the door, and following the other to the black Porsche, getting in on the passenger side.
"So, um, what's this club called?" Naruto asked.
"Beats me."
"Oh, okay."
Turning the volume up, Sasuke continued to drive, following the directions on his GPS.
I've gone too far to turn around,
It's hard to reach for you,
When I'm lying face down.
I can't relieve my soul,
I'm lost in a moment,
Lying face down.
Naruto hummed to the current song, as they pulled into a parking lot. Getting out of the car, Sakura ran up to Naruto and hugged him, feeling his bones poke into her as he hugged her back. Smiling, she pulled both boys in and to a table that held all of their friends.
Sakura was dressed in black dress that was ruffled and flowed out at the waist and ended just above her knee, with pink and black floral designs in the chest area and a pink ribbon and rose going across the waist.* She wore black shoes that had an bow on it, and across the bow was rhinestones. He pink hair was down, and she had black hair extensions in that went over her chest.
She looks amazing, Naruto thought.
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Naruto clapped and hummed along to the song Kiba was singing. Kiba was dressed in a plain blue shirt, that was tight and showed off his abdomen, with some tight black jeans, with regular black Converse, his brown hair stuck out everywhere.
In this farewell,
There's no blood,
There's no alibi.
'Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come,
And wash away,
What I've done.
I'll face myself, Put to rest,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate,
With the hands of uncertainty.
They all watched him having "fun", when Sakura hatched up an idea. A brilliant idea, at that. So brilliant she almost jumped up for joy. But she calmed herself down instead, brushing her hair and extensions with her fingers and tried to pay attention to Kiba.
For what I've done.
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends.
I'm forgiving what I've done!
What I've done;
Forgiving what I've done.
Clapping, whistles, and shouts filled the entire building as Kiba got done and walked off, none of them noticed Sakura when she got up to talk to the DJ or when she came back.
"You were great, Kiba." Hinata whispered shyly, as the others started to agree, receiving a peck on the check by said boy.
Hinata was dressed similar to Sakura's except anything pink was purple, her hair was short and straighten. "Thanks, babe." He replied to her, then saying his thanks to the others.
"Okay, guys! Next up is the lovely… Uzumaki Naruto!" Again the clapping, whistles, and shouts filled the building as Naruto stood up, shocked, and slowly walked over the DJ.
Sakura must have done this. Ugh, I hate her so much right now. But, this is a good idea to get my feelings off my chest…He whispered his chosen song, and began to walk to the stage.
If you only knew,
I'm hanging by a thread.
The web I spin for you.
If you only knew,
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you.
I still hold onto the letters
You returned.
I swear I've lived and learned.
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me, I
Toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life.
Breathe your breath in me,
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew.
Naruto felt himself let go into this song, tears started to line up his blue eyes and his voice started to strain, but he blinked them away and continued to pour his heart and soul into the song.
If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong,
If you only knew.
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone.
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent.
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep If you only knew,
Without you next to me, I
Toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life.
Breathe your breath in me,
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew.
I still hold onto the letters
You returned.
You help me live and learn.
He glanced over at his crowd, then his table. They were all shocked, even Sasuke – even though he did not show it – and the Villagers. They never thought he'd sing something like this. Something so sad.
He sounds so heavenly, Sasuke thought as he stared with fascination.
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me. I
Toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you.
I still believe in you,
Oh, if you only knew.
He sighed as he finished the song, then ran out of the building to his favorite spot in Konoha. It was a clearing, past the trees and bushes, it was loaded with flowers that lined along a clearing, still not noticing that someone was watching him, and following this time.
Naruto sat in a corner, and started to cry his heart.
I can't believe I just did that! I'm so stupid.
"Heh, yes you are." Ignoring the comment Kyuubi made, he continued to bawl.
"Naruto," someone said to him softly. Startled, said boy looked up and saw that Sasuke was staring right at him.
"Want to tell me what's wrong?"
The blonde couldn't help but jump into Sasuke's arms - causing him to move backwards a bit – and started crying even more, telling him about everything. The villagers, Kyuubi, the cutting, his obsession of being skinny, even Sasuke.
"Me? What did I do?"
"You left me all alone." The blonde whispered, instantly making the other feel sad.
"Oh," was all he could say, before he thought of something.
Holding Naruto's chin, the raven looked into his eyes, red from crying, and captured the others trembling lips with his own.
Shock came over Naruto, and then he relaxed and started to kiss Sasuke back.
After a while, they both pulled back and Sasuke pulled Naruto into a hug, and whispered three words that Naruto thought he would never hear.
"I love you."
"I love you too," Naruto replied, holding onto Sasuke as tight as he could, feeling Sasuke kissing the top of his head.
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Two years later.
"Hey, Naruto?" Sasuke asked, looking at a more healthy, brighter, and happier looking blonde.
"Yes?"
"I… promise I'll never hurt you. I promise that I'll love you for forever. Will you… will you be mine forever?" Sasuke got down on one knee before Naruto, holding out a ring covered in diamonds, inside it was engraved with the words 'Sasuke and Naruto forever. Xoxo'