A/N: This is just a quick one-shot. Maybe I'll make it a two-shot or a story...I don't know. Hope you like it though! This is slightly Gauken or however you spell it!

Disclaimer: I don't own hetalia

The hardest part is leaving you...

~Maddie~

I didn't want to say goodbye to him, but I had to. I couldn't stay any longer, not when he was that happy with someone else... Not when everytime I saw him that gut wrenching feeling in my chest grew so much more and my heart would crumble to dust a little bit more. I had to leave and maybe one day I could come back to him. One day hopefully it would hurt less. And I could smile at him when he is with her and mean it...

I loved him. I really did but I couldn't handle it.

"So that's it? He's driven you to leave? Don't let the damn bastard make you leave. You are stronger than that, stop being such a fucken wuss!" Lovina yelled at me. She was the only one that knew, and sure she never was that suportive of my love but she didn't want me to leave.

"Lovina, I can't sit by and watch him be happy with her when I'm slowly breaking silently here, with my fake smiles when secretly I'm crying on the inside." I said.

"But you don't need to leave. It will get better." She said, still trying to reason with me.

"That's what I told myself but it just got worse. We both know it won't get better. I know I'm being a coward, running away from this, but right now that's the best way for me to deal with this." I said.

"I know I won't be able to talk you out of this, but please make sure that you are doing the best thing." Lovi said pulling me into a tight hug.

"I will. I promise to keep in touch." I said getting up and walking out of the small italian styled home.

I walked to my dorm, the light from the lamp posts guiding my way. The night was beautiful, the stars were shining bright as if making one of my last nights here memorable. I smiled a small smile as I made it to my front door. Just three more days until my flight.

I walked into the now bare dorm. All that was here was the fridge, my bed, and drawers. They would be moved to my new home on the day of my flight.

I quickly changed into my pajamas and layed down on the bare matress. I wanted to leave but at the same time I knew I could possibly regret this, but it was worth a shot. I needed to restart my life with out him.

Today was my last day here. There were no classes today since it was Saturday. I didn't know how I was going to tell him goodbye but I had to. No matter how much it hurt me. I had already tried to tell him muktiple times but everytime the words jsut would not come out. Other times she would appear and I just couldn't say what I wanted.

A letter...

That's it. I'll just right him a letter...

I sat down on my bed and started writting.

"Flight 17 to Vancouver now bording." A voice over the loud speaker said. That's my flight. I grabbed my lavender colored suit case and borded the the plane. Lovina had said goodbye to me this morning. The letter I wrote to him was taped to his dorm door. I hope he notices it.

"Ladies and gentlemen, please put your seatbelts on we will be leaving in 3 minutes." The flight attendant said.

This was it. Hopefully I would be back next year if my emotions settled down.

~Ivan~

I walked to my dorm and noticed a red envolope taped to it. It had my name written on it in beautiful writting that I knew well.

I grabbed it and sat on my bed. I opened up and read the letter. It read:

Dear Ivan,

I didn't know how to say this to you without messing up so this was my last resort. Of this whole situation this is the hardest part, but I could not bare to see you so happy with another. You see Ivan I love you and it hurt to see you with my sister. I just could not bare it anymore so I'm moving back to Canada, I'm already gone on my flight by now. I hope I can come back later on, maybe in a year or two. I just had to let you know how I felt before I left. I know you would never feel the same way. I just hoped, but that was my mistake. I love you Ivan but if being with Amelia makes you happier then that's all I want for you.

Now the hard part. Goodbye Ivan. I wanted to say this to you face to face but everytime I tried I messed up or Amelia interupted. This is so hard for me. I hope you can forgive me for not saying this personally.

I love you,

Madeline Williams

Maddie was gone...and it was all my fault.

A/N: Hope you liked it! This may turn into a two-shot or a three-shot if a couple people want it. Please review! The feedback would be great. And please excuse the spelling mistakes, I am currently rushing since I am suppose to be doing something way different than this while on the computer...hehe...