I do not own D. Grayman or it's characters. If I did my character Mary Lam would be with Allen.

"Isn't Lenalee beautiful?" Allen asked me. I nodded in agreement, "Yeah she is…." I sighed. Allen studied my face. I looked back confused.

"Is something wrong, Allen-kun?" I asked.

"Mary, do you feel well? Your face is flushed bright red…"

I gasped. 'Shit I blushed again'

Every time I'm around him, I blush. Wanna know why? Because I, Mary Lam, Allen's partner in exorcism, am in love with my best friend, Allen Walker. Sadly for me, Allen loves someone else. She was so perfect and I'm a nothing. It hurt me to think about it. That night I decided at that moment I would end my life to end the hurt.

"Mary? Are you ok?" Allen was waving his hand in front of my face.

"I might have a fever…uh….I'll be in my room!" I shot up and zoomed to my room.

"Bye Mary!" Allen called to my back.

In my room at last I wrote a final note to Allen-

'Dear Allen,

By the time you've read this, I've probably already died. I'll miss you so much. That feeling is probably not mutual. I hope you and Lena get together. Goodbye.

I love you so much

-Mary'

As a last gesture of love I kissed the envelope. I slid it under his door and walked towards my room. Allen burst out of his room a very pissed expression on his face.

"MARY LAM! GET BACK HERE NOW!" He screamed.

I booked it to my room and locked the door. Shortly after I heard Allen throw himself against the door desperately. "Mary! No!"

I smiled and said "You cannot stop me Allen"

I jumped out my window. I fell swiftly towards my almost death.

"CROWN CLOWN!"

My eyes shot up. I saw Allen launching himself out the window Crown Clown mode.

He fell beside me, his pissed off but concerned eyes never leaving mine.

Like….40 feet from the ground (the order is a big building) Allen wrapped his arms and clown belt around me and flipped himself upright. He landed on his feet.

The force from the impact made me fly very violently from his vice grip. I rolled along for a bit until I rolled to a stop….under a thorn bush. I watched as Allen stalked toward the bush. He knelt and grabbed my wrist pulling me out. He held me up in the air by my wrist until I began wincing from the pain it brought. He put me down and slumped to the ground.

I watched him cautiously.

He looked up at me with dead eyes and reached up and pulled me into his arms. He stroked my hair and my back gently. Taking care not to touch my injuries from my last mission. It took me by surprise at the gentleness he was showing me. He was crying.

"Please don't do that to me again Mary." He took my face in his hands and kissed me.

"Mary, I've always liked you but I pretended to like Lenalee….I didn't know it would drive you this far."

I hugged him in response. He smiled a little at that and wrapped his arms even tighter and clown belted us up to his room. His grip never loosened. We both passed out on his bed

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There is an original version of this story with Lavi and another still with Allen but with two chapters which I will put up if you R & R. My first Story