Abby was sitting on the bench. She glanced up to the sky. A big dark cloud began to arrive above the city. She sighed and closed her eyes to smell the rain which was near. Suddenly she grinned when she felt a drop on her mouth. She opened eyes and stood up. She walked in the street. She didn't know where she went but she continued her way. A tear flowed on her cheek.
Luka walked up and down in the flat.
He took his cell phone and composed a phone number.
"Cook
County Hospital, I listen."
"Frank? It's the doctor
Kovac."
"Good evening, Doctor Kovac."
"Is Abby
here?"
"Nope, sorry."
"Okay, thanks."
"You're
welcome."
"See you tomorrow."
"See you."
Luka
picked down and sighed. He slided into his hair. He went to the
door, took his jacket and opened the door. He went to go out when
suddenly he jumped, seeing Abby. She looked at him. Her wet hair
dropped on her shoulders. She shivered. Luka turned his eyes
away.
"Where were you?"
"I needed a walk."
"With
this weather?"
"Shut up, Luka!"
She entered, furiously.
Luka closed the door and threw his jacket on the chair.
"You're
soaking."
"I know."
She didn't look at him. He moved to
her and put his hand on her shoulder, but she slipped away.
"I
go to take a shower."
She went to the bathroom and bolted the
door.
Luka was lying down on the bed. He heard the bathroom's
lock, and then he heard Abby's steps in the corridor. She entered
in the bedroom and laid down next to him.
"Abby…"
"I'm
tired, I would like to sleep."
"We must talk."
"Not
now, Luka. Let me sleep."
Luka sighed.
The
sun began to raise in the sky. Luke felt its warmth on his face. He
opened his eyes, slowly. He moved in the bed. At the bottom of him,
he hoped that Abby is just next to her, lying down. But there was
nobody. He sighed, despairing. He got up. He pulled on his pants. He
went to the living room.
"Abby?"
No answer. He served
himself a cup of coffee and shook his head. Suddenly, he heard
someone who closed a door. Abby appeared in the kitchen.
"Good
morning", Luka said.
"Hi."
Her tone of voice was icy.
Luka shivered. He watched her attentively. She was putting on her a
black jacket. She was wearing black pants and a headband. She had
combed her hair, carefully. Her hair was bright. She was so
beautiful… Luka had a heavy heart. So near… but so far… Abby
looked at him.
"Why are you watching me like that?"
Her
tone of voice was more and more icy.
"Abby…"
"Okay.
Luka, I don't want to talk, now. I will be late. I must go
now."
She took her handbag and opened the door.
"Abby!"
She
turned, she shook the head, and then she went out and closed the
door. Luka bent the head.
Abby got out subway. She went down
the stairs and…suddenly she stopped herself. She stopped when she
saw a seven or eight months pregnant woman. Her heart squeezed up.
She was on the verge to break down. She shook her head and she went
to cross the street. But suddenly a car was arriving. Abby felt a
wave of panic to go up into her. Somebody pounced on her to save her.
Abby was stretched out on the ground. The man was on her. She looked
at him. He smiled, stood up and helped Abby to stand up.
"Are
you okay?" He asked.
"Oh…yeah…I believe…I dunno."
"The
next time, make attention when you'll cross the
street."
"Yes…"
"Are you sure that you are
okay?"
"Yup…thank you."
"Welcome, Miss."
She
smiled to thank him and turned in direction to the hospital. The man
saw a paper on the ground; he picked up it and watched it. It was a
photo of a little baby. He looked around him to see if Abby was still
here. He saw her who was coming in the building. He smiled and ran to
there. He entered and asked to a nurse.
"Excuse me, did you see
a woman, brown hair, brown eyes, very pretty?"
"Yes, it's
the doctor Lockhart. She is in the rest room."
"Thanks."
Abby
appeared with her overall.
"Sorry,…Doctor Lockhart. You lost
it when you fell."
She looked at the photo. The man noticed that
she had hurting by this photo.
"He's cute."
"He's
dead."
She took it and continued.
"Who are you?"
"Yes…I'm
Doctor McMahon, Ryan McMahon."
"Oh…you're the new
doctor."
"Yes. The substitute of Doctor Clemente."
"Nice
to meet you. I must go."
She went away. Bryan smiled and shook
the head.
Luka entered in the room. Abby was sitting on the
chair.
"Are you okay? Neela said to me about this morning?"
"I'm
okay."
"What happened?"
"I didn't look."
He
sighed.
"Stop it."
She looked at him,
surprised.
"What?"
"Your behaviour. Your reaction towards
me, towards the situation."
"What do you want?"
"I want
to talk! I want to talk with you about the baby, about us."
"There
is nothing to say."
"Oh, yes. There are a lot of things to
say. And I begin. He's dead. Our son is dead."
"I know!"
She
stood up, she didn't dare to look at him in eyes.
"I know it!
I lost my baby. I lost my son. And I can't do anything."
"You
can talk, you can to deliver you."
"Nothing can deliver my
pain."
"So…me… I'm nothing to you…nothing…"
She
didn't answer. Luka moved towards her and caressed her cheek.
"I
need you… Because you're not the one to suffer. I lost my child.
I lost my third child."
He turned and went out.
Luka
went out the elevator. He arrived in NICU. He knocked at the door.
"Enter."
He opened the door. The doctor was sitting at his
desk.
"Doctor Kovac."
"Doctor Cooper"
"Thanks to
be come."
Luka sat in front of him.
"Why did you call
me?"
"I wanted to know if you want the thread of your son…"
"I
dunno…"
Doctor Cooper put the thread on the desk. Luka's
eyes put on the thread and read:
Josip Damian Kovac. Born: 3 July
2006. Death: 10 July 2006.
He shivered and looked at the
doctor.
"I will take it, thank you."
He stood up and went
out. He leant on the wall and a tear began to flow on his
cheek.
Abby walked in the corridor. Sam passed next to
her.
"Sam?"
"Yes?"
"Did you see Luka?"
"I
left."
"Why?"
"I don't know. He asked Weaver if he
could leave."
"Thanks."
"You're welcome."
Abby
entered in suture room and composed a phone number on her cell phone.
Nobody answered. The answering machine was working.
"Hello,
you're on the answering machine of Abby and Luka. We're not here.
Let a message after the bip."
A smile curved on her lips. She
remembered the day where they did it. Abby was lying down on the bed
and Luka was kissed her belly. She was six months pregnant. Suddenly,
she jumped when she heard the bip. She sighed and picked down.
Sam
moved forward the bench in the ambulance bay where Luka was sitting.
She sat next to him and said to him.
"Are you okay?"
"Not
really."
"You know…you can talk to me. I will listen to you…
Don't remain like that."
He looked at her and a little smile
appeared on his lips.
"I never imagined that it happened
again."
"What? Your children?"
"Yeah. Lose another
child. (He paused.) Abby is…hurting…and she doesn't want that I
help her."
"She needs time… She was so happy… and now…
let her time."
"Yeah. I will let her time. I'll
leave."
"Luka… Where?"
"Darfur. I must change my
mind. I can't stay here. Abby doesn't want to be with me. I'm
alone. I need to know that I can help someone."
"I'm sure
she needs you, but it's too hard for her to ask it."
"Perhaps.
But I can't. I said to Weaver. I'll leave in the
night."
"Luka…talk to her."
He looked at her, his eyes
were full of pain, full of despair.
"Sam, she doesn't want to
talk."
Sam sighed. Luka glanced up the sky and he felt Sam's
hand put on his hand.
"Keep hope. It will happen well. I'm
sure." She added
Abby entered in Luka's place. She noticed
immediately the glass of whiskey on the living room's table, a
smell of cigarette and three cigarette butts in the
ashtray.
"Luka?"
She took off her coat, she put her handbag
on the floor. She saw bedroom's door was opened. She went there.
Luka was packing his bags.
"What are you doing?"
"I'll
leave."
She said anything. Luka wasn't surprised that she
didn't answer. In his heart, he hoped that she begged him to stay
but, she didn't move.
"Why?"
"Why? You ask me why?
Abby… We need time, both. You remain like that and it's killing
me. I feel that you don't want my help, and it's hurting me. I
prefer to leave and that we take time to think about us. Because, I'm
sure I love you. But I don't really sure that… you… you love
me."
He took his bags and went to the door. He put on his coat.
Abby appeared, running.
"Where will you
go?"
"Darfur."
"No…no…Luka…not there. Everywhere
but not there."
"I need to help other people, who ask my help
to relieve their pain contrary to you."
He smiled a last time,
moved forward her, took her by her waist and put a sweet kiss on her
mouth and then he left. Abby felt that she was falling. Her heart
bounced more and more rapidly.
