Title: Loginc and Reasoning
Series: Means to an End
Author: Autumn
E-mail: dyslexic_crisco_penguin_fiend@hotmail.com
Summary: A darker look at Rogue's thougths post-SOL.
Dedication: For Caroline and Laeto who wanted more DarkRogue stories.
The cautious glances, the hateful stares and nervousness exist only
when I am around. Caution for my skin is deadly. Hate for the part
of my psyche that belongs to a long established enemy. Nervousness
for the larger piece of the unpredictable man/beast living in my head.
They resent me, and I hate them for it. They treat me as if
I am a parasite and each of them a potential host. Erik was right.
There in no land of tolerance. Especially not here, in this mansion
where equality and acceptance are stressed. The people here are both
equitable and accepting, but not tolerant. Never confuse the three,
it is a deadly error.
Equality can get you hurt, when you discover it is nothing but
an illusion. Acceptance can get you killed when you accept the fact
that you have deadly adversaries, you may as well put a down payment
on a casket. Tolerance, will allow you to use both devices you your
advantage, it allows you to fully understand your opponent and
measure their ability. You accept the fact that they are not your
equals, and a good fighter will exploit that.
Charles does not understand this and over the years he has gone
from being naive to being a fool. And I cannot stay her any longer.
Being around his ideals is sickening. Seeing the X-Men and the
resident children emulate that believe brings forth the rage I
inherited from Erik and Logan.
Logan believes the X-Men's "attack only if provoked" mentality
will get me killed one day. I have to say, I second that opining.
Erik feels Charles is wasting his time on a Utopian idea that will
never be more than that, an idea.
Both men are right in their own ways. Were you to ask me, my
views are fairly similar. The X-Men can get you killed, my own
experience can attest to that. I can state with confidence that had
it not been for Logan, I would be dead. Scott wouldn't have gone up
there, nor Jean, nor Storm. Excuse me if I hold that against them.
The point is not that the X-Men are cowardly, it's the fact that
they fight for all the wrong reasons that pisses me off. Sacrificing
one, to save everybody and all that. Maybe I'm selfish but I can't
agree with their ideals. How do you ever know for sure that the one
life you let slip away wasn't the most important one? How can you
say that saving more people is the higher objective? How do you
justify what is in fact associated murder?
Logically and statistically you have a much better chance at
saving one person, than in saving hundreds or thousands. It's not
cowardly to aim for the logical answer. Better than overestimating
your own power and abilities and in the end loosing everything,
including the one life you could have saved.
Erik, may be a little extreme in his ideals, but at least he's a
realist. I understand him better than even Charles does. His
memories are now equal to mine. I have accepted the fact that he
tried to kill me. But most importantly, we can tolerate each other.
That's something the X-Men and I will never have.
"Logan, this is Charles Xavier. Rogue has vanished."
Pause.
"I fear she has gone to Erik's."
To be Continued...........
Series: Means to an End
Author: Autumn
E-mail: dyslexic_crisco_penguin_fiend@hotmail.com
Summary: A darker look at Rogue's thougths post-SOL.
Dedication: For Caroline and Laeto who wanted more DarkRogue stories.
The cautious glances, the hateful stares and nervousness exist only
when I am around. Caution for my skin is deadly. Hate for the part
of my psyche that belongs to a long established enemy. Nervousness
for the larger piece of the unpredictable man/beast living in my head.
They resent me, and I hate them for it. They treat me as if
I am a parasite and each of them a potential host. Erik was right.
There in no land of tolerance. Especially not here, in this mansion
where equality and acceptance are stressed. The people here are both
equitable and accepting, but not tolerant. Never confuse the three,
it is a deadly error.
Equality can get you hurt, when you discover it is nothing but
an illusion. Acceptance can get you killed when you accept the fact
that you have deadly adversaries, you may as well put a down payment
on a casket. Tolerance, will allow you to use both devices you your
advantage, it allows you to fully understand your opponent and
measure their ability. You accept the fact that they are not your
equals, and a good fighter will exploit that.
Charles does not understand this and over the years he has gone
from being naive to being a fool. And I cannot stay her any longer.
Being around his ideals is sickening. Seeing the X-Men and the
resident children emulate that believe brings forth the rage I
inherited from Erik and Logan.
Logan believes the X-Men's "attack only if provoked" mentality
will get me killed one day. I have to say, I second that opining.
Erik feels Charles is wasting his time on a Utopian idea that will
never be more than that, an idea.
Both men are right in their own ways. Were you to ask me, my
views are fairly similar. The X-Men can get you killed, my own
experience can attest to that. I can state with confidence that had
it not been for Logan, I would be dead. Scott wouldn't have gone up
there, nor Jean, nor Storm. Excuse me if I hold that against them.
The point is not that the X-Men are cowardly, it's the fact that
they fight for all the wrong reasons that pisses me off. Sacrificing
one, to save everybody and all that. Maybe I'm selfish but I can't
agree with their ideals. How do you ever know for sure that the one
life you let slip away wasn't the most important one? How can you
say that saving more people is the higher objective? How do you
justify what is in fact associated murder?
Logically and statistically you have a much better chance at
saving one person, than in saving hundreds or thousands. It's not
cowardly to aim for the logical answer. Better than overestimating
your own power and abilities and in the end loosing everything,
including the one life you could have saved.
Erik, may be a little extreme in his ideals, but at least he's a
realist. I understand him better than even Charles does. His
memories are now equal to mine. I have accepted the fact that he
tried to kill me. But most importantly, we can tolerate each other.
That's something the X-Men and I will never have.
"Logan, this is Charles Xavier. Rogue has vanished."
Pause.
"I fear she has gone to Erik's."
To be Continued...........