A/N: So I wrote a new story. I hope you like it. If you have read my other story Life with a Broken Mind you know I'm not great at updating but I'm gonna try to put up as much as I can. Since I'm out of school right now I'm gonna try to put another chapter of Life with a Broken Mind up and I'm working on some other stories too. So look out for some more stuff. HAPPY 2014 EVERYONE! I hope we all have great year

Logan POV

Carlos was avoiding me. More than avoiding me it was like he was afraid to even be around me. Every time I walked into a room Carlos made a lame excuse saying he'll see me later but later never comes. If I go to touch him he flinches and then pretends it didn't happened and runs off. 'Did I do something?' I need to find him and get him to tell me what's going on.

I need to get him to tell me why he is acting as if I have the plague. To be honest it really hurts. Carlos is such a good friend. I would do anything for him. He is honest and loyal and just amazing. Carlos, Kendall, James and I have always been together, inseparable really. Everyone knew us as a single entity, you never saw just one. So when Kendall and James got together people weren't really that shocked, not like me and Carlos anyway. It's not like we didn't accept them, it just was a shock. I mean one day we're best buds the next day they're sucking face, all the time.

Everyone kept saying Carlos and I were next, but I'm pretty sure I'm straight. I mean I've never had sex before with girl or guy or even had a sexual thought, for that matter. I know it sounds weird for a high school senior not to think that way but it's true. Anyway I'm focused on school right now I don't need the drama. I already have issues I don't need any more. By issues I mean my black outs. I suffer from random black outs. I will literally just forget whole parts of my day. Once I even blacked out for three days, I just woke up on my couch and couldn't remember anything. I haven't told anyone because I don't want people thinking I'm crazy or something. So, I'm pretty sure a relationship would be good right now.

I walked into the cafeteria to find my friends before I head to the library for my study session. My SATs are coming and I need to pass so I can be a step closer to being a doctor. I looked around for them but couldn't see them.

"Yo! Loges!" I heard Kendall yell from the other side. I waved at him making my way over there. When I got there and sat next to Carlos he started to squirm and slowly moved away. Kendall and James didn't notice since Kendall was current being fed, what I'm assuming is supposed to be pizza, by James. After a little while Carlos finally got up.

"Oh.. I almost forgot… I-I need to pick up my… um.. helmet from the… um… waxing parlor" Really!? Of all his excuses that was the best. He quickly walked out. I turned back to Kendall and James.

"Is something wrong with 'Los?"

"I don't think so. He seems fine" James said. Kendall nodding in agreement.

"Well maybe you two haven't notice because your too busy stealing each other's spit to see it." I joked causing a few tater tots to hit me in the head.

"You're just jealous because you aren't getting any." Kendall jeered. I laughed, shaking my head and stood.

"Well I'm gonna go find him."

"Alright. Come here James I need to steal some spit" Kendall said grabbing James' head as they pretended to make out.

"Eww… Bye lover boys."

"You wish you were us!" James yelled as I left. I looked all over for Carlos but when he wants to disappear he does. Not being able to find him I went to the library. It is one of my favorite places, as much as I love being with the guys, I'm a loner by nature. The library is meant for me I love books and the solidarity and quite are perfect. I was in the very back, in the history section, most people don't come back here. When the do it is to make out, because there's a blind spot where the cameras can't see. It's even marked with a little piece of tape. I don't know how kids find this stuff out. I don't even want to think about all the times I caught James and Kendall back here.

I had my favorite book, The Complete Works of Charles Dickens Volume I. It's an amazing read. I was sitting on the ground by the autobiographies, when I heard a small whimper from the shelf behind me. I thought someone was crying. I listened closer then I heard a snore, someone just fell asleep. I heard another whimper, I was about to get up and move when I heard Carlos' voice.

"No… please…" Carlos mumbled. What? Is he having a nightmare? I got up and moved to the behind me where Carlos sat. He had his head lend against the self and his arms wrapped around himself. It looks like he was crying. I can see dried tear tracks on his cheeks. Oh Carlos. What happened? I walked up to him and sat next to him, listening to his quiet whimpers.

"I'm sorry… Logan please stop…" I froze at the mention of my from my best friend nightmare. Why me? What did I do Carlos?

"STOP!" Carlos said more loudly, jerking slightly. I few people looked over at us and I gave them an apologetic smile. I nudged Carlos but he didn't get up.

"Carlos" I whispered nudging him harder. He jerked awake and looked at me. When he looked at me I saw a little fear in his eyes but it quickly disappear replaced with hesitation.

"'Los are you ok?" I asked and then he seemed to relax.

"It's you, Logan." He mumbled under his breathe. Thinking couldn't hear.

"Yea, it's me. Who else would have this face?" he looked to the ground and started to move away from me again. Before he got far enough away to leave I grabbed his arm. "Carlos what's wrong? Why have you been avoiding me? And why are you having nightmares with me in them?"

"Let go of me Logan." Was all he said not even turning to look at me.

"No. Not in till you tell me what is going on with you?" I gripped on to him tighter. He quickly turned around and got so closer to me I had to back away.

"You may think its ok to treat me like this but it's not. One day were friends, the next were lovers, and the next you beat the shit out of me. NO. MORE. Between you, Phillip, and Henderson I'm going fucking crazy." I dropped his utterly confused. I had no words. I still don't.

"What?" I said softly sounding as confused as I was. I just shook his head. "Never mind" He got up and walked off.

I followed him out, lunch was almost over and I needed to know what the fuck that was about. I caught up to him quickly. "Carlos. What the fuck was that? Who is Phillip and Henderson?" He turned to me and looked me in the eye. "How do you feel about me Logan?" "What do you mean? Your my best friend, like my brother." At that moment I had never seen so much hurt before. Tear began to fall down his face.

"I- I can't even look at you because it fucking hurts too much right now." He turned around. "Carlos-. " I lightly gripped his shoulder. He flinched away from me. I can't take him being like this around me. "Carlos I-. " This time I stopped because Carlos' lips were against mine. I wish I can tell you what happened next but when I came to I was in Carlos' bed with Carlos wrapped around me.

A/N: So there you have it. A brand new story. Tell me what you think of it? What do you think is going on so far? I absolutely love getting your reviews. Don't forget to look out for some more stuff.

Till Next Time :)