Living In Ibiza - Chapter 1 / Pretend
Jess' POV
Today is the third anniversary of me and Becker moving here to Ibiza and since we moved here and things couldn't have been more different from when we first moved here, since then we have got different jobs... Well we own two of our own businesses. We have a hotel which has seven floors but the seventh floor is mine and Becker's apartment so really it has six floors and six hundred rooms, then next door we have a nightclub which is doing very well an both of our businesses are called ARC.
Another big thing that has changed from when we first moved here is; me and Becker got married. We got married six months after moving here and we flew everyone out to join us in an amazing beach ceremony and we did a two week honeymoon in Hawaii then we went home to London for a blessing there with the people who couldn't be present at our actual wedding and we were there for a couple of weeks so really we had two honeymoons.
I'm making it sound like that everything here is perfect and it isn't, it's far from perfect actually. Me and Becker have made some friends since moving here and two of our friends here are Alan and Rachel and they too are a couple, a few weeks ago Becker went out with Alan for his stag party and got really drunk. He cheated on me and I don't just mean he kissed and had a touch with another girl he slept with another girl then didn't tell me about it for a week and when I did find out I threw him out and since then he's been staying in one of the vacant rooms.
I hadn't decided whether or not me and Becker can get over this or not, I never thought in a million years he would cheat on me or have that much disrespect for me! I was so angry at him and I didn't know what to do, can I forgive him? Can I ever trust him again? Becker had been giving me my space but we still had to businesses to run so we had to talk to each other but we only ever talk about work we don't speak about our problems but we needed to sort something out very soon because Abby, Connor, Matt and Emily were coming to visit tomorrow and they didn't know about our problems... No on did.
What was I going to do? Should I tell them what was going on? No I couldn't do that I didn't want them to know that things were going bad here I had been warned things would go wrong here and I didn't want them to think they were right. Me and Becker would just have to pretend that everything was fine between us whilst they were here I'm sure he can do that for me, they are only here for a few days.
I went and checked the two rooms they would be using to make sure they were clean and perfect waiting for them to land tomorrow morning, then I went to the room Becker had been using and let myself in. He was sitting on the sofa in the room looking through some paperwork "Hi" He said softly as I sat down next to him "How are you? I haven't seen you in a couple days" He stated.
"I've been better" I answered and he knew what I meant "I actually came here to talk to you about the team visiting tomorrow, what happened is none of their business and I don't want them to know how rubbish life is here at the moment so for the time that they are here I want us to pretend that we're OK and everything is fine, I'm sure you can do this one small thing for me. For the time that they are here I am allowing you to move back into our apartment but you're on the sofa" I explained to him.
"Jess we got to talk about all of this properly, I am sorry for what happened and I don't know how many times I can say it or make it up to you. It's been three weeks now, what is going on? I don't want to be living in this room for the rest of my life waiting for you to make a decision... If you can't forgive me or trust me anymore then we need to break up and get divorced I'm not living life like this" He said strongly, I sighed and stood up to leave "Stop walking away from me!" He called as I got to the door.
"Becker I don't know what I want, I am so hurt after what you did. Do you know I cry myself to sleep every night and hug your pillow because it still smells like you and I wear your t-shirts to bed so it feels like your holding me. I love you so much but I don't know what's going to happen between us, I don't know if I can forgive you and right now I defiantly do not trust you. Please can we pretend we're OK just whilst they are here then we'll sort everything out and either work it out or end it but please just do this for me" I pleaded with him.
When I got up the next morning I looked at my clock and seen I had three hours till the other got here so I went to Becker's room where I knew he would already be up and let myself in again, he was sitting on the sofa with a book and his bag next to him "All packed I see" I said.
"I wasn't sure when you would be up and I didn't want to disturb you, when are the team going to be here?" He asked as we left his room and made our way up to our apartment.
"We got about two hours till they get here, I can't believe they chose this time to come and visit us" I sighed as we entered the lift, I put my key card and pressed 7 on the lift button and we started moving.
"Jess I really am sorry for everything..." He started.
I cut him off "No. From today till Friday when the team go we are not talking about it" I told him.
We drove to the airport together to pick them all up, when we saw them I ran up to them and hugged them all, Becker shook the guys hands and kissed the girls cheeks. I just hugged everyone and kissed everyone's cheek and told them how much I missed them, I knew Matt and Emily were engaged so I asked to see her ring and I was nearly knocked over... It was huge!
We got back to the hotel and once they dropped their stuff off we met at the front of the hotel where we went to the beach, the boys went out on some jet skis and us girls just sat in the sun topping up our tans "In my day if you had a tan it was bad, what it meant was you were a worker who worked outside a lot and obviously you were poor" Emily informed us.
Me and Abby looked at her and laughed "So Jess how's business?" Abby asked.
"Business is booming. The hotel is always full and the club is always full, we always have something going on there like; fancy dress, decade nights, half price nights, competition nights so we always have a crowd in and with me and Becker there every night or nearly every night all the staff behave themselves and if there's any trouble Becker sorts it" I told them and they seemed impressed.
At dinner that evening we took them out to a restaurant that me and Becker used to go to often but we haven't been there since the cheating came out, the team were really impressed with everything and seemed really supportive of us "So when are you going two finally going to have a baby? You've been married two and a half years I thought you would have had loads by now" Abby said.
"We're just concentrating on our businesses for the time being, hopefully soon though" Becker answered and smiled at me.
"Well what about you and Connor?" I questioned.
"Actually me and Abby are trying for a baby and have been for a few months" Connor answered.
I couldn't believe it, Connor was all grown up and married and trying for a baby who would've thought it for Connor? I'm happy for him though him and Abby are so in love and I know when they have a baby they will love it so much and it will be the most spoilt baby ever, would I ever get the family I dreamed of if me and Becker split?
They couldn't of chose a worse time to come! We had so many problems and I couldn't stop thinking about all the things I might miss out on if me and Becker split but should that be a reason to stay with him? I still loved him deeply and I would love nothing more then to sort things out but I just can't trust him. Since he's moved out I've been tempted to go down to his room at night to see if there's anyone there with him, I want to check his mail and phone records to see who's been talking to him... I was crazy "Excuse me" I said as I felt tears brimming my eyes and I went for the bathroom fast before anyone could see my tears.
A few seconds later there was a knock on the door and Becker came in "What's wrong?" He asked concerned.
"Listening to how happy everyone is, we're miserable and Abby and Connor are trying for a baby and I wanted one so bad but I knew you wasn't ready and now with you cheating I don't know if we're going to get back together or not and I don't know if I'm going to get the future I wanted with you" I explained as tears came down my eyes.
Abby's POV
I know Becker had gone after Jess but I wanted to make sure she was OK, the door to the bathroom was open and I was about to go in but I heard something that made me stop "and now with you cheating I don't know if we're going to get back together or not and I don't know if I'm going to get the future I wanted with you" It was Jess speaking.
Becker had cheated on her? On his wife? "Jess I want us to work through this and I want to give you the future you wanted, I know what I did was wrong and it should of never happened but it did and we need to figure out if we can move on from this or not because if we can't then we need to divorce and I really don't want to do that I love you to much" Becker told her.
I couldn't listen to anymore of this conversation so I went back to the table and resumed my seat next to Connor "Where's Jess?" He asked.
"Guys you don't wanna know what I just heard" I told them. I didn't want to say anything to them until I had spoken to Jess but I relayed what I heard to them and they were in shock "I think Jess wants to prove to us that everything is fine between them because she doesn't want us to say I told you so... I just can't believe this" I stated.
"I know I thought Becker was a real man, obviously not. Let's pretend we don't know if they want us to know they'll tell us but until then we act like everything's normal" Matt said taking control of the situation and we all sat in silence until Jess and Becker came back.