It is said that once a man admits his wrong doings, he is immediate forgiven. Of course, forgiveness doesn't come easy.
There I was, ready for WWE RAW; ready to criticize Vince McMahon for that ridiculous death angle. The next thing I know, I'm down on my knees when I that Chris Benoit had passed away along with his wife and son. I though this couldn't be happening. How and when did this happen? Somebody tell me this wasn't happening!
Then I further learned the truth and I was a wave of emotions. I felt dejected and angered, sorrowful and betrayed, depressed and disgusted. Why would Chris Benoit see fit to end the lives of his own family, and then end his own? I wanted to curse his name, beg for his to rot in the depths of Hell, but then I realized I was no better than anyone else who felt the same way. Hence, I was left feeling remorse and regret not Chris Benoit's actions, but for my closed-mindedness, my own disgust.
That's where the earlier statement becomes evident. I'm taking the time to look back at the happier times of Chris Benoit and doing so, bringing myself to forgive him. I'm also taking the time to forgive myself for my anger towards a man I once respected, in the hopes that I may learn to do so again.
I believe that Chris was wrong in was he's done, and it became too late for him to realize that in life. I was and maybe still am wrong to judge him, but I think I'll be forgiven in time. There are many of those who believe Chris Benoit is beyond forgiveness. If so, those people are the ones to be condemned.
Chris Benoit, wherever you are and whatever you've done in your life, I hope you and your family have finally found peace. The Lord forgives all his children, no matter what they've done in the lives. I think he will forgive Chris Benoit.
Some might wonder how I could come to forgive someone after such a tragedy. The answer is quite simple; because I can. In spite of my anger and disgust toward this tragedy, I was wrong and I am forgiven. In spite of his actions, Chris Benoit, I forgive you.
Rest In Peace.
Chris Benoit 1967-2007
Nancy Benoit 1964-2007
Daniel Benoit 2000-2007