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Chapter 1

For years, Liv would fantasize what it would be like to be Kathy. She wanted to know what it felt like to have him in every way. She had him at work but outside of that they didn't see each other. Yes they knew a lot about each other more than most. They could read each other's thoughts but she never had all of him. Twelve years she had him fifteen hours a day, but they were chasing down perps and saving victims. They were invincible.

In the past, she would see him look at her with those blue eyes. She knew he was worried about her but never once crossed that line of being too nosy. He understood her pain and knew she would come to him if she needed him. That was true in the early years when things were easy between them. But things changed. After Gitano, Computer Crimes, Oregon, and he moved back home, they didn't talk much about the important stuff. It seemed better to leave some things out of work.

He has always been her rock and she loves him in many ways. She's not sure what she feels are for him but love is defiantly there.

So much has changed between them this past year.

One Saturday morning El asked her to come over for a visit. He wanted to see her on their day off. So they decided to make Saturdays their day to see each other outside of work. She's not completely sure what they call it but it is like a family. She gets along with all the kids and loves them to pieces. El always picks at her for spoiling them too much. Eli is a great kid and loves to play ball with her. He calls her his Livy. It's so sweet even El tears up sometimes when he sees them together.

After a few weeks she noticed that Kathy was never there. She just assumed Kathy was working or out with the older girls. Usually it was just the twins and Eli there. She finally asked him why Kathy wasn't at the house. He said she had some things she was working out so she went to visit her sister in Utah for a while. She said she needed some time away from all of them.

It's been a year and she still is not back. Eli misses her but El always tells him she will be back soon. The poor kid has needed his Mom, how could she do that to him. She tries to do as much as I can on the days she is there. El appreciates it. She just wishes he would talk to her about what is going on. She feels torn about what to do. He knows she is there for him and that's all that matters.

They usually just sit in his living room with music on after the kids are upstairs and Eli is down for the night. Liv always wondered if this was how things were when Kathy was here. Did he and Kathy spend their nights sitting together listening to their favorite songs? It's so comforting to know they can do this and not feel strange or awkward. They don't feel like they are doing anything wrong which they aren't. They're just friends hanging out. At least that's how it's been.

Until tonight.

Tonight was different and she had to say she liked where it was heading. She knew it was wrong but really Kathy left him a year ago. Did she think he would just be waiting for her to make up her mind and come back? El is a man for goodness sake. A catholic man but he's still a man. They have always been too close over these years for this to not happen.

It was an innocent night like always sitting on the couch reading and listening to music. He was reading a sports magazine and she was reading a novel.

Then it happened and she's not sure how but it did. She's not ashamed at all about it either. It was just a little kiss anyway. He was going to get some wine for them and she decided to help him so she followed him into the kitchen. He must not have heard her behind him and when he turned around they were face to face. She started laughing when she saw the look on his face. He was like a deer in headlights. Then she noticed what she really saw in his eyes pure lust. She began to grin. The all she could do gasp when he grabbed her neck and pulled her closer.

It was the moment she had been waiting for twelve long years and God is was like heaven. His lips were smooth and gentle. She just stood there for a few seconds trying to catch up and when she did it was explosive. They were all over each other. Her hands were under his shirt; his hands were on her pant covered ass. She was on the table under him before they pulled away. They just stopped and waited. She guessed they were waiting for the sky to fall. But that didn't last long then they were at it again. There was no holding back on this. All these years of wanting something like this and to finally have it was just too much. They were like animals in heat. Her mind was mush and the pleasure was so great. It didn't matter that she couldn't think. She just wanted it to last forever.

By the time they heard the front door close her shirt was hanging off her shoulder with her bra up and his hand massaging her right breast. His pants were unbuttoned and hanging on his hips with her arms around his waist.

They finally came to their senses. El jumped off of her and across the room in two seconds. She was off the table clawing at her bra and shirt. Thank goodness for El's quick thinking as he opened the fridge and grabbed two beers and tossed her one. As she caught it Dickie walked in and asked if there was anything left over from dinner. They looked at each other and laughed. That kid never seems to get full. Dickie just looked at both of them with a shrug then grabbed an apple and went upstairs. That was a close call, not something you want to happen the first time you make out with your partner and best friend. She felt at that moment they were doomed. How could they just do that after all this time? But when she looked at El and he was walking back to her. She knew everything was going to be fine. He wanted this and it will work out one way or another.

She told him she needed to head home and put the beer down on the table. He grabbed her face and kissed her again. This time it was slow and sweet. When they pulled away he told her to be careful on the way home. She smiled and pulled him back to her, kissed him, and held him close. They kissed a little longer but decided it was time to stop when things started to heat up again. So she headed to the living room, grabbed her things, and kissed him goodbye one last time.

TBC

What will happen now? Will they regret it or will they see where this will lead them?