A/N: This is for my Bestfriend, whom I love very much, Enjoy it please. This may be triggering. So read the warning, others who are not triggered easily please continue on.

Warnings! This will have blood, self harm, and maybe some implied physical/emotional abuse. Thank you for reading this.

Izaya seemed just like his normal self,annoying, smartass, and cocky. Shizuo didn't see through that facade, and see that he was really broken. He didn't see the tears on his cheeks or the blood dripping from his wrists. Not until that day...that day he found him almost gone from his grasp…

He hadn't been annoyed by Izaya for a few day, it bugged him oddly enough. Shizuo got kind of worried about the Flea do he decided to check up on him. He got the address from Shinra. Why was he so worried? That's what bugged him the most.
His thick golden hair swished along the back of his neck as he walked. He looked down at the address on his phone and looked at the house- apartment building. Quietly he walked in the lobby and began to climb the steps to the top floor. Shizuo found Izaya's apartment easily. He knocked quietly and waited for an answer. When he didn't answer the blond tried the door knob, it was unlocked.
Slowly he opened the door to the apartment. He walked in and closed the door after himself. His eyes wandered about the apartment. It was bathed in soft yellow light from the lamp next to the couch. He took another step into the apartment and the smell of iron hit his nose. He instantly knew what the smell came from… blood.
Alarms went off in his mind. 'Why would his apartment smell like blood?!' he thought with a worried frown. He quickly followed the smell to a door just down the hallway. Quietly he opened it and his eyes widened at what he saw. Izaya lay on the ground with a razor in his hand and his wrists bleeding. He could tell from his even yet struggled breaths he was out cold.
The male hurriedly kneeled next to him and put a hand on his shoulder. "Flea...Wake up," he said with worry evident in his tone. Izaya groaned gently, obviously in pain and he wasn't going to wake up soon. Shizuo quickly took the razor, threw it out, and found a few towels and a first aid kit in the closet. The blond held the towels over the deep cuts to stop the bleeding. He quietly sat there waiting for the bleeding to stop.
When it stopped bleeding he quickly and gently put some ointment over the deep cuts. He then carefully but tightly wrapped his arms and sighed gently. "Flea…" he whispered quietly, still worried tremendously. The ex bartender gently picked him up bridal style and softly sighed once more. Then he walked into the bedroom and laid the fragile looking male on the bed. "You've been this broken for a long time and I haven't seen it ever…" he said regretfully to the out cold male on the bed.
Izaya had wanted to disappear, that's the reason for the deep cuts on his wrists. Though he wasn't expecting a certain blond to be his savior. He knew it was him even though he hadn't seen him. It was his warm but rough voice. Everything after him being found was a hazy blur in his mind. His mind sank deeper into sleep as he was laid on the bed.
He woke up after a while to Shizuo's voice. "I feel horrible for not noticing Flea, sorry," he whispered to the now awake raven. Though he didn't know he was awake. "I said those horrible things to you and then see you like that. I feel like it's my fault and I'm so sorry," he muttered regretfully. "I forgive you," the awakened male whispered in a small voice, startling the blond.
"You're awake!" he whispered, relieved. "Are you okay? Want anything to eat or drink?" he asked him, obviously relieved but still worried. "No, I'm okay," the small male said as he turned on his side to stare at the blond. He saw the redness in his eyes, he had been so worried he cried a bit. "You were crying," the male said, reaching a weak arm up to place it on his cheek.
"I don't want you to cry. I wanted to die, but I didn't know I'd hurt you if I did," he muttered, gently rubbing the redness away from under his eye. He moved his weak body closer and wrapped his arms around his neck. "I wanted to say this before I left but didn't have the chance so I'll take it now before I decide to try again," he whispered, swallowing thickly. "I love you Shizuo," he whispered in his ear, tears bubbling in his eyes. Shizuo's eyes widened at the words and wrapped his arms hesitantly around him back.
"You...love me?" he whispered, thinking this was a dream. He had loved the raven so much that it made him angry to not be able to tell him (Part of the reason he got made at Izaya usually). He held him tightly but gently. "I-I love you too Izaya, I have for a long time," he whispered gently, closing his eyes happily. Izaya was now surprised, he didn't know he was loved back.
"You love me back?!" he asked, tears slipping down his cheeks. "Yes," he whispered and pulled back to look in his eyes. "I love Izaya Orihara," he whispered and leaned in, taking his lips in a warm kiss.