Disclaimer- I do not own Star Wars Kotor 1 and 2 or their characters and likeness.

P.s. I realize I'm not the best writer, but I wanted to tell my viewpoint on this story and I just hope you enjoy it. Also you may notice some characters being a little OOC than they are in the game. I simply ask for you to bear with me

Prologue

The Jedi exile Andrew Masi had searched all across the galaxy for the last of the Jedi masters, then gathered them all to the Jedi Enclave on the temperate planet of Dantooine. So that they may work together to fight the Sith that were coming out of the shadows, However the masters believed the best way to eliminate this threat was to disconnect the exile's tie to force, because they believed he had become a wound that could bring about the end of the force, and all the life that it touched.

Ch 1.

The exile Andrew Masi laid in the middle of the courtyard of the Jedi enclave. The words that Kreia had said to him still ringed in his head. His mind was racing trying to process what had just happened. Although he was ready to accept the masters decision to sever his connection to the force. That did not mean he was going to be happy about it, but he knew this had to be done for him not to be a threat to the galaxy, A purple aura surrounded his body and Master Vrook told him not to worry, that he wouldn't feel pain but this had to be done. However, Kreia came in and stopped the masters just as they started the disconnection. When that happened Andrew's body went limp and he fell to the ground. Whatever the masters had done, it drained all the strength and energy out of him. The chills that ran through his spine made him feel like a piece of his soul had been stolen away. The last time he felt this sensation was when he first cut himself off from the force at Malachor V.

The old woman kneeled next to him and told him why she did what she did, that she wanted to know what could make a Jedi want to turn away from the force so easily. Her conclusion was that when Andrew felt the pain and suffering of all the Republic soldiers, Mandalorians, and Jedi through the force he became afraid of what it might do to him. So he cut himself off, if only enough so he wouldn't be able to hear the screams of the thousands he killed anymore. However, they did not grow silent, those voices stayed with him where ever he went. No matter how far he ran his past and the decisions he made would always follow. She got up and left without saying another word.

Andrew was confused he did not understand why she had told him all of this, or why she had not assisted him when he clearly was in need of aid. He tried to stand up, but he couldn't move; his whole body felt stiff. He started to believe that he was going to die there, but then he remembered what the masters had said. If he died everything touched by the force would also; he had to get up. Soon, the feeling in his limbs started to return, and he gave another attempt to push himself back up. However a sharp pain struck him in his arms and legs and he fell once more to the ground. "I can bring the end to all life, but I can't even find the strength to sit up straight." His eyes blurred and he could feel himself slipping into unconsciousness. Then just as he was about to slip away Andrew's thoughts wandered and he began to think about the Handmaiden, he didn't know why, she just popped into his head. He thought about all those times they had sparred together, how they talked for hours in the cargo hold, and how no matter what planet he was on or what task he had to do she was always there fighting right by his side. The realization was setting in that he may never share those moments with her again, that he may never see her face again. This lit a fire within him, he started pushing once more, pushing past the pain in his body, past the frustration of his destiny, past the betrayal of trust between him and his teacher; all so he could see the Handmaiden again. Soon he found himself standing upright once again. His legs were shaky and weak, but he was not going to let himself go down again. Andrew turned his head and saw the Jedi Masters Kavar, Vrook, and Zez-Kai Ell lying dead a few feet away. A tight knot grew within his stomach as he looked upon their motionless bodies. The men who accused him of being a threat to all life and tried to cut off his connection to the force are now dead, and yet he still mourned for them. "It was just as you all said, no matter where I go, Death follows." Andrew walked through the gardens hoping to see Kreia waiting for him. He wished to find out if she had anything to do with their deaths, even though he already knew the answer. Amidst his grief he noticed that the plant life within the academy had taken over. The former living quarters of padawans were filled with bushes and ever-growing tress. Flowers were sprouting out of the damaged computer terminals. The enclave almost seemed livelier than it was before it got bombarded by Malek. He then saw what was happening to the academy was not a sad sight but it was a happy one. The immense plant life did not symbolize the death of the Jedi, but instead it represented the renewal and rebirth of them. This made him realize that there truly is an opportunity for second chances in everything, and even though the Jedi are now virtually extinct they can still start over and rebuild themselves. In that moment he knew what he had to do, and just like if a dam had been broken the force started flowing back into his body. Andrew no longer felt the pinching sting in his legs and his eyesight became clear again. He felt the force coming back to him in a larger scale than it had ever done before, and it made him feel stronger and more aware of his surroundings as though he could tell if a bird was about to land on a tree in the next room. There was a word to describe this sensation, something he had been told by one of his former masters. "When a Jedi develops a true outlook on life and death, that is when they become enlightened with the force."

After many years his connection to the force had finally been fully restored. With renewed vigor he ran back to the Ebon Hawk determined to get his second chance and redeem himself.

...Ebon Hawk...

Within a few minutes Andrew arrived back to the ship. When he stepped onboard he could sense something was wrong. He looked around and saw that all the crew had been knocked out cold, but luckily there were no signs of major harm to any of them.

Andrew made his way to the cockpit and found Atton on the floor just coming back to consciousness and his expression was full of surprise. "Kreia told us you died, the Handmaiden freaked out and took her to Atris."

"Why would she do that?" Andrew asked confused.

"Cause Kreia used the Handmaiden's feelings for you against herself. That witch lied to the Handmaiden and made her believe she was taking a Sith prisoner to be executed for killing the only companion she felt she had on this ship."

Andrew offered a hand to help Atton up "What are you talking about; I can't be her only friend?"

Dusting him off and picking up his two lightsabers that had fallen to the floor. Atton looked up at Andrew and gave him a small grin. "None she cares as much for as you."

Putting his hands on his hips, Andrew curiously glared at Atton "I still don't fully understand what you mean?"

A small chuckle came out of the former scoundrel as he set himself back in the pilot's seat. "How can you be so oblivious? Do you not see the way she looks at you, the way she listens to everything you say, and does whatever you tell her to do? If you ask me I'd say she's in love with you."

From hearing that the exile was filled with a bright warmth inside, he had never really thought about it before, but he did feel like he was quite fond of the Handmaiden and maybe even a little attracted at times. However, he did not forget what the late Jedi masters had told him about how he may be controlling the people he travels with unwillingly. Then something came to his mind. "Hey wait did you say she was taking Kreia to he executed?" Atton shook his head up and down "but me and Kreia's bond, if she dies then so will."

"I know" said Atton somberly

Andrew ran over and began punching buttons on the navicomputer. "We're going to Telos, we have to stop this from happening."

Atton rotated his chair forward to look away from Andrew "I was afraid you'd say that." He flipped some switches on the control panel, there was a low hum and the ship came to life. "I'll get the ship prepped and ready within a few minutes and we will be off planet soon."

Andrew turned to leave "I'm going to my quarters to meditate. Wake everyone up and make sure that they get themselves ready. I fear we have a big battle in store for us."

...Andrew's Quarters...

The exile sat in silence trying to piece together all that had happened so far, and none of it made any sense. He tried to figure out why this wound existed inside of him, why he is able to create so many connections through the force, and be able to influence others so easily without even realizing that he was doing it. This boggled his mind and he couldn't find the answers. He was so deep in thought he did not notice Visas walk into the room and say "Something troubles you, I can sense it."

She seemed concerned, but Andrew wondered if those feelings were genuine. Without even opening his eyes or looking up he said "I think I've been manipulating you and everyone else that has joined me on this journey."

Visas puzzled by his response said "I do not understand." Andrew now looked up at her and asked "Do you ever wonder why you follow me and do as I do?"

Clenching her fist tightly Visas replied with a fire in her voice "Because it is my choice. When I say my life for yours I mean it, they are not just empty words. If there is a moment where my sacrifice can save you, I would take it due to my own desire and not solely upon your will."

The exile now stood up and was face to face with Visas. "But how do you know it's not the force influencing you to feel this way, that it is not me controlling your every action?"

Visas demeanor returned to calm and she remarked "I simply do, and it is not easy for me to explain. Tell me, what did you learn within the Jedi Academy?"

He found it hard to look straight at her now, and peered to the left a bit "I learned that I form connections through the force, that is why people follow me so easily, and that all the deaths I caused at Malachor live within me and could have the potential of killing the force.

Visas put her hand on his face and turned it to face her and with a passion in her voice once again she said "Then that is the danger of their beliefs, they do not see what it means to be human; to lead. I follow, because I see how you act, and how you speak. All of that tells me you are a natural leader. I follow because I believe in you. When they look at you and see the death of the force, I see the hope for all life. Take strength in your connection to others. Do not forsake them, as you did in exile."

"Thank you Visas, I will." Andrew went back down to his knees to meditate on the current situation at hand, Visas turned to leave but stopped in the doorway. "Visas I sense you are also troubled; why?"

She grips the side of the doorway and her head dips down slightly "My master waits for you at Telos, and if you go there he will wound you as he has wounded me."

Andrew gets back up from his knees and steps towards her. "If I do not stop him Telos will be destroyed, thousands of lives will be lost, and many systems will crumble soon after."

She turns back at him with a bit of panic in her voice "Please stay here with me Exile." She reaches her hand toward trying to touch his face again.

He backs away from her "You know I can't. I'm not going to allow another thousand lives be on my conscience. Besides I can't sit back and let what happened to Katarr happen to Telos."

Visas lowered her hand and frowned at him "I know, but I could not let you to go without asking this one favor. I've fought beside you through this whole journey and now I'd like to ask if you'll let me look upon you. I wish to see your face, I wish to see what everyone else onboard saw, that made them forget about their convictions or oaths and follow your teachings instead. I need to know if I was wrong, and if what my master said about the universe was untrue."

Andrew reached out and grabbed her hand. He could feel her whole body tense up right as their skin touched. "The universe is not solely as our eyes make it out to be Visas; You know this."

She looked up at him, and lowered her voice to almost a whisper. "From the moment I heard your voice across the galaxy, I have longed for you." Andrew soon started to see what she was trying to tell him "Andrew you showed me that there was another person just as wounded as me, someone who had felt a similar loss. When I heard the echo you created I loved you more than my own life. I wanted to be here with you for as long as you'd let me love you, and I can't stand the thought of my master hurting you." As she said that she started to lean in towards him, hoping to feel the taste of his lips.

However, Andrew turned his head away from her, resisting her advances. "Im sorry. I do care about you Visas and I will fight at your side, but sadly I think my heart belongs to someone else right now."

"Oh, that is good. I am happy for you." She was trying not show her disappointment, but behind the pained grin Andrew saw a small tear go past her veil and down her cheek.

"Listen Visas you can look upon me on our way to Telos, if that is what you truly wish." He said this in an attempt to cheer her up, and to also make himself not feel so bad about turning her down.

She was silent for a few moments, contemplating on her earlier request "I would like that very much, but only on one more condition."

He did not expect an extra request, but yet he was still curious to know what it was. "Sure what would you like?"

"I want you to look back at me as though I am the woman you carry those feelings for. Let me experience what she is so lucky to receive from you."

Andrew was unsure of this. He did not share those feelings for Visas, but if it would settle her down he did not see the harm in it. So they both got into a meditating position and spent the rest of the trip over to Telos looking upon one another.

...end of Ch 1...