Can I Be Loved?
I really didn't want to fight him.
I never wanted to fight with him.
Even I could tell he was sick of fighting, that's why sometimes we would just give up and kill each other. Sadly we can't actually die as countries, the wounds would always heal after a short period of time. It was such annoyance, sometimes I just want to end my life because I know I'm nuisance around them, even Lukas says so. I never wanted Lukas to get involved with Berwald's shenanigans but of course no one ever listens to me because I'm always a what's the word? Right. 'Trickster', after that conflict had ended both of them were hurt, I couldn't even look at Sve the same way I used to.
"Just end it already, I don't want to do this anymore." I croaked, my voice growing hoarse from the screaming. He was straddling me with his weapon pressed against my throat. I could feel blood oozing out of my freshly cut wounds, it hurt, like everything else on my body. I squeezed my eyes closed, the tears trickled down my cheeks. Wars are not fun, especially ones with people you love.
"Stop fucking hesitating and DO IT ALREADY!" I cry out, the pain washing over me.
"J-just hurry up and do it..." I sob. He always hesitates before striking, it was a pain in the ass.
"If you don't hur—"
"Shut up!" He yelled, interrupting me. I look up at him, there were tears rolling down his cheeks, it mixed with the blood on his face. I grit my teeth.
What kind of monster am I?
"I can't die and you know that, so just 'kill' me already!" I shout, the pain was unbearable, physically and mentally. I began to cry more violently.
"Sve, it's alright, just do it for me please? Do it for everyone, you're not the monster here... I am." I say between sobs, he stares down at me with a worried look plastered over his face, his crystal blue eyes softened, although you could hardly tell because of his cracked glasses.
"Mat—"
"JUST DO IT!" I roar, he swiftly turns his head and closes his eyes, he brings up his pole and aims it over my chest, the sharp end pointing down.
Relief washes over me. I sigh, it feels nice. I wish I could stay like this forever it was so peaceful... But alas being a country isn't just a walk in the park, no, it's much more than that. Being isolated by darkness and just laying there is such a relaxing treat, until you're greeted with reality.
"Den? Den?" I hear a soft voice call out in the darkness.
"Den? Wake up." It echoes, I feel someone gently shake me. Well... I guess there's no use of resisting reality is there? I reluctantly open my eyes, bright light is all I can see until I get use to the brightness. I sit up on the bed. I scan my surroundings. It was my room and everyone was crowding around me.
"Godmorgen..." I groan, rubbing my eyes, I get engulfed by hugs.
"Welcome back, The Kingdom of Denmark." My family greets me, I chuckle at them. I love them so much, how could I possibly forget about them?
They're the people who keep me going, even if they kill me. I know it's for a good cause, because monsters are always meant to punished.
And all monsters are loved by someone.