Meteor Shower
Seddie
Freddie
I sat alone on the fire escape for the forth time since Sam and I kissed. Ever since that night I have been having the need to be out here, and I'm not even sure why. My mom comes out every few minutes to make sure the fire escape didn't shatter into pieces and falling, taking me with it. My mom sure knows how to worry. Other than her intrusions I have had a lot of time to think. As of the moment, I have no clue if I still like Carly. That alone is kinda scary. I have liked her for quite a long time, and to not know if I like her anymore is just plain weird.
The even weirder part of it is that I think I might like Sam. I never realized she has always been here, whether it be punching me, or jut hanging around while I tried to flirt with Carly and failed miserably I don't want to sound mean, but I guess I never really noticed how pretty Sam actually is, and how cool she is, despite of her beating on me on a daily basis. Her whole aspect is a breathe of fresh air, even if I have known her a long time. I just don't who to chose, or if I should chose at all.
This whole situation is new to me. I have never had to do this kind of thing before, I feel like a new person having to make these choices. Its nice to feel like I have option, but it just never occurred to me it would unfold like this. I don't want to have to chose, but I didn't want to have to move out once when my mom went too far, but I did, didn't I?
I'm just hoping this doesn't end any of my friendships that I have with Carly of Sam, but I have this growing feeling something has got to give.
Sam
I sit alone in the corner of my room, just waiting for something to happen. I don't really care what that is, I just want something to distract me from my thoughts. I don't care if its my alcoholic mother coming in to scream at me some more, I just want to stop thinking about Freddie. Yeah, that right, Freddie.
This is such a huge waste of my time. Freddie likes Carly, end of story. That Isn't gonna change, and I doubt it ever will. That little nub may be a nerd, but he doesn't give up too easy. I should know, I have been ripping on the guy for as long as I can remember. I just hope the ripping on him will make him hate me and never give me a chance. It hard to think that the person you like is the same guy you have been bugging for years, but I guess I never really realized how kind he has been to me. After all that abuse, he is still my friend, and I can tell he really does care, I'm not sure if he cares enough to actually love me though.
He has given me so many chances to be nice to him, and I have blown them up in his face. I'm jut hoping he will give me just one more chance to prove to him that I can be gentle and lovable, just like Carly. I just want him to like me, because in truth, he is the only guy that has ever stuck by me no matter what. Besides Carly, he I all I have, and without him, I am pretty much nothing. I hate reducing myself to such a level, its something that I never show anybody. I just feel completely vulnerable, that I need one nub so much. Something is gonna change really soon, and I hope it's for the better.
The End