Disclaimer: Characters are owned and produced by ShondaLand Productions, Touchstone Television and The Mark Gordon Company. I am just borrowing them for these stories.

Original Author's Note: For those of you who know me and have anticipated the beginning of this story, the day has finally arrived. For those of you who don't know me, please allow me to introduce myself. My name is LaughLoveLive, Triple L or Trip for short, and I am here to entertain you. I have authored 21 femslash stories that cover four fandoms; That's So Raven, The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, Hannah Montana and wrestling. And before you think it, I guarantee you that if you read one of my age-progressed stories (none of those main characters are under the age of 18), you will never look at the Disney Channel the same way again (in a good way! LOL!).

So, if you're new to me, hello and welcome to my story. I love reviews and private messages so please, shower me with them; the more, the better. I accept constructive criticism and I laugh heartily at flames and I will answer any question that you throw at me.

This story will not be accurate to the actual canon of the series because I have created some canon and an original character into the mix. So when you're reading something and think that I've lost my mind and don't know what I'm talking about, it's just the story talking.

Now for my final standard disclaimer at the beginning of my stories… THIS IS A FEMSLASH STORY THAT DEALS WITH A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN TWO WOMEN. IF THIS TYPE OF STORY IS OFFENSIVE TO YOU IN ANY FORM OR FASHION, PLEASE TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO LEAVE THIS PAGE AND MOVE ON TO ANOTHER STORY.

Now that that's out of the way, I present to you, Breathe In, Breathe Out. And by the way, Grey's Anatomy is about to be Triple fic'ed.

New Author's Note: I know that Erica Hahn is long gone from Seattle Grace but when I started this story, she was there. For all of you that loved Callie and Erica as a couple, this story is for you. Since I am re-posting this and finishing it, please review. Even if you have read it before, please feel free to contact me. I am a male whore for reviews and PM's. I love hearing from you and I look forward to meeting you all in cyberspace.

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Chapter 1

Temporary Eclipse of a Spot-Filled Mind

(Callie's POV)

My name is Calliope Iphigenia Torres, and I am between a rock and a hard place. I have no one but myself to thank for the mess that I am in. Seattle Grace Hospital is simultaneously the best thing that has ever happened to me and my worst nightmare. The web that I have woven, while simple when compared to the Queen of Seattle Grace drama, Meredith Grey, is complex enough to make me want to rip my hair out sometimes. And on this day, that web just got a lot more complicated because "she" is back for good. Why on God's green Earth did she have to come back to Seattle? She had a new life in Los Angeles with her Wellness Center and her new friends. She didn't need Seattle, she didn't need Seattle Grace. We were in her rear view mirror. She became a part of my past, except she's not a part of my past because she's still in my head. She still makes my heart jump when I see her. The thought of her smile still warms me when she's not near me. My body still tingled when she embraced me because my body's history with her embraces suggested that more than just a simple embrace was soon to follow.

Damnit, I am still in love with her. I am still in love with Addison Forbes Montgomery and that is where the problem lies. I am still in love with Addison Forbes Montgomery and that is a huge problem because of "the other her".

You know who the other her is. The other her is my best friend and my lover. The other her is Erica Hahn. In the two years since Addison left, Erica and I have become as close as two people can become without being conjoined. I am the only person at Seattle Grace that can make that woman laugh out loud, not counting Sloan when he's being an absurdly crude pig. She is smart, funny, beautiful, sarcastic, and acerbic. She makes me feel like I don't have a care in the world, like I am THE single most important thing in her world when we are together. She is all mine and I couldn't be happier… except for the fact that Addison is back. That sexy, sultry, amazingly smart, phenomenally sweet woman is back. I can see why Derek and Mark fell for her. Hell, that's why I fell for her.

I swear I wish I could split myself in half and be with both of them. Since Mark helped me to come to terms with my feelings for Addison and was the first one to recognize the attraction between Erica and me, I asked for his advice. Why did I do that? If Mark had his way I would be with both of them – at the same time! Maybe if this was the Playboy Channel or Spice then a Callie/Addison/Erica threesome would happen, but this is real life so he can save that for is masturbatory fantasies. Although I did have a dream about the three of us once… would you call that pairing… Calladdica? Anyway, that's another story.

AAARRRGGGHHH! I hate feeling like this. I am truly the woman in the middle. Irresistible force meet immovable object. And here is the kicker… Erica and Addison have no idea I feel like this. This, ladies and gentlemen is being torn between the past and the present with only my future happiness in the balance. And to think that I laughed at Meredith's escapades, shook my head at Alex and Cristina and actually felt sorry for Izzie! After that tall, blonde goddess in surgical scrubs slept with my husband, I go and feel sorry for the mess of a human being that I thought she was and now, NOW, I go and fall in love with one woman while I was still in love with my ex. That's life I guess, huh? Well you know what? Life can be fucked up sometimes. Where's my iPod? I need to dance like an idiot. Maybe I'll fall down, hit my head and get amnesia and forget all this ever happened. Then again, with my luck McDreamy and his magical neurosurgical fingers would cure me. Forget my iPod. I need a drink.

(Erica's POV)

I am a board certified surgeon, the head of cardiothoracic surgery in the preeminent teaching hospital west of the Mississippi, finished second in my class at Johns Hopkins and was a finalist two years in a row for the Harper Avery Award, one of the most prestigious surgical awards in the country, not to mention that the hottest orthopedic surgeon in the state of Washington is my girlfriend. So why do I feel like things are gonna start spinning out of control any second? I've got a simple four-word answer for you – Doctor Addison Forbes Montgomery.

Addison and Callie used to have a thing. I get that. Callie acts a little weird around Addison. I get that. Weird looks get passed between them every now and then and lunches with the two of them have been slightly awkward. I get that too. I think Addison wants to see if Callie is still interested in her but she can't and won't try anything because of me and I can respect that. The thing that gets me is that I like Addison. What's not to like? She's smart, beautiful and has this matter-of-fact way about her that is authoritative in a disarming sort of way. Hell, if Callie wasn't in the picture, I may have taken a shot at Addison, but that's not how the cards were dealt.

Addison is not my enemy and yet she is because I perceive her to be a threat to the happiness that I know Callie and I can have together. So I am keeping an eye on her. Keep your friends close and your girlfriend's ex-lovers closer. Okay, I know that's not exactly the saying but you get my point. I trust Callie but not Addison. Is my trust misplaced? Only time will tell.

(Addison's POV)

I cannot believe I am doing this again. You would think I learned my lesson after walking into that damned hospital to "re-claim" Derek after he left me in New York. It is my fault that he slipped through my fingers. I completely underestimated that swizzle stick of a girlfriend he has now. Meredith Fucking Grey. But I'm over that now, I just like saying Meredith Fucking Grey. I don't know what her middle name is and I don't care. What I do care about is the fact that I have done "this" again. I have come back to Seattle Grace to reclaim another lost love and I will be damned if I come up empty this time.

Yes, I loved Derek Shepherd, but God help me, I am in love with Callie Torres. The happiest moments of my life were spent with that woman and to this day I still can't figure out why we didn't give the long distance thing a shot. I am a very good and at times bordering on brilliant neo-natal surgeon, but when it comes to handling relationships in transition, I am as dumb as a box of rocks.

I like Erica Hahn. I really do. But she and Callie aren't made for each other. They're good together but not that perfect fit. I can look at Callie and know what she's feeling. I can tell by the way she touches me what she is trying to say. There is a connection between us that she and Erica will never have.

History will not repeat itself. I am a little older and a little wiser now. While New York taught me that the moment is right now and you have to seize it before someone else does, California taught me to sit back and watch the situation develop and find your place within it so that you know how the game is played. That way, when your turn comes around, you are ready to play. And I am ready to play whatever hand is dealt to me. I don't want to be a homewrecker. I don't want to be "the other woman". I just want to be happy. Callie Torres is my happiness. Callie Torres is my joy. I miss her with all my heart. I need her. So if that means that some unflattering labels have to be applied to me, well, that is the price of doing business.

I am in love. The heart wants what the heart wants. And I want Callie.

That is your backstory. Breathe In, Breathe Out is off and running. A choice will be made before this story is over. After this first chapter, will you be in Camp Addison or Camp Erica? Without seeing a word of the next chapter, whom would you choose? This is not the last time I will ask this question.

Comparatively speaking, this is one of my short chapters. They will get much longer before this is said and done. Please come back. But before you do…

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