Rejection

by KayEsse

Spock tells Jim how he feels. His response is not what he hoped.

I should have paid more attention.

The uneasiness was there, this feeling of trepidation.

But I did not, and spoke of my heartfelt adoration.

I have always wanted his acceptance, his admiration.

This is embarrassing, this humiliation.

I should have made a better evaluation.

But thought that he often used flirtation.

So, I took that into consideration.

It was a misconception.

I cannot believe I was living this situation.

But, on the bridge, I often saw an erection.

Pointed, so many times, in my direction.

I will never understand the love I feel, this emotion.

Now, it has left me, alone, in complete isolation.

I do not think I can continue with the Federation.

I shall leave and go home, follow meditation.

I do not wish to leave his side, but I must, I have no explanation.

For we can no longer have any communication.

I am now a broken man. No one likes rejection.