Chapter One - The Doctor
My heart is broken.
Such a silly phrase. All metaphor and ignorance. So human.
But it's true. My heart is broken. The heart of me, the core of me, I am broken. Split up into a thousand little pieces and all of them cutting at me.
I don't know what to do.
All those little voices in the back of my mind saying coward! murderer! useless stupid useless bloody fool, you've lost her, she's gone and she'll always hate you now all you had to do was say goodbye couldn't even do that properly...all the little voices are drowning under a single unbearable scream.
Rose
Rose is- Rose is- I can't. Even to myself I can't say it. I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't, because maybe, maybe someday, maybe if I wish hard enough, hope long enough, believe enough, maybe it might not be true, maybe she might be here, maybe I might wake up.
I'm so lonely. I can't bear it. I'm so lonely the stars themselves ought to be swallowed up in it. How can the world still be here? How can it just carry on? Why hasn't it ended?
She was part of me. She was everything. Even knowing what she was, even knowing how soon she would die, with everything I was I loved her. I never even got to say it. The universe healed too fast and it killed me.
Why didn't it kill me?
A/N Short and depressing, I know. These chapters - soliloquies from the Doctor - will be interspersed with the same thing from OC's. I promise there will be plot, and I'll make sure you know who is talking. I'm experimenting. Be nice. And review, because if you don't, how will I know you're being nice?