She hadn't seen or talked to him for 45 days 10 hours and 7 minutes and 42 seconds but who is counting. Kensi walked into ops as she did everyday and answered the same question they asked everyday. "Has she heard from Deeks?" Unfortunately she had the same answer for them but for some reason the words couldn't even form on her mouth so she just shook her head no. It was a weird ritual they had adopted. Maybe in some odd way they were looking to remind each other, punish each other not let anyone forget what happened.

By this point the laughter of the bull pen had long been replaced with uncomfortable silence. No one really knew where to go from here but something had to give because no one would survive this much longer. Hetty had finally had enough. She wanted for them to find their way back to each other, to make each other stronger, to let the promise of the future heal the past. She was going to give them the push they needed because if they were going to survive this they were going to need each other.

"Listen up. I have had enough of this. You are all still here. Yes, you might be more broken than we were but we are still standing. Mr. Hanna, I will not pretend to know what happened with you in Mr. Deeks while you were with Sidorov but the truth of the matter is that he stood by you. He stood by your family and by this team so enough with the guilt and make this right. You are a family so start acting like one" With that the little woman left leaving the team with looking at one another, knowing that they were missing part of their family and nothing would be right until they got him back.

"Nothing like a Hetty pep talk to start things off but guys this is my fault. You all became casualties of a war on me. The torture the pain, the loss, it was meant for me and I...I am sorry." No one had ever heard G talk like this. For the first time the team had noticed a weakness in his voice, a break where one could swear he was holding back emotion, and tears welling in his eyes, they realized that G did have a weakness and it was them, his family.

"I should have trusted him. He had my back. He has always had our back and now we need to have his" Everyone knew who they were talking about. No one dared speak his name just yet.

"Guys, I have tried to talk to him. I have called, texted, randomly showed up at his place. He asked for space and I as much as it hurts me to give it to him. I have given it to him. He is my partner and I need him back."

G finally spoke "Sometimes you speak softly and carry a big stick and sometimes you use that stick to knock some sense into the people you care about"

Sam and Kensi looked at each other and started to laugh.

"G, you have been watching too much history channel"

"I think that was poetic but not entirely sure"

Their laughter seemed to heal something in the room. It wasn't completely better and maybe it never would but it felt a hell of a lot better.

They decided on their own sort of intervention with Deeks. Kensi, Callen then Sam. Each taking their turn to make peace with their beloved surfer.

************************************************** Deeks Apartment***************************************** ******

Kensi knocked on the door knowing he was home.

"Deeks, I know you are in there. Deeks, you know I can pick this lock in about 30 seconds so open the door!." As she lightly rested her head against his door praying he would answer, she quietly let out a "please".

When he came to the door he was in nothing but boxers, looking like he hadn't slept in days, skinny, sad and angry. She wasn't sure how to react so she walked in right past him and just started talking.

"Look, Deeks. I don't really know what I am doing. You know me better than anyone and you know that I am not good at these things."

"Kens, this really isn't a good time"

Kensi looked at his stormy blue eyes dead on as if trying to will her way into them, pleading with him to let her help him through this.

"You are my partner, you are my best friend and I need you back" She barely got out her last sentence. She almost broke.

"Deeks, I l..." but before she could confess to him her truth. She heard laughing.

"Deeks, baby I will...Ohh I am sorry. I didn't know anyone was here" A red head with yesterday's mascara and a skin tight party dress emerged from his bedroom.

"Hi, I am Tiffani totally nice to meet you. Deeks, have you seen my other shoe? I know I left here somewhere but sheesh you were an animal last night" She giggled to herself and then started crawling on her hands and knees looking for her other shoe.

Deeks looked at Kensi's eyes and he saw the light leave her eyes. She was right earlier he did know her better than anyone and he knew that this hurt he just caused she might not ever be able to forgive. Just as Kensi Blye was ready to take the leap of faith on her feelings, he had done the unimaginable and betrayed her. Part of him couldn't stand himself. He wanted to kiss her, tell her that he loved her more anything that he was being so stupid and selfish, that he was lost without her. The other part of him wanted her to hurt just as much as him. He wasn't sure why but his misery wanted company.

"I am sorry. I should have called first. I'll go" All Kensi could think was to get out of there as fast as she could. She felt like she was going to drown if she stood there any longer.

"Well that makes two of us, I have to totally get back to work or they are like going to kill me" Tiffani said as she held up the shoe she found like a trophy.

Somewhere Kensi found the courage to turn around and tell Deeks.

"I hope you get better soon, partner" and even though she was overwhelmed with emotion she did want her partner to get better...more than anything.

"Kensi..." Deeks had no words, nothing came out. She deserved better than him. She deserved something not so damaged.

"I'll see you later, ok" She didn't eve look back at him because she was afraid that she either might go back and punch him or kiss him. She wasn't sure which.

As Kensi walked to her car, Tiffani caught up to her.

"Hey, its Kensi right"

"Umm..yes"

"Well this is probably totally not my place but Chris has been coming to club a lot and usually keeps to himself but last night he was really charming and like really sexy"

Wondering what the hell this girl was thinking and did she know that she was carrying a gun? Kensi told her

"You know what umm Chris does with his time is his business really"

"Okayyyyy, this is really awkward but things started out really hot and heavy but then he started saying these weird things. 'Kensi, I am so sorry'. 'Kensi, I love you so much, remembering how you smell was the only thing that gave me hope'. Anyways nothing really happened. He kinda passed out after that. I doubt he remembers. I work at a strip club and trust me I see a lot of odd dudes. Chris isn't odd. I think he is just in love with you"

"Thanks, Tiffani. I appreciate it...really"

"No problemo. Thats no problem in Spanish"

Kensi couldn't help but smile at the brilliantly idiotic stripper that some how helped her in her time of need. Go freakin' figure!