Hey everyone, I finally found the time and inspiration to write a new story about Grey's anatomy. This is just the start, but I promise a very interesting love story hope everyone reads it!
Like always all beta mistakes are mine
XOXO me
It was a rainy day, so I stayed inside for a while. My mother is working and my sister is with friends. The summer vacation is almost over. I graduated, so it is time for a new education. I want to become a teacher, because I'm very good with kids. I'm enjoying my vacation, but I'm ready to meet some new people in my life. I abandoned all my friends, because they suck and they let me down all the time. So some new friends would be nice. Really nice. I only have my lesbian neighbor left, Meredith Grey. She is my best friend for over 10 years now, but still I don't believe she is gay, I mean look at her. She doesn't look gay. She was the only one who gives a shit about me. My mother thinks we have a relationship, because we do a lot together. But that's not true. I know I'm gay to, but that doesn't mean we are doing stuff. Also she has a girlfriend, so she is very busy lately. My mother thinks I'm bisexual, that's not true. I'm scared of telling her that I don't like boys at all. She will not except me in that way. Maybe she will kick me out of the house if she finds out. We are all very religious, and I don't believe the bible says it's oke to be gay. So I shut my mouth if she is around. My older sister lives with my dad. She knows I am gay. I haven't seen my dad for a while. I believe it's been 2 years since I saw him. He kicked me out of the house, because I doesn't agree with his opinion all the time. He pushed me down the stairs and hit me several times. So I packed my stuff and went to my mom. That was very difficult. It changed me. The relationship between my two sisters and me is very bad. My younger sister lives with me and my mother, but my older sister lives with my dad and I don't see her often. This is me, Arizona Robbins a 17 year old lesbian. I'm only 'out' with my 'friends'. I'm not ashamed for that. If people ask me I will tell them. But gay is not the only thing I am. I want to make a fresh start, and being the lesbian girl on my school isn't part of my plan. Some people from my old school named: George O'Malley and Izzie Stevens are coming to my new school to. So I hope they can keep their mouth shut.
I'm a very complicated human. I love series like Glee. Music? Most of the time Simple plan or something. I love punk rock. Opera is also very awesome. The phantom of the opera is a movie I watch a lot I have blond hair and blue eyes. Some days I can be a really girly girl, and sometimes I want to be the boy. That is very confusing, but part of being gay. I was in love with one of my friends on my other school for almost 1 ½ years. Her name is Addison. But it never worked out. She doesn't saw me that way. She broke my heart a million times. Now I'm over that and I'm ready for a fresh start on a new school. Who knows what the future will bring. Today is one of my typical holyday days. I spent my whole day reading a thick book and watching tv, or series on the computer. The weather was a disaster for most of the people, because it is raining. But I like the rain. I always go walking in the forest with my sister's dog while it is raining. I don't mind getting wet and dirty. I love to play music when I walk. I like to pretend I'm in a video clip. Sometimes I get sad. Sometimes I cry. But when I do, I make sure I'm always alone (or drunk ).
Today is one of those days. I'm really sad. Just thinking about my (ex)friends, my dad, just everything. My first love, who is now ignoring me for no reason, is still in my mind. She never left. I hate Addison now, so when I see her in my dreams (again) it's not a dream anymore. It turns out in some kind of scene from 'nightmare on Elmstreet' when everybody dies in a horrible way. She keeps me awake at night, and she knows that. In the past I always dreamed about Addison. How we spent the rest of our lives together. But that isn't in my mind anymore. I hate her. She put me through so much the last year. I will never forget the day I finally kissed her. There were no feelings at al. While our lips touched, when I felt her breath, the smell of her hair. It left me cold. When she left, she took a little bit of me with her. If she wanted that or not. It's now almost a month ago. You could say I'm pretty desperate, still thinking about her. But since I realize she isn't my soulmate I have never been so empty. No happy love songs anymore. Not even sad songs. Only the silence was good enough. I don't want emotions. I hate them. They make me week. In the past I would do anything to be with her. Now she is my worst nightmare. And I don't know why. I want nothing to do with love anymore. It's letting me down ever since. I love the feeling, and my dreams are a lot better, but it makes me look like a fool. It makes me do weird things. Like making long love letters (who nobody really reads). Like having the same dream every night, because she was in it and that just makes my day. Not wanting to wake up, because my dreams were a lot better than real life. Making story's for fanfiction with her in it. I did it all. It was making me happy at that point. Now I feel miserable. Sometimes I want somebody who loves me even more than I loved Addison and sometimes I just want to be alone.
My mother always tries to find a nice guy for me, but we all know that that isn't going to work with me.
As I'm walking though the forest I'm still thinking. The smell of the forest while it's raining makes me want to cry. Just cry. No reason in particular. I close my eyes. In about an hour my best friend will come over. I don't want to see her right now. Seeing her happy with her girlfriend makes me even more depressed. Her girlfriend isn't really pretty, but the inside is also important. oke now the important stuff. Tonight I'm going to the gaybar with O'Malley. He is fun to go out with. He is straight, but he doesn't mind to see lesbians kissing. I want to forget. So moving on is easier if you're drunk. Sometimes it's good to drink. I always get very emotional if I drink, but not tonight. Tonight is my night to find peace.
Meredith came to help me find the perfect look, and even now it took like forever to find it, I looked beautiful. The doorbell rings. O'Malley is here. I put my phone in my bra (because I had no pockets), took a last look in the mirror before opening the door. He was looking good. O'Malley was always very handsome. "Heeey" he said cheerful. "Ready?!" "Yes, are you?" I asked back "Yes" he smiled. He was always so happy. Sometimes a little bit too much happy. It's driving me crazy. I closed the door behind me. Now there's no way back.