A song fic based on Selena Gomez's song "The Way I Loved You". It's such a cute song!
Disclaimer: I don't own Camp Rock, the characters, or the song.
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Everything's cool, yeah
It's all gonna be okay, yeah
And I know maybe I'll even laugh about it someday
But not today, no
Caitlyn watched him pull out of the driveway and drive off down the street. She watched him until he wasn't out of sight. They'd had am argument, and it was somewhat strange that neither of them really knew what it was about. Maybe they were just both in bad moods, but a dark cloud seemed to hang over Caitlyn as she sighed. Maybe she'd laugh about it someday, but not today.
'Cause I don't feel so good
I'm tangled up inside
My heart is on my sleeve
It had been two weeks since she'd last seen Shane. Caitlyn wasn't sure if she was relieved or disappointed-all her feelings were tangled up inside. Her mom called upstairs for her to come to dinner, but she replied saying she didn't feel good-it was the truth.
Rain pattered on the window as she curled up in a ball on her bed, hugging herself tightly.
Tomorrow is a mystery to me
Tomorrow she'd be going to a party. She'd been invited because the band she had worked with was celebrating their album being released. Caitlyn didn't know if she really wanted to go.
And it might be wonderful
It might be magical
She felt too dressed up, but it was formal. The room was crowded, everyone was too loud for her liking. Fun music played but Caitlyn wasn't in the mood for dancing.
"Would you like to dance?" a guy about her age asked a gorgeous smile on his face.
"Not particularly, sorry." Caitlyn replied with honesty, attempting a pitying smile. When his smile flickered and disappointment showed on his features, she gave a small sigh and took his offered hand.
"Just one dance."
He practically beamed.
It might be everything I've waited for
A miracle
That one dance turned into several, and Caitlyn found herself actually able to smile at the sandy-blonde haired boy that held her gently in his arms.
"Thanks for dancing with me." He spoke softly as she stood by the door, about to leave.
Caitlyn smiled slightly, tilting her head to the side, "Thanks for cheering me up."
What a perfect night. It was magical. A perfect guy had found her and danced with her all night.
But even if I fall in love again with someone new
It could never be the way
I loved you
Caitlyn got into her car and locked the doors. For a moment she only sat in the parking lot with the engine running. He had asked to see her again, and she'd given him her number. Why had she done that?
Pulling out of the parking space, Caitlyn felt the tears sliding down her cheeks as she drove home.
It would never be the way it had been with Shane.
Letting you go, is
Making me feel so cold, yeah
And I've been trying to make believe it doesn't hurt
But that makes it worse, yeah
The sun was shining brightly on the cool, autumn day and Caitlyn pulled her jacket tighter around her. A month could never have seemed longer, and she was silently surprised she hadn't heard from Shane in some way.
"Oh, well." She murmured to herself, "I'm fine without him." Her own words stuck her like a knife and the pain only got worse as the day went on.
See, I'm a wreck inside
My tongue is tied and my whole body feels so weak
The future may be all I really need
After splashing her face with cold water, Caitlyn gripped the edge of the sink and stared at her reflection. She looked like a wreck. Thank goodness her parents hadn't been home at her breakdown. She just couldn't stop thinking about Shane that day.
And it might be wonderful, yeah
It might be magical
The doorbell ringing broke her from her thoughts and she tore her gaze away from her sad reflection and dashed down the stairs to open the front door.
Sand blonde hair guy stood with a bright smile.
"Hey." He spoke cheerfully, obviously thinking she wasn't speaking because she was so surprised to see him there.
"Um…hey…"
"These are for you." He spoke shyly, offering her a small bouquet of varying flowers.
Shane would have gotten me red roses.
"Thanks, that's really sweet." She forced a smile.
It might be everything I've waited for
A miracle
"I came by for another reason, though," he spoke with a chuckle, "I was wondering if you would like to go with my to the movies tomorrow night?"
"Sure."
But even if I fall in love again with someone new
It could never be the way
I loved you
"Thanks for the movie, I had a great time." Caitlyn spoke up as sandy blonde haired guy dropped her off at her house late the next night.
"You're welcome," he said softly, perfectly, "Me too."
"I'll see you later." She couldn't manage a smile for some reason.
"Sounds good." He grinned, leaning down to press his lips to hers briefly before hopping into his car and driving off.
Shane kisses better.
Like a first love
The one and only true love
Was written all over my face
"Are you alright, honey?" her mom asked a week later.
"Yeah, of course, why?" Caitlyn asked curiously, but her mother only shrugged.
"I don't know, you just don't seem as happy as you used to. The happiness used to be practically written all over your face, but now you just seem…like your tolerating things. Has something changed?"
Everything has changed.
"Don't worry," Caitlyn gave a very forced smile as her eyes stung, "I'm fine."
Yeah, I loved you like you loved me
Like something pure and holy
Like something that could never be replaced
Jumping awake from yet another very realistic dream, Caitlyn sat in bed with her legs crossed, starring out the window up at the stars.
What wouldn't she give just to feel Shane's perfect arms wrapped tightly around her again. Sandy blonde haired guy just wasn't right.
Shane could never be replaced, and sandy blonde haired guy didn't even compare.
And it was wonderful
It was magical
Her first dance with Shane had been wonderful. Her first date with him had been magical. Why didn't it feel the same with sandy blonde haired guy?
Because I love Shane.
It was everything I waited for
A miracle
Everything with Shane had been what she'd waited her whole life for. He'd been a miracle. Her miracle. But now he was gone. And apparently not coming back.
Caitlyn felt the tears falling before she realized just how broken her heart really was at this thought.
And if I should ever fall in love again with someone new
Caitlyn pulled her hand from sandy blonde haired guy's hand, having just about enough of his touch for the night. The party was too crowded and noisy as always. In fact, she just wanted to leave.
"Having a good time?" her date asked her, flashing his smile.
"Of course." She spoke the answer that was expected, feeling her heart drop at the thought of "settling" for her current circumstances. She was tolerating everything. Because without Shane, that's all she could really do.
Oh, it could never be the way
Thumb wiping away the dust that covered the faces in the picture, Caitlyn bit her lip to keep from crying. Shane had his arms around her in the photo, and both of them were beaming. She knew for a fact that as the picture was being taken, she realized that she actually loved Shane.
No, it will never be the way
Caitlyn hung up on sandy blonde haired guy. It just wasn't the same as having Shane, and she was tired of just tolerating. It would never be the way she loved Shane. With anyone. Ever again.
I loved you
So sad………let's just imagine they get together again!
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