Totty had never wanted to kill his older brothers, including himself, so much as now.

His life had become a spiral inferno in less than two hours, again thanks to his dearest brothers who laughed, drunk and giddy surrounding him. But worse of all, it was also thanks to himself, who didn't notice the jig had been up since quite a while, and he was dumb enough to not notice anything strange.

Osomatsu's words still haunted him, even when he was sure his brother hadn't meant wrong – as Ichimatsu did when he looked at him and chuckled darkly.

"You didn't even notice he had the hots for you and look how all it ended for us"

And he should have noticed something was amiss, as he saw Atsushi on his mind, telling him those things he took as jokes, or drunk babbling about supposed escapades that never happened. Because they couldn't have been words coming from someone on his right mind. Couldn't, wouldn't.

But they were.

And if he connected all the dots, what happened was real.

Their laughs felt stronger, they were drilling his head. The social shame, he would be not able to see his friends' faces anymore!

How could he have been so blind!?

-o-o-o-o-

Everything started with an innocent comment from Atsushi: 'How did you get that muscular in so little time?'

He didn't acknowledge the question at first, being quite buzzed. He was still a bit angered with the fact his other friends abandoned their scheduled gokon meeting at the very last moment, leaving Atsushi and him alone on a familiar bar. From where did that question came up anyways? He was as lean as ever. "Me? I've not changed. Yoga keeps my body juuuust as I like." He answered truthfully, slurring a bit his words.

Atsushi was as drunk as him, he thought. His face all red and eyes looking all cute, it was just as Totty liked to see him. Vulnerable and less classy. And oh-so-cute.

But that was none of his business.

He saw the taller man fidget a bit on his seat, slurping – oh, god, slurping – his happoshu. Eyes fixed on his face, Totty saw a light on them. Was that worry? "Y-you know, Totty, I'm just kinda worried about you. You got all… out of shape so fast, and then this muscular just some days ago… that's not healthy at all"

Then he tried to take his free hand.

A movement so full of sheer… love he felt most of his drunk giddiness go away with a jump. That scared him so much he retreated his hand from his grasp as fast as he could.

Dear god, what was he trying to do? That was clearly a flag of some kind, but which one!?

He has to admit he was feeling more and more attached to his bar-hopping friend, as the more time he spent with Atsushi, the Rich Manager, he knew more about Atsushi, the caring, the kind, the kinda smarmy asshole he could be most of the times, being able to surpass even his own bullshit some days, making their days worse and better at the same time.

That sounded silly, right?

Attracted would be a strong word in his situation, but touches like the recent one made him remember why he tried to classify it as just that.

And seeing the little heartbreak on his c-crush's eyes, he just was able to stammer 'N-now you are just calling me fat! I can't remember a day I got out of shape, I'm very careful with my diet you jerk!" as fast as possible.

"No, Totty, you are misunderstanding this!"

"Misunderstanding what?" – pouty face mode on, he made him know this was his last opportunity.

"Well, it's just…" – he got again his hand near his, and the heat was overwhelming him again.

"Since our last time together, I thought you got obsessed on exercise, since I commented on your weight and all… but you must know you are perfect for me. No matter what shape, no matter who you are."

What shape – who you are.

Starting from there, Todomatsu would know hell.

-o-o-o-o-

He didn't remember what happened later in that bar, he only knew that Atsushi left him in from of the old Household, and it was late. Very late.

But not late enough to walk, well, most likely drag himself inside, as he listened his brothers laughs upstairs. He pinched the bridge of his nose, they were always so loud, and whatever happened in the bar that evening made his head ache as if a migraine was menacing to come.

"Tadaimaaa…" – he shouted, making it sound like a whine. Instantly, he was received with a fast handful of yellow noodly sleeves who upped him into a strong back. "Welcome back, Totty!"

Aaah, Jyushimatsu. He was always his light in a house full of idiots. The youngest would have hugged him if he could, unable to do so as he was trapped under his niisan's sleeves.

"Oooh, oh! You have to come with us Totty!" – he squealed, voice full of radiant happiness – "We were telling funny stories, you have to come and listen them!"

And he had no choice, as he was manhandled easily into the second floor, and into their shared room. All the rest of the sextuplets were there, sitting on the floor and laughing, being somewhat drunk it seemed, judging by the beer packs filling the floor and the strong smell coming up from them. That was a happy occurrence for a Friday, days in which they would do whatever but this. They left this kind of meetings for weekends only.

Jyushimatsu dropped him in the floor unceremoniously, stopping his train of thought, and giving him all their attention.

"Aw, niisan! At least tell me when you are going to leave me fall" – Todomatsu whined a bit, rubbing where it hurt.

"Hehe, sorry!" – at least he was sorry, he could let that pass, but only because it was Jyushi who did that.

By the time Totty could sit up Osomatsu was already near him, all mischievous smiles, embracing him by the shoulder. "Totty, oh Totty, you are on time! You must know the big news!" he cooed, patting the floor with the other hand, as if it was already a big joke.

With a look, he could see that only Oso, Ichi and Jyushi thought the same.

"Hum? What could that news be?"

The happiest matsus smiled, and Osomatsu began. "As you didn't want to tell us about your first, we decided to tell you about our own!"

First? First wh—

Ichimatsu smiled too, darkly and all teeth. "Your boyfriend was sooooo nice with us."

Jyushimatsu hugged Todomatsu again, sitting at Osomatsu's side, still as radiant as ever and radiating all the warmth he had suddenly lost "I'm so so soooorry Totty, but secross was just too good!"

Karamatsu and Choromatsu, who sat a bit more far away, were unable to say anything, both looking embarrassed and ashamed, fidgeting on their seats.

Todomatsu was scared, as scared as when he was in the bar, or maybe more.

He couldn't move at all, not a muscle, not his mouth.

He couldn't breathe.

"Totty, your boyfriend was sooo good with us, he decided pop all our cherries too! Now you aren't the only one who has had sex on this house!"

Osomatsu opened up his arms as celebrating, and Todomatsu felt his world break as a mirror could.

This is gonna get lewd.

DO YOU WANNA PLAY A GAME? lets see if you can guess how were they where they swooned. Or just talk to me. I like to chat.