Author's Notes: well wel well, here we go, a new many-chaptered project of mine (as well as a new community) starring Rock Musical Bleach actors and some other celebrities who'll appear in later chapters. The first chap is quite explicit, unlike further ones, which will be more humble in this respect.

Credits: Rika Kawai for 白いクリスマス(white christmas), the fic gave me a push to write my own fic

Isaka Tatsuya for being the source of inspiration

Everyone who reads and reviews

Warnings: M (NC-17) for sexual content

japanisms (translation at the bottom of the page)

2nd person narration

※Nii-san※

Although it looks silly you cannot help yourself, it is the night you have been dreaming about for so long, yearning for it yet scared of, afraid of drowning in the ocean of fantasies, wild but romantic, passionate and gentle altogether. It is not common to have a crush on your own brother, even if you are not blood related, but it is a wide spread temptation to fall for cute guys, under category of which your brother definitely falls. This thought on your mind causes you to feel perverted, however it slackens not a bit of desire. The hateful taboo only flames up attraction and there seems to exist nobody but him, your new 'sibling', as you are to call a child from another family, your new onii-san who is too damn handsome for you to stick to the general rule of no incest. But isn't it supposed to be ok as long as both parties agree? And you light up two little candies in the bathroom thinking upon the question.

He's started to pay attention to you soon after noticing that odd behavior, one week after you became relatives, these occasional glances and deliberate touches and lowered voice whenever you spoke to him in private, he saw it too brightly to miss... and the company reciprocated, he met your eyes and hid an awkward smile peering through your half-open bedroom door on his way to his room. Both of you just needing a push to arrive at a new level of relationship which in fact concealed more dangerous corners. And it wasn't until yesterday that you dared to go ahead. One step forward.

"兄さん", seeming still strange to address him like this, "今夜、バスルームに," read a little white note left by you under his door. All jittery, you spend the whole day in your room refraining from peeking out, not letting yourself to see him. How he was dressed, what he did. Already starting to miss those big dark eyes and the most beautiful smile you have ever seen. Quiet footsteps now and then stopped your daydreaming but there were three hours left before twelve, one-eighty longest minutes of your life. Tic-tock. Tic-tock, nervous and pleasant, excruciatingly enjoyable. Clink. Tic-tock, tic-tock, next sixty minute countdown, the same torture. Unable to hold off anymore you got out of the daily shelter, slowly, soundlessly walking towards the destination. Passing the gloom and silence of the passage you enter the arranged place before grinning broadly at the weirdness of the situation and lighting the candles. Your focused ears now easily catch every queer murmur in the house, but they are soft and lulling and calm your senses and flickering of tiny fires creates mysterious atmosphere. You don't know what to expect, you like it now and there's no point in making plans for the future, even if he's not coming...

But he does come. No action made, as though crawling, this young man steps in holding his piercing gaze on you. Dressed hi white fluffy dressing gown, not actually a traditional yukata, he looks unbelievably adorable and little orange flames reflect on his face letting you see the beautiful features better. There's no denying, he's stolen your heart on the first day you met and it belongs to him ever since. Your brother.

When you think you've spent too much time gazing at him, the angel stuns you even more, a simple gesture of a smile completely disarms you and, speechless, you look like a numb.

"兄さん", you force out, he only chuckles lowering his eyes for a moment, then setting them on you again.

Want to touch these lips, taste all the unique deliciousness of the Adonis's mouth, bury your fingers in the long brown strands of his soft hair while kissing him and panting breathing in his scent, study every single inch of his body, feel the velvet of his tender skin, catch every sigh and moan and then melt with him as waves of ecstasy, the ultimate pleasure, cover the two entities, the godlike creature and you…

"兄さん", it's time to return to earth, "君が私のガウンを着ちゃったんだ。早く戻しせ"

The sudden realization helps you to take the strain off.

"あの", the guy seems to be at a loss too, "ええと"

He turns his back to you removing the fluffy garment, which you take from him afterwards and swiftly change into it after taking off your own clothes. Mom must have forgotten to sort the things after laundering so he decided he could put it on not knowing the dressing gown was yours. The fabric feels so nice and warm and upon raising your eyes to look forward you see your brother's nude form facing you, calmed and unnerved as the guy seems. A swallow follows and a minute of eerie silence.

"君にもう夢中だよ", this says in barely above a whisper.

Not breaking eye contact the elder of you two takes your hand and caresses your fingers – your heart is ready to explode, so fast it is beating. No point in holding off – on tiptoes you lean forward to have a better access to the angelic face and brush your lips against his. Longing, desire, need – will they come true now? Eyes closed, you tilt your head before parting your lips. Paradise fell on the Earth, you understand it as soon as the man responds, gently, then deepening the kiss, and your body responds by pressing closer to his, and where your skin remains uncovered by the gown, it appears to burn up as it comes in contact with his. Head spinning, body craving for more, intoxication, lust.

"どうしよう"

His hands land on your shoulders while you nuzzle into his chest refusing to open your eyes and contemplate all the beauty of the moment. Patience, just patience – haste can ruin everything – and you get on with the teasing ritual unable to stop. His reaction evident and, once hearing a muffled moan, you figure out he's enjoying himself. It's getting terribly stuffy since temperature rises making skin gleam in the dim light, droplets of sweat perceptible as you fondle each other's bodies.

Whether it's wrong or right, it doesn't matter now, fear and doubt forgotten, gone with the first kiss, tender and slow, it has now grown into more a passionate, deeper, with tongues entwining, playing a strange game while hands travel everywhere, palms, fingers repeating the curves, hollows, to remember them forever, imprint in memory.

Clothes on the floor, you carry on with forbidden intimacy, sighs on the verge of groans and you can see how hard it is for your partner to keep away from desperate actions.

"ベッドに行こうか", he whispers before gasping because of your biting his right nipple.

One-handedly, you fumble for the things and then turn the doorknob, he blows out the candles and together, you leave for his bedroom failing to resist such a sinful temptation.

It feels odd to be here and lie on his bed among folds of white sheets, surrounded by sereneness, feeling excited and so good… And when he gets on top of you shortening the distance, you can't help a sensual sound of delight, his heated body as close as it only can be, and, yielding to natural instinct, your hips move upwards… throat suddenly dry and eyes rolling up as you feel his aroused manhood before he lets out a muted hiss and a 'shh' in a warning for you to keep quiet. You are in heaven, about to make love to an angel. But his scent chases away all random thoughts filling your nostrils with unearthly aroma of bliss. God, let this night last forever. Kisses, embraces, moans go on until nii-san freezes to look you in the face. In the murk of a deep night you can hardly make out his features but you know why he's watching you so intently, it's a deaf question you have to answer. Words needless, you spread your legs a little wider to show the answer and the man above kisses your face in a thank-you sign.

Carefully, unhurriedly, he enters your body, fondly, like you'd been dreaming about, and you willingly accept him, holding you breath all the while. When he's inside you bite up your bottom lip and press him closer, hands on his shoulders as if for support or for fear that he might leave. The man above, with his mouth open and eyes shut, stays still for a moment, waiting for his body to get used to new sensations.

"気持ちいい"

Your phrase makes him come to his senses before he starts to slide in and out of you in a painfully-pleasant motion, in a way that nearly forces you to shout and beg for more. So turned on, so wanting, wishing it to have no end while he keeps on tormenting, getting hungry, insatiable even, increasing speed. The world around stops to exist, revolves no more, and the only creatures are you, dissolving in bliss, flying in clouds, creating a unity, becoming one.

The night of love you've been longing for, has turned real and you feel nothing but profound satisfaction when it is over, mellow buzz spreading inside, and later giving in to slumber, ever-so necessary.

It is morning chill added to cool breeze that wakes you up, through an open window break the first sunrays informing about the beginning of a fresh day. It's still early, although you have to fight the wish to linger here, in the bed of your elder brother who you shared this night with. Peaceful breathing into your neck and an unmoving hand on your waist clearly notify he is fast asleep. Another five minutes pass and very gingerly you turn around to look at the wonderful man, placing light butterfly kisses all over his face as if covering his forehead, eyelids, cheeks, nose, lips, chin with small marks of love, before you leave for your room. There's still some time to rest.

At noon you get up and make it to the bathroom unable to hide a cunning grin. Once the lights are on, you notice something that reminds you of the last night. On the floor you see a fluffy gown nii-san had been dressed in, and on it, a small invitation note, "今夜、バスルームに".

Your grin widens and a mischievous sparkle glistens in your eyes.

Japanese phrases' translation

兄さん - Brother (elder brother)

兄さん, 今夜、バスルームに - Nii-san, tonight in the bathroom

君が私のガウンを着ちゃったんだ。早く戻しせ！- You're wearing my dressing gown! Give it back!

あの, – ええと - Well, hmm

君にもう夢中だよ - I'm crazy about you

どうしよう - What should we do?

ベッドに行こうか - Let's go to my bed

気持ちいい - Feels so good

今夜、バスルームに - Tonight in the bathroom