A/N: This is just a short one-shot dedicated to someone very close to me who I lost one year ago today.
Carry On
It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
There's nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
It's just the way that you would tied in
Now there's no-one home
I grieve for you
You leave me
'so hard to move on
Still loving what's gone
They say life carries on
Carries on and on and on and on
It wasn't shiny. It wasn't bright. It wasn't whole, but then again it would never be whole. It will never shine or be bright again, not without him. It was empty, cold and dark, a pure reflection of the way she felt as she looked at the now shattered and empty glass tube.
Tears continued to slide down her already splotchy cheeks. Her eyes swollen from the endless hours of crying that would not stop. The pain still unbearable and not fading at all. This wasn't supposed to happen. He was supposed to always be there, eternal. Yet here she was standing in a place she had called home, a home that was now broken, burned and desolate. The warmth, the strength, the love that was always emitted…simply gone.
Closing her eyes she reached a shaky hand to the broken glass tube hoping to feel something and maybe when she opened her eyes none of this would have happened. She would be sixteen again, happy, safe, loved and warm, but upon opening her eyes she was only greeted by the silence and darkness once again.
"Why did you have to go?" She asked the darkness chocking back the sobs that fought to take over. "What are we supposed to do without you? What am I supposed to do? I've messed everything up. I need you so bad. I need you advice, your comfort…your love. I feel so alone."
The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page
While the final rattle rocks it's empty empty cage
And I can't handle this
I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Missing what's gone
They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on
Life carries on
In the people I meet
In everyone that's out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the rot and the rust
In the ashes and the dust
Life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on
It's just the car that we ride in
A home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on
"You will never be alone." A familiar deep voice sounded behind her.
His answer made the tears fall harder, her body shaking. "It hurts so much Tommy."
"I know Beautiful." Tommy whispered, his own tears sliding down his cheeks.
"We should have been there, we should have saved him, we should have…" Kim's last word breaking as her grief took over.
Tommy quickly took the petite girl in his arms holding her as close as possible wishing he could take the pain away, but he knew he couldn't just as no one could take away his own pain. All they could do was to hold each other and grieve together and maybe someday it wouldn't hurt so much.
"What do we do now?" Kim sobbed into his chest clutching his shirt with every ounce of her strength.
"We carry on."
Did I dream this belief?
Or did I believe this dream?
Now I can find relief
I grieve
Song- "I Grieve" By Peter Gabriel