Even Now
He has left the beautiful young, dark skinned woman and stumbled into the tavern, caught once more by the sudden tightness in his chest. It doesn't happen as often as it used to, but it should be familiar now. It still has the power bring his world to a crashing halt, take his breath away and send his heart slamming into his ribcage. He wonders how it can still beat in the ragged hole that is his chest.
He watches the wine swirl in his glass as he urgently pours it, trying, trying to make sense of this overpower feeling:
"Even now ... when there's someone else who cares
When there's someone home who's waiting just for me
Even now I think about you as I'm climbing up the stairs
And I wonder what to do so she won't see
Even now ... when I know it wasn't right
And I've found a better life than what we had
Even now I wake up crying in the middle of the night
And I can't believe it still could hurt so bad
Even now ... when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now, when I come shining through, I swear I think of you
And how I wish you knew
Somehow
Even now
Even now ... when I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you've been gone
Even now I still remember and the feeling's still the same
And this pain inside of me goes on and on ..."
In the same moment, somewhere in England, Milady reached up and gently touches the ribbon she still wears around her throat, catches her breath as her heart quickens, and is lost once more:
"Even now ... when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now, when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And God I wish you knew
Somehow
Even now."