chapter 1.

i was in my bed lying looking up at the ceiling wondering how my life would be if people just accepted me for what i am? it was raining outside the rain always makes me happy don't know why but it makes me feel safe and sound where no one can hurt me. i often felt lonely my mom and i lived in new york. it was a busy life but i liked it. it kept me away from myself.

* flashback*

(when she was 10 yrs old)

"Bella pack your bags we are going to new york" Renee said to me.

"but mom we cant leave dad alone "i said to her.

"Bella, honey we are going away from here. we cant live here cause i get a job in new york " she said softly gently brushing her cheeks.

*end of flashback*

here i was after 5 yrs still in new york. my life was a wreck but i couldn't show it cause my mom would know it and i dint want her to stress about me. she was happy in new york and thatz what i want for here.

i sighed, this will always be my life busy, lonely making others mom came home around 5. she told me that she needed a vacation cause after we came to new york my mom was always busy on her job that she hardly got a chance to talk to me or take a vacations somewhere.

Staring out the window i saw renee's car on the driveway, my mom pulled over. i went downstairs to greet my looked happy and excited about some thing. " Bella honey, guess what we are going on a vacation to ITALY,we are going only you and me, where no one can disturb us." she told me beaming with excitement about it.

" oh bella you will love it there is a festival coming up and it is the beautiful city" she was explaining everything to me about what we will do and how we will do. we started packing our mom was so excited i loved it when was. she told be she we would be staying in a hotel jst near a old castle. it had the best view and all.

our flight left for Italy. when we reached we head out the airport .the city was really beautiful and breathtaking. the view was great. we saw the clock tower the building were ancient bricks. may be built long time ago. there was some thing about this city that was pulling me towards it. i couldn't get my finger on it .the feeling was weird.

i was in the hotel room i was not feeling well. "mom where are we going now?" i asked. we were going to visit the castle. my mom wanted to see it. " we will see the castle" she announced. sweat broke out on my forehead,my head started spinning. my knees felt weak and gave away. i saw things getting blur i heard my mom call out to me. it when i felt some thing stretch and get wrapped up around me. i felt hot all over thatz when i passed out .

AFTER 4 HOURS...

i felt my head was going to explode like after you got drunk like hell..and have a massive hang over. man this sucks. i tried opening my eyes i was tired i open my eyes a lil for bring lights to welcome me. i closed my eyes and open them again wide. i was in a white room gees h why do i always end up in a hospital oh right i am a klutz. my mom was sitting on the stool next to me.

" bella honey how are you? does anything hurt?" my mom asked concern written all over her face.

"no mom i am fine. just had a lil head ache thatz all" i replied. " oh honey i'll go get the doctor so he can check you alright i'll be right back." she said.

the doc came in check me and said i was fine if i had a headache again or feel dizzy i should take the pills and still if i am not fine i should get myself checked. we checked out and returned to the mom insisted in staying in the hotel for atleast till i am fine. i had no options but to except it. we watched some tv had ice creams and were in the bed 3 days.

"mom i am fine. i think now we can go to see the city." i said with enthusiam. i dont want my mom to stay at the hotel when we are supposed to go sight seeing. i was feelling fine any ways. my mom insisted to take me shopping. i dont know how girls can constandtly shop.i mean no offense to shoppers. but i am not much of a shopper. if i just get a pair of jeans and a sweat shirt i would die in heaven. my mom dragged me literally in ever shop in the mall. at the end of the day i was carrying about a dozen of shopping bagz.

i was tired and exhausted hey even if i didnt shop i was atleast carrying the bags that can take a lot of you was about 7 and it was dark already the streets were not that lively. a few copules here and there. the road was deserted. we were near the corner of a dark alley to catch a cab..

"oh no bella i think i forgot my cell phone on the cash counter in the shop i'll just go and come ok" my mom said and rushed in to collect the cell phon. i was near the alley i saw a couple hurring away from were i stood. there was a group of guys near walking toward me. i tried my best to ignore them and walk away from there toward the mall again when a pair of hands caught my arms and spun me around.

"hey honey what you doing here all alone?"the man holding me asked. while the other 2 moved around him to encircle me. " let go of my arms" i said. my anger was boiling. "baby if we wanted to let you go we would not have caught you would we?" the other man said. "i said let go of me" i screamed and struggled to free my self from his clutches. the man holding me tighten his hold on me. my anger was growing and growing. then some thing snapped in my and the man holding me flew across the street 15 meters away. the other just stood there. other man quickly recovered from his shock and tried to catch my arm he bounced away from me. as if there was an invisible wall around me protecting me.

the other man hurried over to the man and dragged them away from me. i felt my strength drain out of my body. the last thing i saw was a man walking toward me with a lady.