I tried to keep my face serious as i looked at tom from across his table, my hands folded and my eyes straight forward, if i didn't get this all out now,my broken concentration would betray me. ''Noami,'' he started to say, '' ,'' i interrupted, blinking rapidly fighting my tears, ''Sir its not you,it really is me, you were right about what you said, i need to live a little more,and that's why I'm quitting.'' i said to him,trying to keep my voice from cracking, ''So,then, what will you do?'' he asked me his facade starting to wilt.
''I'm going back to the states,spend more time with my family,find work up there maybe.'' i answered honestly, he stared me deep in the soul, "If this is about what happened the other night at the pub I'm sorry! i didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable at all, I'm truly,very sorry.'' i nodded, ''I Understand , and i accept your apology,I'm actually doing this on my own and as i said,you were right,I'm far too young to be in the mind state i am now, but its OK because that's the way i prefer. But also, i think it would be great if we would just stop seeing each other and i would spend more time with the people i care about that are in my life.'' i wasn't aware that i was shaking until i looked down at my hands.
i swallowed and remained as calm as i could,holding myself together, ''Am I not in your life?'' Tom asked raising an eyebrow, i let out a heavy sigh, ''As of right now,no. Good Luck sir,I look forward to seeing more of your wonderful work in the media,'' i reached down to grab my briefcase as i rose up from his table, ''Noamy.'' he called as i turned on my heel, ''Noamy come back.'' i heard him call as i headed towards the door, damn him, looks like my facade would have to break, my eyes were stinging, i hand one hand on the door knob,
''Noam please, I Lo-'' i turned to sharply snap at him: ''Don't! don't say that. that's going to make this all a hell of a lot harder. on both of us.'' i opened the door as tears flowed down my cheeks, . i quit that's it. i enjoyed being your assistant tom,'' i said, ''Dear what is this about?'' he asked me, ''My flight leaves in an hour,'' i said acting like i didn't know what he meant, ''well you cant just up and leave.'' he said with a small laugh, ''Isn't that what I'm doing right now?'' i asked him, ''I'll be fint, you'll be fine, you'll find a much better assistant out there,better than me.'' he reached behind me to close the door i stepped in between, ''But there are no other assistants out there better than you,like .'' i pulled out my cell phone, ''fifty five minutes.'' i said rushing out of tom hiddleston's apartment. probably one of the hardest jobs that hat been even assigned to me...by me.
