Chapter 1 – Nevermind me

This façade that I'm stuck with

Has got me wondering

Just tell me how you want me

And I'll be there naked stumbling

Just to get a reaction,

Any signs of love.

Nevermind nevermind me,

I'll just catch shadows on your walls.

Nevermind me, nevermind me,

Oh my God I feel so small.

Nevermind me, nevermind me,

I'll let me self out...

The bright sun sent golden sunbeams that escaped through the window and lightened up the pink bedroom. The air in the room was getting heavy and warm as it was getting close to noon. It was getting harder to stay asleep and a couple of light brown hair streaks were dancing on the pillow as the girl in the bed was tossing and turning.

Suddenly she was brutally interrupted in her dream by some loud voices far away. She turned around, closing her eyes harder as she tried to block the voices out and go back to her sleep and continue her dream. Unfortunately the voices only became louder and clearer, making it impossible for her to turn around and continue her dream. She couldn't help but to listen to the conversation and was dragged out of her sleep for real when she realized the discussion down stairs was about her. She sat slowly up in her bed, concentrating to hear all the words that were being said. She gently put the covers aside and carefully got up from the bed and tiptoed over to the window and opened it fully, letting even warmer air hit her. She quickly closed the window again and tiptoed gently to her door and slightly opened it, so that she could hear the conversation better. The voice of her mother, Julie Cooper, was now filling the house and she could hear that her father, Jimmy Cooper, was trying to break in.

"Can't you see that it would be for the best with everything that's going on now? It would be the best for everyone if Kaitlin went back to boarding school now until everything has calmed down. I don't want her to worry."

Julie stopped and sighed for a moment and Jimmy immediately took the opportunity to break in.

"Jules I'm not so sure if getting shipped away to boarding school is what she needs right now. Just…"

And that was all he got to say before Julie sent him an icy and sarcastic look, telling him to step carefully. How did he even dare to think he knew what would be best for their daughter when he hadn't even seen her the past year? How could he know what would be best for Kaitlin when he had been gone in Hawaii and not being there for her like she had? Well okay now Julie herself would be the first to admit that Jimmy had always been a good father for their two daughters and that she herself hadn't always been there for them either, but that wasn't really the point now. The point was what would be the best for Kaitlin and this time Julie knew she was right and she had no intention of losing this battle.

"Oh so now you know what she needs? And beside who are you to talk Jimmy? Running off to Hawaii and leaving your daughters behind… What a great move…It's almost as great as being with that skanky sister of Kiki huh?"

Jimmy rolled his eyes feeling the anger rise in him as he tightened his fists. Julie seemed to know exactly the right buttons to push. Surprisingly he managed to calm down and almost let the remark slide and focus on the actual matter they where discussing. But only almost. The sarcasm was dripping in his voice for a moment before he sighed and focused back to the case again.

"Yeah almost as great as marrying her father for the money Jules… And I don't know if we should send her back to the boarding school right now… I think she needs to stay here with Marissa and you where she has a home."

Julie froze for a moment and looked embarrassed away avoiding Jimmy's eyes as he pushed her buttons back. The comment about Caleb hit a sore spot. She quickly got her act together and brushed by her jeans and replied bitterly.

"Well that just happen to be the case that we from next week won't have this house to call home, but a trailer, if you ever could consider to call a trailer a home... Believe me Jimmy, a trailer park isn't exactly where you want to bring your friends home with you after school. Or go home to after school at all."

Jimmy shrugged and ran his fingers through his short hair as he looked back at Julie. He was so tired of fighting with her. Okay so he knew that he probably shouldn't have left like he did, but what else could he do? In Hawaii he had gotten a brilliant opportunity to start over and get back on track. His life was good again. The only thing that got in the way for his happiness was that he didn't get to be in his daughter's life as much as he wanted to. And a part of him was also missing Julie in a strange way. It wasn't that he wanted to get back together with her, but it was just that they had shared so much and after all she had been his wife for almost 18 years and she was the mother to his children. And nobody take those years away from them, no matter how much they could fight or disagree now. Julie might not be a candidate for the Nobel's Peace Prize or the prize for best mom, but she did her best and what she thought was the best for her family and herself. Mostly for what would be the best for herself though, but still she only meant good. Deep down underneath the botox, the lip-gloss and the designer clothes and the Newpsie shallowness, Julie was a good person. She only had a somewhat strange way of showing it sometimes.

"Look Jules, let's not fight again huh? Let's just talk this over like adults and think about what's best for Kaitlin okay?"

Julie nodded understandingly and had to admit that he was perfectly right. This wasn't about them, but their youngest daughter and what would be best for her.

"Well then unless you have any better ideas I suggest that Kaitlin should go back to her boarding school a little bit earlier than planned. She has such good friends there and she can do almost anything she wants to there. I mean come on why wouldn't she wanna go? She can even bring that pony we bought her! Japan, Asia or China or whatever."

As Jimmy opened his mouth to answer Julie when he heard steps down the stairs and looked up to see Kaitlin on her way down to them.

Her face was stiff and she had put on her typically expressionless mask to hide her feelings. Nobody would care anyway, her opinion wasn't really important. She had heard most of their conversation and didn't plan on hiding it. She instantly set her eyes on her parents confronting them with what she had heard, stating the obvious.

"So you're shipping back to boarding school again huh?"

She looked at her father for a moment before she let her eyes wander over to Julie looking her in her eyes. Kaitlin's face might have been cleared for her reaction to being shipped off like again like a unwanted pet, but her voice had a icy undertone and almost revealed that she was feeling a bit hurt. She crossed her arms looking back and forth at her parents, waiting for their explanations as they looked at each other searching for the right words. Kaitlin sighed and tapped her foot impatiently not bothering to wait for their long answer.

"So when am I leaving? Well you know what just never mind me; I'll just go and start packing my things. Oh and by the way mom, it's China. My pony's name is China…"

And with that Kaitlin turned around and walked back up the stairs, heading for her room, leaving Jimmy and Julie to there selves again.

"Yeah just nevermind me, yeah nevermind me at all…"