Chapter 1- Like a virgin
Friday March 23 a day I'll never forget. I should have seen it coming I really should have but I wasn't thinking and now I'm scared for life.
March 23 I was happy ready to be famous... get my modeling career started. My mom was taking me to a photographer to get my photos done. I got there with a smile on my face as if nothing could go wrong but I was wrong I was very wrong.
I got to the photographers studio. It wasn't dirty but it wasn't clean it was decent. Didn't seem real professional but it was the only cheap one we could find at the moment. The guy looked nice he had welcoming brown eyes and nice hair, like he washed it everyday. So I was guessing that he was a pretty clean person. He told my mom that I was in good hands and our pictures would turn out great. That she could leave and come back in a few hours.
"Are you sure you want me to leave I mean I can stay" My mom insisted
"No it's ok we'll be fine. We want to surprise you with how nice the pictures are going to look" he said
"Manny do you want me to stay?" My mom asked
It's like my mom knew that I wasn't in good hands that something was going to go wrong. But she didn't want to say anything thinking that she was wrong. So she gave me a signal to say yes. I didn't notice that signal till now I wish I did.
"No mom its ok I'm in good hands." I insisted "You can leave now I have my cell I'll call when we're done"
My mom looked at me.
"Are you sure Manny?" she said
"Yes mom you can go now" I said grabbing her hand and walking her towards the door "I'll be fine trust me"
I gave her a smile and she looked at me and then Tom the photographer. She took a deep breath in and started opening the door.
"Ok Manuela" she said while giving me a hug "If anything goes wrong just call my cell and I'll be here in a second." She whispered in my ear.
"Ok mom" I whispered in her ear
"I hope you have fun" She said with a smile "I'll be back later"
"Ok mom" I said "bye"
She gave me one more smile and left. I turned around and gave Tom a big smile.
"Ok let's get started" He said with a devilish smile "You can sit on the couch and I'll go get the outfit I want you to wear"
I sat on the couch it was kind of stiff but I couldn't complain. I looked on the coffee table where there were Polaroid pictures of different girls. They were all so pretty.
"I want to be just like them" I whispered to myself
I grabbed one and looked at it. The girl in the picture looked like she was 25. She has shoulder length blonde hair and very pretty blue eyes. I looked at the back of it the girl was only 16.
"I can make you look like that" Tom said
I was startled and jumped a little. I turned around and gave Tom a smile.
"Ok where's my outfit?" I asked
"It's a birthday suit" Tom said with a smile
My heart suddnly dropped.
"This guy is going to rape me" I thought
"What?" I asked
I started to dig my hand in my purse for my cell phone. Tom then gave me a smile.
"I'm kidding…it's on the counter in the dressing room."
"Oh my gosh you had me so scared there" I said
"No don't worry I do it to all the girls just to see the reaction on there faces." He said "Sit back down and I'll get you something to drink"
I sat back on the couch and gazed at more of the girls I wish I was. He came and sat next to me with a sprite in his hand. Well at least what I thought was sprite. I put it down on the table. I gave him a smile; it was getting hot so I took off my jacket.
"You should drink that before it gets warm" he said
I gave him a smile and took a sip of my pop. We sat there for a wile and talked about what kind of things I wanted to do with my modeling career. It started to get warmer and I started taking more sips of my pop.
"…yeah so I really think you should try going out for those magazines" Tom said
"I should but I have to start now I'm going to go change" I said
I walked into the changing room. I was kind of woozy and things were getting blurry but this was my only shot of being a model. I saw the 2 piece bathing suit more like a bikini. I tried to lock the door but the lock was broken so I stuck my foot in front of it just in case someone comes and wanted to do who knows what in there. I had just put my top on when he knocked on the door.
"I'm almost done" I said
"Ok" he said
I was done putting on my clothes and just fixing my hair when he opened the door.
"Yay…you're done"
I gave him a smile. He walked up behind me and touched the strap of my top.
"It fits perfectly" he said
I could feel his warm breath on my neck so I tried to walk away. But he grabbed my shoulders and held on really tight.
"It's ok I won't hurt you I promise" He whispered
At this point I was scared of what he was going to do to me. I just took big breaths in didn't move, tried to hold back tears. He smelt my hair and rubbed his hands up and down my arm.
"When you sent your picture in the mail I knew you were beautiful but I didn't think I would like you this much" he whispered
I started to bite my lip, still trying to hold back the many tears that wanted to get out.
"Why didn't I ask my mom to stay?" I thought to myself
I started to feel woozy again and my vision was getting blurrier. That's when it hit me that he had drugged me drink. I soon started to get light headed as he smelt my hair and rubbed his hand up and down my arms. His hand slowly went down to my back and he actually sqweezed my butt. Then I passed out.
I woke up with Tom on top of me. I was on a bed it was cold and dark. This was the 3rd time I woke up. I was in and out of consciousness now. I was so numb I could barely feel the pain now. He finally got off of me and laid next to me on the bed. I slowly turned my head and looked at him.
"That wasn't so bad was it?" he asked
Tears were streaming down my face.
"Why did you do that to me?" I asked
"Because I couldn't resist. I mean looking at you it's not like your a virgin"
I gave him an evil glare and got out of the bed. I ran to the living room area where my purse was. I picked up the phone and called my mom.
"Hi Manny" she said
"Hi mom" I said trying to hold back tears
"Is something wrong?" she asked
"No I just want you to pick me up" I said
"Ok I'm on my way" she said
I put my clothes on and sat in the living room. I was hurting inside I didn't think it would hurt that bad because I had sex with Craig before but it did. It was almost like I was a virgin touched for the very first time. quotes from Maddona. My mom finally came and I ran to give her a hug.
"How did it go?" she asked
"It was fine" I said "Lets go"
I started walking towards the door but my mom held me back.
"Hold on I have to talk to Tom" she said
"I'm coming" Tom said
He came out of the room and gave my mom a smile.
"Come sit on the couch so we can talk" he said
My mom walked over to the couch and sat down. Tom sat down next to her and I just stood there. They both looked at me.
"Come sit down Manny, there's room on the couch" Tom said with a grin
The only seat was between Tom and my mom. I didn't want to sit close to him. I didn't even want to be in the same room as him.
"I want to stand" I said
"Ok" My mom said "So how did the pictures go?" she asked Tom
"We didn't start because the jeans wouldn't fit Manny…so I have to return them and get a bigger size"
"Oh" my mom said
"So maybe you guys can come back tomorrow?" he asked
"I'm busy tomorrow" I said
"How about Sunday?" he asked
"We're busy Sunday to" I replied
"We are?" my mom asked
"Think Manny Think" I thought
"Yeah…me and Emma are having a sleep over this weekend."
"Can't you postponed it?"
"No…we've been planning it for a month. Our first girls night out this summer…mom please"
"I'm sure there is another day that you guys can do it" My mom said
"Mom please?" I said
"I'm sure that we can figure out a different time" Tom said
"Awesome… ok bye!" I said starting to open the door
"Thank you very much Tom" My mom said getting up from the couch
"No problem I loved having Manny here"
"Manny say thank you to Tom" My mom said
"Thanks Tom" I said with a cheesy smile
"Well I'll see you guys soon?" Tom asked
"Yeah, soon" My mom said
"Can I talk to Manny really quick? I have to give her some things to do in front of the mirror." Tom said
"Ok I'll be waiting in the car Manny" my mom said while shutting the door
As I heard the door shut I wanted to run. I felt a gush of wind blow in through the window as Tom gave me a sick smile. He walked closer to me, I could smell his breath. I never noticed it before but it smelt like alcohol he probably drank a lot.
"What happened today. You don't tell anyone" He said his warm breath on my face
I nodded my head. I didn't want to say anything to him, just seeing him made me want to cry.
"Ok you can go home to mommy now. I'll see you soon" he said
I walked away and shut the door really hard.
"That's the last time I'll be seeing you" I said