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Do I love you or do I lust for you?

Chapter 1

Gambling and in need of money

The tea cups scratch against their under suspensors it was the same noise every day. My mother's tea parties were known for their class and style.

"Blair dear, must you hang your pretty face like that?" my mother says as she stirs in her tea.

"No, mother," I says as I stir my tea with a hard twinkling sound. After all her stupid high class ladies had lefts I ran into my room. I had this life full of boring twitter. Really did people only have gossip and rumors to spread and legs to spread to? I lived in a glamour world full of dimwits and stupid girls. At dinner that night my father was sitting and looks tired and worn out. Mother was trying her best to get my father to lighten up a bit.

I was on my way to bad when I heard my mother say" you gamble all the money away?" I was shock to hear her say that.

My father´s tone was low and he says" I know I will get it back."

The next day was the night ball at the Basses, my father´s old friend Bart Bass was holding it. I always thought them new money and so did my mother but they were doing well. The music was gay and I was dancing with all the young men and suddenly a warm hand wraps around my waist. The hand belong to Chuck Bass, he was nicely dress and very handsome not to mention smugly. He had chased me for months just because I did not want him.

"Bass, keep your hands to yourself," I say in a slow tone as Chuck was spinning me around.

"Waldorf don't be such a stiff board," he says husky into my ear.

The dance end and he kiss my hand with a panty dropping smirk. He must thing I am naïve I thought darkly as I walked away from him. I was looking after Nate as he was dancing nearby and after awhile he starts dancing with me. I really like Nate´s warm embrace and I wish he was mine. After our dance Serena and Nate were dancing. Serena was my closes friend and I felt a split of jealousy running through me, as Nate was holding Serena to close to him. Everybody was looking at them with awe. Nobody had look at me and Nate with awe when we danced. I ran off with an angry rush.

I hate men I thought angry as Nate had blown me of for Serena.

The rest of the night I spent looking at stars and wishing just for one moment to be loved like Serena. Yes I knew it was bad to be jealous at people and especially your best friend but Serena had always got what she wanted.

That night I want early home and did not want to course a scene. One my way in I heard my father say" I have talk to Bart and he wants to meet us for dinner tomorrow."

My mother looks happy to get that news and says" tell him we would love to come."

The dinner was very slow as Bart, Lily, my parents and Chuck sat down. Serena was nowhere to be seen she was Lily´s daughter and Eric her brother was gone to.

"Bart, it is nice of you to invite us," Eleanor says to Bart with a friendly smile. Bart just looks please but did not say much "no problem at all."

Chuck looks sick at sitting at the table. Chuck wasn't de type to sit through long family dinners

Good I hate this pretending game my father was putting up. He was only showing off for Harold Waldorf because he was old money and we were new.

Blair Waldorf was sticking her fork into her meat with little interest. She was a beauty and I hadn't had the pleasure to sleep with her yet. I love bedding women I had tried every rich woman around but not her. She seems to dislike me.

My father and Harold had gone to my father´s office to talk about business and Eleanor and Lily were talking to. That left me and Blair. Blair was sitting with her hands folded and just looking board.

Her eyes were just a lovely color, they look like chocolate buttons. Blair´s lips were like cherries and her skin like moon white.I was drawn to her and had been for a long time. She never looks my way because of Nathaniel; she is like every other girl that likes Nate. Nate had really looked like a fantasy prince.I was always the dark night and nobody with their right mind with love me like father and Bart priers and they both look at Chuck and me. I really don't like their look.

"Blair and Charles, we have decide to marry you off to each other, my father says.I was shock over this new I knew my father had a gambling problem but I did not know he was in such a big must be humiliating for my father to ask Bart for help and I felt bad for him. I was also angry at him to give me to Chuck Bass of all people.I was surprised to hear Blair´s father saying Blair was going to be my bride. I was to marry Blair Waldorf and it was my big chance to make her like me. She probably thought I was a womanizer. Aright I know I have no good reputation but I want Blair to really like I could get her to love me it would be would worth everything. Who was I kidding she was never going to love looks angry as she storms out of the dining room. Yes this marriage was going to be a loveless one. She was going to run away from me all the time.I keep sitting at the table why Harold excused himself and his family.

Our wedding would be soon.I had to live with the fact that my soon to be wife couldn't stand me.

Dorota was opening my corsage; she was also brushing my hair and braiding it up. I was furious at my father for his decision. Chuck Bass was 4 years older than me and I was only 16. Chuck probably thought he was going to marry at child. He was handsome no denying that, girls and women look at him with lust and he was known for his beddings. I had heard my fair shares of stories about his talent with women. I decide to let him work for it this time. He was not going to get my cherry that easily.