Author's note: I originally posted this on AO3 but thought hey why not here as well? :/ I'm new to ffnet so sorry if something doesn't look right

Disclaimer: I do not own Seraph of the End/Owari no Seraph

He had always been a late bloomer, he was shorter than most, he still had a few baby teeth and his voice hadn't even started to change yet, his mother kept telling him that he had plenty of time to mature, and he liked to believe this but school life didn't help him in these terms, he was already bully bait, and the fact that he had to start wearing glasses a year ago made him an even bigger target, he thought it couldn't get any worse but then that though was ripped to shreds when he discovered that he was gay.

Yuu had always known he was different in some way; he would always stay quiet when his friends would talk about girls and he simply found no interest in them, and as they got older he felt pressured into exploring the more... sexual way of life, his closest friend Akita 'forced' him to watch porn, saying that every boy their age did it, however he found himself more drawn towards the male in the videos, Yuu simply brushed this off. Then one day he heard some girls at school discussing yaoi, and he caught a glimpse of some of the manga they were gushing over, it made his heart pound.

It started piecing itself together when he would find his sight lingering on the other boy's bodies as they changed for PE, and what sealed the deal is when he caught himself personally asking the fujoshi at school to let him borrow a manga, which they were extremely okay with, and then finding himself fantasising about being the protagonist, namely the 'uke' as they say.

Luckily no one knew, not even his parents, well except for maybe Shinoa, but frankly he doesn't want anyone to know, it would make his life even more hell, especially since he was starting high school tomorrow.

The rather scrawny teenage boy was led on his bed; staring up at the ceiling, his right arm dangling off the edge. He had once again finished his favourite shounen-ai manga, he was sick, he hated that he longed for that type of relationship, especially since the story might as well be a shoujo but with two boys, you know the usual romance story where in this case the 'uke' bumped into the 'seme' dropped his books and then as they both went down to pick them up they did the whole eye contact cliché. Yuu loved it, he was jealous of it; his heart ached at how much they loved each other in the story, if he had the choice of jumping into his own shounen-ai at the price of leaving his life behind, he wouldn't even say goodbye.

Yuu sighed as he sat up, limp like some unknown force lifted him, he looked around his dim room, the spring sun clawing its way through the cracks of his blind, after observing his many anime posters he pushed up the thick rimmed glasses that threatened to fall off his nose and lugged himself onto the floor, he trudged over his clothes strewn floor and pulled himself out of his room, his parents weren't home so the house was quiet, an unknown noised waited in the emptiness to terrorize Yuu at any point, desire to make his heart skip.

He slouched downstairs in order to retrieve his phone, knowing it would be swamped with the same message, as he picked it up and switched to life he was relieved to see Shinoa hadn't been bugging him with questions about his sexuality, though the unsent messages also worried him, he pushed the thought aside and decided to enjoy the fact that the fujoshi wasn't pestering him, it was bad enough she somehow got his phone number, most likely from Akita.

He travelled back upstairs with a juice box hanging from his lips, re-entering his cave of a room caused comfort to wash over him immediately, he fell into his desk chair and powered up his computer, the screen came to life, illuminating his young face as he started updating his blog, he chewed on the straw of the juice box, mutilating the plastic unusable. The sound of cicadas resonated through the gap in his window; the breeze making the blind chink. Yuu found himself staring at his desktop wallpaper: his favourite character from the anime 'Ghouls of Tokyo', He forced himself up and walked across the room, his bed caught him as he fell, throwing the empty juice box into the bin on the way, he stared at the red numbers on his clock, the devil's machine read 7:43, in less that twelve hours he will be getting ready for school, Yuu felt his stomach turn and he grimaced, he pressed his face into the bed, his glasses pressing into him painfully, but he didn't care.

Yuu realised he hadn't been caring about a lot lately, to be honest he hadn't felt much of anything, except for the burning he got in his chest when he read his manga, a mix love and envy which created a monster that charmed his heart and then when it wormed its way inside, crushed it. The breeze nipped at his bare arms causing goose bumps to ripple up his skin, he edged himself towards the ridge of the bed and blindly felt around the floor for some sort of sweater, feeling the recognisable fabric he hoisted it up to him and forced himself up on his knees, his skin left smudges on his glasses, he slid the rims of his face and reflexively squinted as he wiped them with the sweater, after he cleaned his vision he placed them back on his nose and wrestled the sweater on.

Fully protected from the cold he resumed his business of burying his face into his bed, he felt himself become gradually tired, perhaps it was due to the fact his air was cut extremely short like this, juggling the thoughts of very little else to do he let his body succumb to the darkness of sleep.

His heart stopped as he was jerked awake by a bang, the remnants of the scare lingered in his brain as he slowly adjusted to being force jump started, literally. His vision told him it was night as he could no longer see the inside of his room, he sat himself up with a groan and pushed past his glasses as he rubbed his face, he wiped the drool from his mouth and tried to get through the nausea of being woken, the burning red of his clock formed the time 9:13, his mother must be home.

Yuu stripped himself of his sweater and replaced his drained jeans with sweats, he climbed under his covers and placed his glasses on the nightstand, he couldn't be bothered to deal with his mum right now, even if he hadn't eaten, but that didn't faze him, he would have plenty of time in the morning to fill his stomach.

Faint beeping invaded his dreamland, he subconsciously ignored the noise, mind deciding he was ignoring it, until the beeping didn't stop, it rattled his brain with the high pitched obtrusion, Yuu forced himself awake realising it was his alarm, he reached out blindly behind him knocking a few things over before stopping the noise. He buried his face into the pillow trying to savour the feeling of his bed, soaking up as much as he could he pushed himself out of the trap that was sure to send him back to sleep, he stretched when he stood up, and rested his glasses back on his face, he had an forty-five minutes till he needed to be out the house.

Yuu faced himself in the mirror: a mess of black hair and dark rings under his eyes and stood out next to his pale skin, he looked like death. He slapped his reflection, making the mirror shake, and then retrieved his toothbrush, he glared at himself while brushing, waiting till one of them broke away first, he spat down the sink then slugged back to his room, the familiar comfort sinking into his bones, he wished he could stay home, and just never leave, it's not like the world needed him anyway. After changing into his fresh uniform, he didn't even bother looking at himself again, knowing that he would never look flattering anyway; he flew down the stairs and swung into the kitchen where cereal and lunch was waiting for him. He stared at the wall while he spooned soggy whatever-he-was-eating into his mouth, anxiety filling his insides with every ticking second, the clock reached ten past and with a shaky deep breath he stood up and gathered his bag, filling it with necessities he stepped out the door.

The walk was boring; it took him 10-12 minutes at most, bonus of living close by. When he entered the busy entryway he was delightfully ignored, bonus of being a nobody, and as loneliness started to ease its way inside of him his name was being called from a running Akita, bonus of not being too much of a nobody. Yuu smiled as he saw his brunet friend, Yuu had known him for about five years now, he was lucky to have him.

"Hey Yuu, how's it been" Akita piped in as they walked towards homeroom; they had been put in the same class again, much to Yuu's happiness.

"A-alright I guess" Yuu stuttered slightly, it had been a while since he'd talked with some body, Akita started to ramble on about what he did over the break.

"Oh, actually Yuu do you have the maths textbook we needed? I forgot mine and I found out I have it fourth" Yuu nodded and slung his bag off his shoulder, it balancing awkwardly on his wrist, he rummaged through it and finally pulled out the textbook, though suddenly through his shitty awareness he walked straight into someone, dropping his bag and spilling its contents.

"A-ah I'm so sorry!" Yuu stammered out a string of apologies as he bent down, the victim of his clumsiness helping him gather his things.

"Don't worry, it's partly my fault, did you get everything?" A smooth voice answered him, Yuu looked up intrigued by it and came face to face with what looked like an angel, he had thick blond hair and icy blue eyes, his face held a sweet smile, and to Yuu he looked perfect.

The handsome boy looked up to lock eyes with Yuu, and they both stood up, he was a lot taller than he looked, nearly a whole head above Yuu, he handed back the items he picked up.

"I'll see you around, um" he arched a brow and looked down at Yuu inquisitively.

"Uh Yuu, you can call me Yuu" the head of black hair looked down as he replied; a burning blush coated his cheeks.

"See you around, Yuu-chan" his voice had a playful tone to it and the added honorific made Yuu's heart flutter, he clutched his books to his chest and watched as he left.

"Hey earth to Yuu" a hand waved in front of his face, breaking the spell and Yuu handed his friend the textbook without another word.

He looked back at the direction the beautiful stranger left in; oh he was screwed, so very screwed.