Letters to you
Chapter 1: 180 days
180 days. That's how long your deployment will last (and yeah, I'm well aware you know bout that fact). So that's 4,320 hours. Or 259,200 minutes without you. Best not to break it down any further. Cause it only gets more and more depressing to see those numbers grow.
180 days. Basically that's half a year. So, considering we've spent 9 years apart, those 6 months should not feel too long and go by pretty fast (I know, wishful thinking). At least we can stay in contact during your deployment via emails, skype... So I have at least something to look forward to that will give me a deprive from not having you around. Though it won't be the same, cause having you around, talking to you, looking into your eyes, kissing you, touching you... yeah, nothing can replace that.
Gosh, I miss you. And the first day isn't even over yet! But I believe we can make it this time. No more running. No more hiding. No secrets. This is it. I can feel it. We're both ready to fight for it. To stay even when things get rough (and knowing us, they will get rough with lots of fighting and screaming and tears and hurt). But this time we will stay. And will talk things out. That's something we never did in the past. It won't be easy. Especially for me. Cause opening up - it's not something that comes easy to me. So please be patient with me.
I look forward to the end of our separation. To finally have you coming back to me. Just like you promised (oh, and I so do hold you up on that). And then our story can continue. Just like you said:
"Our story is epic. Spanning years and continents. Ruining lives. Bloodshed."
And it will be. Epic.
Sorry to get all... soft. But you know what they say:
"You're a marshmallow, Veronica Mars!"
Counting the days...
Love,
Ronnie