Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi, any of the characters, or the lyrics/music to What I've Done (Linkin Park; Minutes to Midnight)
A/N: I thought I should write a little story today ;) and voila! Here it is :)
Thank you so much for all the positive feedback on Straitjacket and Into the Mystery. I was jumping up and down at how many people read it :)
What I've Done...
In this fair world, there's no blood, there's no allibies,
'Cause I've drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies,
So let mercy come, and wash away...
Eli stared blankly at the wall, deep in thought. Everything had gone wrong today; Clare had said he was suffocating her. He didn't, couldn't, understand what he'd done to make her feel this way. He'd given her everything he had, tried to make her understand how he really felt about her. He loved her more than anything in the world.
Clare was the only thing that'd gone right in Eli's life.
"I...I love you..." he whispered, the words he uttered floating like smoke into the air. He felt as if he could float away like those words, just leave this world and all the judgments made. Float away, just like Julia had...
With that, he stood up, grabbing his car keys from the desk next to his bed. Eli stormed downstairs, flinging the front door open only to slam it behind him as he walked to Morty. He turned the key in the ignition, music blaring from the speakers as he backed out of his driveway. He needed some sort of release from all the tension that was building up, and he knew exactly where to get it.
The car stopped in front of the pharmacy on Field Street, only five minutes from the school. Ironically, next door was the tattoo parlor where him and Clare had gotten their matching piercings. He cooly brushed the thought away, just like she'd brushed him.
Eli pulled out his wallet, taking out a year-old prescription he'd forgotten to fill. He'd gotten into a small accident in his dad's car last year, before he'd bought Morty, and they'd prescribed painkillers for his injuries.
A smirk played on his lips as he skillfully changed the date to the current year, using a trick one of his old friends had taught him. The car door swung open, and Eli walked into the pharmacy, making his way through the lines of medication to the front desk.
I'll face myself, to cross out what I've become,
Erase myself, and let go of what I've done...
"Alright, this will go right to your heath care bill." The pharmacist confirmed. Eli nodded, pulling out his wallet to show her his Health ID card. She cleared it, handing it back along with the medication. He nodded, smiling briefly as he walked back towards the door. He didn't even bother walking out of the store before opening the bag, taking out the small prescription bottle.
Before he could get the lid off, his cell phone rang. Eli sighed, pulling out his phone; Clare's name flashed across the screen, making him flinch. He wasn't sure why she was calling, either to apologize or tell him she wanted to break up. He hoped it was the first one.
He drew in a deep breath before answering, gaining his composure. "Yes?" he stated bluntly, leaning on the hood of Morty. "Eli...hey. About earlier, I-I...I meant what I said."
His heart stopped.
"W-what are you saying?" he replied lowly, a ball of emotions getting caught in his throat. "I think we should...give each other some space. It's not that I want to, but-" Eli laughed sadistically, cutting her off. "Of course you want to. Why else would you be saying this, calling me?" he shouted, tensing up.
Clare sighed audibly, "Eli, I'm sorry. I just...I can't be with you all the time. I need my own space." Eli shook his head, hanging up the phone. He shoved his phone in his pocket, turning to face Morty; his fists collided with the hood of the car, slamming down hard on it's metal surface. The prescription bottle was clenched tightly in his hands, turning his knuckles white.
Eli felt tears start to form in his eyes, quickly blinking them back as he opened the bottle. He poured out at least 5 pills, swallowing them dry. He coughed slightly, swallowing again before walking around to the driver's side.
He began to feel slightly lightheaded, the effects of the drug starting to work their ways. He started the car again, placing his phone on the seat next to him. The car started up, the engine and music combined wearing down his ears. He picked up his phone again, re-dialing Clare.
Put to rest, what you thought of me,
As I clean this slate with the hands of uncertainty,
So let mercy come, and wash away...
"Eli, why did you hang up on me?" Clare asked, slight concern playing in her voice. Eli ignored her comment, getting straight to the point. "You made a promise, rememeber? That you'd never leave me." he informed icily, biting the inside of his cheek hard enough to draw blood.
He grew silent, his jaw clenching tightly. Clare began speaking, her words only becoming jumbled together as he felt more and more lightheaded.
"Eli, answer me!" Clare screamed, grabbing Eli's attention. "Goodbye." he said bluntly, closing the phone once more. Everything started to fade away, his vision becoming less and less clear by the seconds that passed. Seconds turned to minutes in what seemed no time at all; Eli's consciousness was fading, and his eyelids were closing.
Car horns blared around him, seeming louder than anything he'd heard in the past. His eyes finally shut, as did everything else around him.
I'll face myself, to cross out what I've become,
Erase myself, and let go of what I've done...
A/N: Well, if you couldn't tell, that was inspired by the TeenNick promo for the upcoming season. I hope you enjoyed. ;)
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Muchlove.