Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight, I'm just a fan, well this is my first fanfic, hope you like! Please review if you like or if you have Constructive criticism, not just mean shit that tells me how much you hate it or how much it sucks, by the way be sure to read my new grimmhime fic

"Well guess its just me and Zero now..."

Unfortunately it was a rainy day so, while everyone else had holiday break, Zero and I were stuck on the school grounds since we were the guardians.

Hmmmm...this is gonna be a snore I said to myself sarcastically.

Snow... Well I guessed it would be natural, after all it's winter. Blood. Snow. Snow is white so...why does it remind me of the color of blood?

On that snow covered day ten years ago, I was saved, why? Why was he there? Why was I there? Did my parents disown me? Is it really Kaname-sama who tampered with my memory?

"I don't know anymore Geez!" I yelled to my self, in a whisper so that no one would hear.

"Yuki?" I jolted my eyes open.

"Zero-kun?" I sighed "Jeez you really scared me there for second!"

"Then you should keep you senses more alert, Bakka" he said. I had to admit though, he always did seem to look at me with worried eyes, I hated that.

"So whatcha doin here Zero-kun?"

"I just finished my patrol outside, making sure the rest of the day kids went home, you?"

"Oh, well I wasn't really doing anything, just...thinking, yea thinking, lets go with that..." I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I thought I got rid of this years ago, this stupid tendency to cry when I'm just easily mixed up with all my emotions, I aways just ended up crying. Everything was starting to poor out.

Stop it!! Stop, you're gonna cry in front of Zero-kun, don't look like a stupid baby!

The voice in my head wasn't really working, so I just did the first thing that came to my mind, I ran.

Damn. Why. How. What.

Those were the words lingering in my mind. Damn it all! Why, just why, about everything?! How did all of this happen, especially Zero. Him having his family attacked, being turned into a vampire, me letting him feed on my blood to let keep on a living, for just a while longer, and How did everything turn out this way!! What is wrong with me...?

The running didn't help much, I got tired a bit more quickly than he did. That's right. He chased me.

"Oi! Yuki, What's wrong?!" he said as me grabbed my hand.

"Everything!" I yelled back.

He gripped my arm tighter, but the moment of silence is what really stood out.

After a while he spoke.

"It's OK, I'm here, right beside you, I'm sorry I'm feeding off of you're blood if that's one of the things you're wondering about...I can stop...if you want me-"

"NO!" I yelled back a little to quickly

He opened his eyes in surprise, while I blushed furiously.

"I mean don't, you're right it's one thing I've had in my mind but I don't really have a problem with it, I want to to keep living, Zero-kun..."

He smiled, and put his finger to the corner of my eye. When he brought his finger back, there was a small teardrop on it.

"Oi, don't look at me like that!" He yelled in his more annoying, and yet comical way at me.

I sniveled "O.K."

We had another moment of silence. There was only one difference between the other one. It was warm.

His arms enclosed me, an it was surprisingly warm. He always looked at people with cold indifferent stares, but his arms, his chest were warm. They did smell faintly of blood though, yea that rusty/salty kind of smell, but he also smelled of earl gray tea, something calming. I could hear his heart beating, as his warm breathed grazed my ear. Thump. Thump. Thump.

I wish this could last more than a moment I prayed in my mind.

Thump, Thump, Thump.

His heartbeat was getting faster.

I don't want him to let go!

If only to lengthen that moment, I raised my arms up and put them on his face. I knew I was attempting something forbidden to vampires, but I didn't want to let go.

We kissed.

His heartbeat did speed up, as I expected, but He didn't Have the reaction I was hoping he would have.

He, instead of just letting me be in charge, pushed me up against the wall. This made me gasp, thus letting the tongue action occur.

His tongue slipped inside my mouth during such short notice and started exploring my mouth. I could feel it. Wet a bit gross, but...I liked this feeling. I slipped my tongue into his mouth to feel what he was like inside. I wanted to know him, get to explore this blood-thirsty beast, and continue this tongue play. I was a race to see who could memorize and explore each other's mouth fastest. He bit on my tongue, and I admit it hurt and I yelped, but a he started to suck my blood, I got used to this feeling. After he was done with his fill he licked it clean, if only to ease the stinging sensation in my mouth.

It was then that I realized something else that was going on. His knee rubbed against the insides of my thighs, asking for entry. I could feel the heat building up inside me. The lust, creeping through my bones. I parted but, he stopped.

Immediately, he parted his lips with mine, and backed away. I was disappointed but surprise and shock were the emotions on my face.

"I'm Sorry" he said.

I could barely see anything as the tears welled up in my eyes again, confusion in my head. As I sank to the floor, I started crying.

As my cries put me to sleep on the cold, hard, stone floor, I had only one question in my mind. Why?

Slowly everything around me blackened. I never realized it before, but you get tired after you cry for over an hour, sitting on the floor...

Well, I'm thinking about writing a chapter two, but for now I need some feedback and reviews, to really see if I can continue this. So please review everyone! Oh yea and there might be a lemon later on, teehee -