I'm back...Well sort of. I've got another new story idea and I know I have lots right now but I really need to do it.

For all those readers of Different Coloured Roses and Rose Hall and the Death Mark, I will update as soon as possible, but...I don't know what to write. I know what happens but I don't know where to start, if you get what I mean?

Anyways, my new story is called Fiery Secrets and Love :D Here's a little summary:

After the death of her beloved mother, Rose Hathaway moves to Maywood to live with her distant father and her not-so-close cousin. She soon learns that things are as they seem when you're falling for a Russian bad-boy...

It is M rated, so there is language and there is going to be lemon scenes. Its going to be my first time writing like that so bare with me! :D

Hope you enjoy the first chapter! :D

Fiery Secrets and Love

Chapter One: It's Not Over

"Let's start over. I'll try to do it this time around..." – Chris Daughtry

You know when they say death is a good thing? That the person can rest and go on into the afterlife and not have to worry about anything ever again? Well, that's a load of bullshit. What will happen to the family as the person is "resting in peace"? How would they rest and go onto the afterlife without killing themselves? To be honest I don't really believe in the afterlife, so I don't really know why I'm even thinking about it. Because you force yourself not to believe it, but deep down you really want to believe in it. My stupid inner voice said and I pushed it right, right, into the back of my mind. I couldn't deal with it right now, so I forced myself to keep my tired hazel eyes on the road.

I've been driving for the last five hours, non-stop. I had to leave my childhood home and town at four o'clock in the morning to get to the town of Maywood.

Maywood, a small town just outside of LA. Even though it was right next to LA, it wasn't very popular...only to criminals and drug dealers and other idoits. I still didn't know why Abe lived there, and right now, I was going to be one of the idoits living there.

I hadn't spoken to Abe in the last three years, well only by e-mail. But we didn't even do that every often. We only really e-mailed each other once every...four months. And to be honest, it was only really short messages. Just to let you know, if you didn't notice before, Abe is my father. We stopped seeing each other three years ago after he missed my 13th birthday party. I know it shouldn't really be important right now, now that I'm sixteen. But still, thirteen is where you finally become a teenager and like any girl - I wanted my "Daddy" to be there. Actually, he had missed all my birthdays due to "business". But really, I knew he was doing it with some random girl. I bet that's what he thought of my Mom. So since then I only refered him to Abe.

It was only until a month ago when I started to talk to him again, but I didn't have much of a choice. My Mom died just over a month ago and I was still not over it. Which was understandable, I mean she was the one who raised me and I was her best friend and she was mine. We we're really close...sometimes people actually thought we were sisters instead of mother and daughter. It was because Mom had me at the age of nineteen and she was very clear she didn't want the same thing happening to me. Even though it was clear in my point-of-view that Abe just used Mom, she actually loved him and always told me off for saying something bad about him. Saying he would be there to my birthdays and other times, but it was to mixed up to explain.

Well it was pretty clear to me I was his bitch of a daughter. But I learned to accept it and know that one parent, was enough.

I was out with my friend Mia when it happened. I had just called my Mom just before it happened and I wish I could of said, "I love you". But my last words to her were, "you suck". I was angry with her because she wouldn't let me stay out a little longer, which I found strange because she normally does - did. But when I did finally get home, the house was covered in flames with firemen everywhere trying to stop it. I tried to run into the house, screaming for her. But the stupid policemen were holding me back, telling me to calm down.

It was then a few hours later it was confirmed that Mom was dead. At first I didn't believe it, I thought the police, soicalworkers and doctors were lying. But after the shock passed, reality setted in. Mom was dead. And my stupid last words were "you suck".

Right then and there I hated myself. I should have said something that would be comforting, but no, the only words I had were "you suck". After the furenal though, I learned to forgive myself, knowing that my mother wouldn't want me to hate or blame myself forever.

So afterwards I started to pack to my new home, to live with my father.

This shall be fun...

-FSAL-

I had finally come across a sign saying: "Welcome to Maywood". Even though as I driving though the town, and it looked very beautiful. I did notice some kids with hoodies around who either looked like they were carrying a gun or were high. I couldn't decide which one so I went with both.

After getting lost two times, I finally came down Vladmir's Street. I parked up next to number four and stopped. Once I finally parked somewhere a little safe, I opened the car door and jumped out, feeling the flesh air against my skin. And also, my ass ached so I was glad to be standing up. I look around the street and saw that no one was around and it was deadly quite. I was starting to think if I made the wrong choice moving down here.

"Rose!" I looked over to the house I would be staying at. It looked like all the other houses around on this street. Nice, with nice flamed windows, two floors and a porch, which where a girl with ash blonde hair and honey brown eyes stood. At first I thought I didn't know her, at first she looked like a total stranger. But then I saw her birthmark just below her ear and I smiled gratefully.

It was my cousin, Sydney Mazur.

I just remembered then that Sydney also lived with Abe. Her father passed away two years ago and her mother left her just after she was born. Last I saw of Sydney, she was eight and I was seven (she's one year older than me) and I saw that she was very close with her father. When Abe told me that he passed from a lung problem, I felt very sad for Sydney. At least I knew someone who had lost a parent.

"Sydney," I breathed, almost relieved. I was glad I wouldn't be staying in the house with Abe all by myself. But I wasn't that close with Sydney, even now I could sense there was going to be some awkardness between us.

She walked down the stairs down the house as I was getting my bags out of the car. As I got the last of my bags out (there were three all together) Sydney was standing right in front of me. She looked good, she was few inches taller than me and her ahs blonde hair was midway of the back, whereas mine was shoulder length.

"Wow," Sydney whispered, she looked like I wasn't there but just a dream.

"I know, it's good to see you too." I smiled and that's when she dragged me into a bear hug. The hug was something I thought was going to be awkard, but it wasn't. It was one of those hugs that you would give to your very best friend or...a cousin. It was cross between a welcome hug and I miss you hug. And strangely...it was nice.

She laughed as we broke the hug. It wasn't until now I noitced that she was crying, and that made me feel bad for a moment until I realised that they were tears of joy. My smile grew wider and I felt then tears in my eyes. I didn't know what families were like because I only ever had my mother but it was something like this. And I missed it.

Sydney looked down to my bags, "Let me help you." Before I could protest, she grabbed two of my gym bags and headed towards the house. I quickly locked my car, grabbed my bag and followed Sydney into the house. As soon as I stepped into the house, I was blown away. Even though I was standing in the hallway, the place looked very big. To my right there was some kind of indoor archway into what looked like the living room. In front of my there was big white wooden door and to the left was the stairs that let to the next floor. But just behide the stairs led another hallway.

"How big is this place?" I asked, god-smacked to the very bone. I was very sure that my mouth was hanging open.

Sydney smiled, "Very big. On the ground floor aka the basement, has a games room and a small gym." Look down to the floor, even though I couldn't see the basement. "On this floor there is a living room, kitchen, dining room, bathroom and a study." I think the other hallway behind the stairs lead to the dining room, bathroom and study. "And on the top room their are five bedrooms, three of them being yours, mine and Abe's. All with bathrooms of there own."

"Whoa..." I mumbled as my eyes wondered the hallway.

Sydney giggled, "Come on, I'll show you to your room." Sydney once again lead the way upstairs and as we passed two bedrooms, we stopped at the end of the upstairs hallway to the last door. Sydney opened the door and said, "Here's your new room."

What I saw in there stunned me, in a good way. The room itself was beautiful, with cream and light green painted walls. A white covered double bed. A dark wooden wardrobe and desk and another door that lead into my own bathroom. It had my name written all over it.

I walked into the room, thinking that it was going to disappear if I didn't. I smiled as I looked around.

"So, I guess you like it?" Sydney asked as she put my bags down in my new room.

"I love it," I said continuing to look around and put down my bag.

"Good, because your dad got it done just for you." Sydney told me.

I turned towards Sydney with a frown, "Where is Abe?"

Sydney hestiated as she looked down, "He sends his apologizes, but he'll be away for the next month because of business." When she said the word business, she said it a lot lower.

I narrowed my eyebrows, "What does Abe actually do?"

Sydney shrugged her shoulders and changed the subject, "How do you feel about going to a party tonight?"

"A party?"

Sydney now looked at me, looking relieved that I didn't question more about my father. "It's a going back to school party. It beeing held at one of my friends father's club."

I crossed my arms over my chest, "Will there be drinking?"

"Yes."

"Music?"

"Yes."

"Dancing?"

"Lots."

I smirked at Sydney, "I'm in."

Sydney smiled back at me, "Great! You can meet my boyfriend there."

"You have a boyfriend?" That came as I shock, but by how beautiful she was and I hadn't really spoken to her since I was seven, I guess a lot of things have changed.

She nodded, "Yeah. He's name is Christian. He's nice, a bit of a tease but very handsome." I could tell by her love-puppy eyes she was thinking of him now.

"Yeah...for a second there I thought you were talking about me. But the he, the name and the very handsome did throw me off." I told her biting my lip.

We both laughed, enjoying each other's company. We stood there for a moment, smiling at each other. Sydney broke the silence. "Alright then, I'll just make us something to eat while you settle in." I nodded, remembering I hadn't eaten all day. As she was about to leave Sydney stopped at the door way and looked back to me. "And Rose," I looked at her. "Pick something fucking sexy to wear."

I laughed and nodded.

-FSAL-

"Fuck my shitty life," I said under my breath as Sydney parked her yellow mercedes outside a packed club. There was a line that reached the car park and with girls wearing dresses shorter than mine and also looked a bit high. I had forgotten I wasn't really good with crowds. People in a classroom I could handle but a millon people in one club...that I couldn't handle. My breathing suddenly became quicker as I stared at the long line.

"Hey," Sydney said as I felt her put her hand on my shoulder. "Don't worry. I know how you are with crowds and trust me, this club may not look very big, but it is."

I contiuned to look out the window and swallowed hard. "Are you sure? There are a lot of peopple lining to get in."

Sydney laughed, "Most of those people won't get in because their not on the list."

I finally looked at her, "There's a list?"

She nodded and opened her car door. "Now come on, don't want to keep the party waiting."

We both got out the car and went towards where the big men were standing. I was wearing a grey/white strapless dress while Sydney was wearing a little black vintage dress. After telling the big bodygurds Sydney's name and that I was with her, they let us in. And what I saw amazed me.

It was like a big warehouse, filled with flashing lights, banging music and everyone either dancing, drinking, talking - or were they making out? I couldn't tell from this distance. I felt my stomach dry up from the crowd and I took deep, slowl breaths as I tried to stay calm.

"Christian!" Sydney shouted from beside me and ran up to a guy with short black hair, icily blue eyes and very pale skin. Sydney jumped into Christian arms and they had a passionate kiss. Which only lasted a moment. When it was over, Sydney dragged Chrsitan over to me and said, "Christian this is my younger cousin Rose - Rose this is my boyfriend I was telling you about, Christian."

Smirking at me he said, "Hey."

I did a little wave, "Hi, nice to meet you."

"You too, Sydney has told me a lot about you." Christian told me his smirk now looking like a cat's smile.

I narrowed my eyebrows, "Like what?"

"How your a trouble maker and you like to break windows." He laughed when Sydney smacked him on the arm.

"That was one time!" I shouted putting my hands on my waist.

Christian was about to say something else but he suddenly looked down at his watch. "Hey Syd, I've got to go."

Sydney looked surprised and a little hurt. "Really? You're going?"

Christian smiled sadly at her, "I'll be back later, but there's business to deal with."

Sydney's facial expression totally changed to understanding. "Of course, you go on."

Nodding, Christian gave her a quick peck on the lips and then he was gone. I started to wonder what "business" was but if I asked Sydney would think I was being nosy.

Smiling at me, Sydney grabbed my hand and lead me to a pack of stairs, "Come on, there's someone I want you to meet."

There is actually three floors to this club, but the floors were like hallways and you could see the dance floor. I felt panic going through my veins as I went snaked around with Sydney all these dancing people. But I kept my breathing down and told myself everything was going to bed okay. To the hallways there were actually some doors to other rooms, but Sydney told me that they were mostly closed and locked.

We were on the last floor when Sydney shouted, "There you are!" Sydney ran, dragging me along with her to a girl. She was just as beautiful too, with pale blonde hair, light green eyes and light skin. She was wearing navy green dress that did go with her eyes.

"Hey Syd, this is your cousin?" The girl asked whilst smiling at me.

"Yep, Lissa this is Rose, Rose this is Lissa. She's in your year so she'll be in most of your classes." Sydney told me.

I nodded, "Nice to meet you Lissa."

"You too!" She shouted over the music, "I'm sorry but I've got to get going, I'll see you two later!"

"See you!" Sydney shouted and Lissa was gone through the dancing music. "Don't mind her, she's really shy, but also very nice."

I smiled, "Yeah, she is."

Sydney looked down at the dance floor, "Would you like to have a little dance on the dance floor?"

"Do you even have to ask?"

-FSAL-

We danced for...Well I lost track how long we danced for but I was having a hell of a time. When I was dancing, I forgot all about my fear of crowds, the death of my mother, living with my distant father and not-so-close cousin and having to redo my life all over again. I only thought about dancing and the music.

Halfway through Lady Gaga's song Born This Way, I had to pee. I looked to Sydney, who was dancing like an untrained monkey and shouted over the music, "I need to go to the toilet!"

"Do you want to come with you?" She yelled.

I shook my head, "No! I'll be fine!"

"Are you sure that you can find it?"

I nodded, "Yeah, I will! I'll be right back!"

Sydney nodded and went back to her untrained monkey moves.

As I was trying to look for a sign that told me where the toilets were, I walked past some high guys.

"Hey sweetheart! Why don't you come over here and keep me company!" One of them shouted to me as I was walking passed.

Another one of them shouted, "Yeah, we could do with a good slut!"

I rolled my eyes and contiuned walking. I learned to igrone any boy that gave me trouble, back home I used to have guys hit on me all the time. Mia told me it was because I had a body of a goddess and the beauty of an actual rose. But I didn't believe her, I never believed anyone who called me beautiful, not even my own mother.

Giving up, I decided to try all the doors there. Going through one, two three...Well you know the number count.

I got to number twevle when I found it unlocked. I had a happy me dancing in my head. But it didn't last long...

When I opened the door wide, what I saw scarred me for life.

There was a girl up against the wall, who had redish, brownish hair and had dark grey eyes. Who was wearing a toxic short red dress, that was riden up right to the top of her chest. She looked around my cousin's age, maybe a bit older. But it wasn't the girl I was staring at, it was the guy who she had her slutty legs around.

My god, I had never seen a man so...beautiful. He was a beautiful god. He had chin length light brown hair that showed off his angelic cheek bones. He's botton shirt was open so you could clearly see his stareable six pack. He had deep, dark brown eyes which you could easily get lost in. As my eyes travelled down I saw what was happening and swallowed hard.

I just caught two strangers having sex up against a wall.

But my mind could care less at that moment as I was staring at that moment at the beautiful guy's dick... But I quickly snapped out of it and look back towards their faces.

They were both staring at me, the girl with shock, surprise and a bit of saddness. And the guy...Well I think he was kind of checking me out, which turned my face even redder than it already was.

I blurted out the first words that came into my mouth, "Well...I guess this isn't the toilets." I realised what I said and quickly ran out, embrassed as well as a bit lustful towards -

Oh my god! I don't even know the guy!

But his dick was going to be in my mind for very long time.

I should of really listened to my mother when she said never trust the words coming out of my mouth.

I was suddenly aware then of the crowd and my tightness in my stomach returned but this time with revenge.

Knowing I had to get out of here, I set a search for Sydney.

Soon enough I found at the bar, talking to some guy who had messy short brown hair and dark green eyes. He looked handsome, but not as beautiful as -

Stop thinking about him!

"Sydney," I said as I finally got to the bar. Sydney turned to me with a smile, "I'm going to head back to the house."

She then frowned, "Why? Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine, just a bit tired is all." I told her, trying to keep what just happened to myself.

"Do you want me to give you a lift?" Sydney asked.

I shook my head, not wanting to ruin her night. "No, don't worry, I'll walk."

"Don't be silly," She turned to the guy she was talking to and said, "Adrian, do you think you could give Rose a lift? It will only take a few minutes."

Adrian guy turned towards me and gave me a friendly smile, "Sure."

"Alright, I'll see you later Rose." Sydney said and went off, leaving me with Adrian.

I smiled an awkard smile, "You don't have to really. I can walk."

Adrian shook his head and got off his stool. "No, I want to really. Come on." He started walking ahead and I hestiated. He laughed, "I promise you I'm not a serial killer or a new found rapist."

I laughed, "Okay!"

Soon enough I was in his SUV and heading back to the house. I wasn't ready to call it home yet. First there was an awkard silence between us which I was grateful for, until he spoke.

"So, why did you really want to leave?" Adrian suddenly asked, stopping at the red light.

"I don't know what you mean." I said, not looking at him.

"Don't lie to me, what happened?" Adrian asked again.

"Well, if you must know...I ran into two people having sex against the wall." I quickly said it, not wanting to repeat it.

Adrian laughed, "Let me guess. The guy looked like a god, had a six pack, chin length light brown hair and a very thick and big dick?"

I snapped my head towards Adrian, "You've seen his dick?"

He laughed again, "I'm only repeating what other girls told me." He turned a corner, "Don't worry, he always is having sex with a girl at the club but doesn't stay around long with one girl and every girl knows that. But they still want a piece of him." Adrian explained to me.

"Who is he?"

"Dimitri Belikov, he's the son of who own's that club. He's just the year above me and Sydney, in his last year." Adrian told me, "He's a good guy...at times. He can mistaken sometimes but he does treat girls badly. Not too badly, but doesn't return their calls and move on to the next one."

"So he's a man whore?" I guessed.

"A good friend and a man whore, yes." Adrian smiled.

There was another silence between us until Adrian broke it again.

"I'm sorry about your Mom."

I pressed my lips together, "It's okay."

"I know what it's like, you know, to lost your mother."

I turned back to look at him, "Really."

He nodded, looking at me for a moment. "Yeah, my Mom died when I was five."

"I'm sorry." I mumbled, "How did it happen?"

Adrian suddenly looked angry and looked back to the road, "Boating accident."

I smiled sadly, "I'm sorry."

"Don't worry, wasn't your fault." Adrian said stopping by the house. "Nice truck."

I smiled, "Thanks." I unchicked my seatbelt, "Thanks for the lift, but you really didn't have to."

He smiled to himself, "Don't worry, I would do anything for Sydney." I knew that meant something more than a friendly thing, but I didn't question it.

Instead I hopped out, waved Adrian goodbye and went inside the house. I was still trying to take in everything that happened tonight and try to block out Dimitri's dick from my mine but I couldn't. I quickly after trying not to think about it, went to bed, hoping the image would be gone the next day.

What did you guys think?

So far we have met, Sydney the cousin.

Christian, the cousin's boyfriend

Lissa, the shy friend

Adrian, the guy friend

and Dimitri, the nice man whore

We will be meeting over characters in the next chapter but I hope you enjoyed it. Tell me what your favourite part was! Tell me what you think is going to happen! Tell me everything! :D

Also for all those people who know I have three different Rose's in mind on my profile, well I picture differently now. At least for this story.

I actually have an area for this story! :D Go on my profile and check it out! I only have three character pictures so far, so if you have an idea for any of the other characters, let me know! :D