I'm not dead, thank you very much. I was just too busy with exams that I can't even touch my laptop! I recently started watching Fairy Tail and this idea just popped into my head. Enjoy!
Since I first came here, I fought many times over and over with her. She and I always competed against each other. Sometimes I wonder, when did our rivalry first started? Would telling her this be easier if we had never been rivals? I was so sure that I was straight, so sure, until… now. I just found out that I love another girl. Ridiculous, right? But that's just what it is. I can't stop loving her, even though it's very possible that she loves another person. A blue-haired childhood friend of hers by the name of Jellal. Why does this have to happen? Why did I fall in love with her? Even though I know it's going to be very painful for me, I just can't help but fall deeper in love with her. I know I shouldn't love her. She would reject me. The guild would be disgusted at me. I won't belong anywhere if that happens. In fact, I think even Elfman would be disappointed with me, saying that I'm not being a Man. Not that I am, anyway. In more than one way, my love is forbidden. Why? Because, for one, this is talking about a girl loving another girl here. And for another, people who are precious to me always die. I was closest to my mom and dad. Then, they died when a group of robbers broke into my house, leaving me, a helpless 10-year-old, with my 9-year-old brother and 8-year-old sister to take care of. The Council planned to send us to an orphanage but I escaped with my siblings before they could get us. We hid from the Council, got treated like trash and lived in the streets. I always gave most of whatever food or clothes we could find to my siblings. I didn't care if I was hungry or cold, at least my siblings wouldn't have to starve and freeze to death. My siblings meant the world to me. They were my only family. We lived like this, for three years, until Makarov found us and took us in. Fairy Tail had became our new home and family since then. But then, Lisanna died on an S-ranked quest that I took. I blamed myself for her death. If only I hadn't took that quest. If only I hadn't been careless and cause Elfman to cast a Take Over spell on the beast and lose control as a result. If only I had ignored the pain from my injuries and saved her. Her death broke me. I had thought many times of dying, but Elfman only has me now, so I couldn't bring myself to do it. Then, I found a new reason to live. I had someone that I fell in love with. Even so then, I couldn't tell her, so I'll confess here.
I love you, Erza.
How was it? It was my first Fairy Tail fanfic but I hope you enjoyed it. By the way, if there are some dense people out there who still haven't figured it out, this is Mirajane's POV.