Kissing You Chapter 1: Kissing You, a digimon fanfic

This is a Tia/Matt story. I just felt like this fit, somehow. I hope ya'll like this. My first Digimon story ever. The song is 'Kissing You' by Miranda Cosgrove. Um… none of these characters are mine, and enjoy.

Matt just called me all excited, and told me to get to his apartment right away. I don't know what this is about, but I'm sure whatever it is, I'm gonna love it.

So I grab my coat from under a pile of what I assume is dirty clothes. I'm just now realizing that I need to clean my room, as I slowly back away from whatever is growling at me from underneath my bed. I wouldn't be too worried if it was only Agumon, but I know for a fact that he's in the living room with Kari and Gatomon. So…. Slowly backing away.

Once I leave my room and tell Kari and our two digimon where I'll be going, I head to the door and leave our apartment. I have some trepidation about leaving Kari in our apartment alone, but Agumon and Gatomon are with her, our parents are only a call away at work, and she is eleven. She'll be fine.

Now, I wonder what Matt has to show me. I hope it's something like uber cool, like a rocket ship, or one of those awesome new self command food processors! Oh by the way, how do you like the super big words I've been applying? Izzy got me this nice little word-a-day calendar. Anyway, back to Matt. I don't really care what it is that he has, as long as I get to see him. He's my best friend, and I just like spending time with him. Since his band started and finished its Japan tour, we really haven't gotten to do anything, just the two of us, in a really long time. And that's not counting, saving world and digi-battles and stuff either.

I turn the all too familiar corner onto the all too familiar street. I've been to Matt's so many times; I don't even have to think about where I'm going anymore.

Sometimes I wish our lives were just a little different. Sometimes I wish I could be with him all the time. I kind of have this itty-bitty crush like-I-think-I'm-in-love-with-my-best-friend kind of thing going on, but I haven't told him, or anyone for that matter. At the moment, I just want to see how this will develop, with our lives. I mean we have school, and the digimon stuff, and he's a rock star. So that stuff always gets in the way. And besides that, he is my best friend. I don't want to lose him, just because I might be in love with him.

I'm almost to his apartment know, I'm in the building, heading up to his place. I really can't imagine what he needs to show me. When he called, he sounded so excited, he just told me to get down here right away. He said it had something to do with last Friday. I don't have the slightest idea of what he's talking about, because he played a concert on Friday. Yeah I was there, but I spent most of the night in the backstage bathroom, crying over my sexuality. Not that I'm not confident that I'm in love with Matt, I just…. I don't know…. I just have this ever present fear that one day he'll find out and never speak to me again.

That's like my worst nightmare.

Anyway, I'm here, at Matt's apartment door. I already knocked, and there's Matt opening the door for me. Wow, he is so excited. He's so adorable when he gets this way. I got to tell you, seeing an excited Matt, is a HUGE change, from normal, moody, emo Matt. But it's really cute nonetheless.

"Hey, what's up? You sounded urgent on phone." I ask him as I step in his apartment and take off my shoes.

"It is urgent! I have something really awesome to show you." He says sidestepping me and walking down one of the halls.

"Okay…. Hey where is everyone?" I follow him into his room and sit down on his bed.

"Oh, Mom's at work, and T.K. had this project to do with Davis. He said he won't be home until later." Matt says as he grabs something from his closet and walks back over by his computer.

"A project with Davis? Well, no braver man than your little brother has tried." I wonder what he has planned. He keeps looking over at me and smirking. I know that smirk too. In a word, it means trouble.

"I know, right? When he left I asked what he was gonna do with Davis' body, when he inevitably kills him." Matt says as he picks up a random chair that's in his room and pulls it over in front of me. He watches me for a second and then turns back around to get something else.

"So, Matt…. I don't mean to sound naggish, but what did you want to show me?" I ask albeit a bit impatiently, but I don't think he really noticed, considering the leisurely pace he's going.

"Actually, it's something I want you to listen to, and then I have to tell you something else." He says as he grabs his guitar and finally sits down in the chair that's right in front of me.

"Oh, you wrote a new song? I thought it was gonna be something weird, like you got your appendix out and kept it in a jar." Humor has always been my default setting, especially when I'm nervous. And with him this close… let's just says nervous and I are becoming really close friends.

Oh my God, he is so cute.

"Okay, first of all… ew. And secondly, yes I did write a new song, but I wanted you to be the first one to hear it." He watches me for a reaction, but I'm over here too busy blushing my ass off to do anything more than nod.

"Sweet. Ready?" Again I nod like a douche and he starts to play his new song.

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breath
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Its frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen

When he started singing those first few words, I knew right away that something was different. I don't know what it was. Maybe it was the way that he was staring deep into my eyes, or the way that his words held such a passion that almost blew me away. It's almost as if… As if he knows about my secret desire to be with him… Almost…

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Okay, now I know that something is completely off. He's moved closer to me in his seat, he hasn't looked away from my eyes, I don't know it's like…. Like… No, I mean, how could he possibly know that I… I haven't told anyone. And I know that I'm not that obvious. Am I? But I don't care right now. All that I care about is this moment, and the perfect angel sitting a few inches away from me.

Past loves
They never got very far
Walls of made sure
I've got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

I can feel the heat of his presence right in front of me. I don't know when it had happened, but I closed my eyes, and focused my whole self to the words.

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love

Love? Did he just say… did he just… Love? He… L-Love?

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

I almost didn't realize the song had stopped, but then I felt something that I never thought would ever come true for me. A pair of soft but firm lips, attach to mine. I respond, but I don't open my eyes or move at all. I just don't want to ruin the wonderful dream that is happening. I can feel his hand that's on the back of my head, tangled lightly in my hair. And I just live there. In perfectness.

I don't have any other cares in the world; just me and Matt.

After a few more moments of just us, he pulls back slightly and stares at me. I finally open my eyes and stare back at him.

There are no words, just a complete and semi-comfortable silence. He puts his guitar down, and then looks back at me. "Well I was right about the feeling of kissing you." He finally says.

"I… How did… You…" I know, I stutter like a fool sometimes, but I think at this moment in time, that's okay.

"Let's just say, the next time you break down in the bathroom during your best friends concert… don't do it while the 15 minute drum solo is up, and said friend has time to go see what the problem is." Matt smiles slightly.

"You heard me? I-I didn't…" I blush uncontrollably and look at my hands which are on my knees. I all of the sudden feel the familiar burn of tears coming to my eyes. I don't want Matt to see me cry, but at this point I honestly don't feel like 'cowboying up' is gonna do me any good.

"Yeah, I did. And I had no idea." Matt says as he puts one of his hands on mine. He uses the other hand to lift my chin so I'm face-to-face with him. "I just wish you had talk to me about it."

"I-I thought… I thought that if I told you how I really felt… that you'd hate me and never speak to me again. And I just couldn't take the thought of not having you as my best friend anymore." I'm all but bawling now. I can't look away like I want to because Matt is holding my face securely in his hand.

"I don't, and will never hate you. No matter what, ok?" Matt says seriously as he stares into my eyes. "I just think if you would have told me sooner, then I could have told you… that I Love you too."

I look into his eyes for any sign of regret or hesitation. There is none. He actually loves me! He really actually loves me!!

"Really?!" I say, slightly bouncing up and down. I do that when I get excited. He chuckles at my antics and says, "Yes, really."

I finally smile and move closer to him, and kiss him. I pull away a few seconds later and say, "That's good… because I Love you too."

Matt smiles one of those signature smiles of his, and switches positions so that now we're both on the bed leaning slightly back against the bed frame. I easily put my head on his shoulder and snuggle into him. He chuckles a little more, and puts his head on top of mine, and his arm is around my waist.

"So, how did you like the song, baby?" Matt asks. I look back up at him and say, "I loved it, it was so beautiful, and perfect."

"I'm glad you liked it. That is your song and yours alone." He looks into my eyes again, like he does, and just like that we're together. Just the two of us.

Our fingers are intertwined; we have no cares at that moment, except the two of us.

"And that," I say as I pull away slightly, "Is why I'm kissing you."

-Fin-