The reader should note that there will be 4 different versions of this story, each slightly different. The reader should also note that this takes place after the ring has been destroyed and before Frodo and the others leave for the Grey Havens.
My dearest Merry,
I love you. I love you so much Merry. More than I ever thought I could love anyone, or anything. But I cant tell you. I could never tell you.
I can't tell you because of what you would do, and think. I know you well enough to know that you would never hate me or turn your back on my. But you wouldn't love me either. Not in the way I love you. And it would never be the same with us again.
That's another reason I can't tell you. The time we spend together is so precious, I couldn't give it up, even if the time we spend is just as friends.
I can't tell you because of what others would say. It's unnatural to love a man, and it doesn't help that we're related. Our families would probably disown us and call us freaks, or at least me if not you.
I can't tell you because of you. Not only because things would change but because I fear your rejection. Until I actually hear it I can at least dream your answer would be yes, even though I know better. But actually hearing the no I realize would come would kill me.
Don't you see Merry? I can't tell you I love you because I do love you. And I can't bear the consequences of telling you. And so I live, pretending. Hiding my feelings. Being a best friend. At least this way I get to be near you. So I live miserable so you can be happy. Because I love you. And you don't love me. And so I pretend, and live a lie. I watch you with girls, and pretend to be with girls too so you don't notice. And I'll go on living this way Merry. Because I love you so much it hurts.
Love always and forever,
Your Pip.
Pippin read and reread the letter. Then he carefully folded it in thirds and ripped it in half, then fourths, and eighths and threw it away.
Well, thats the end of this version. Version 2 Iam working on right now, and in that version Pippin will act instead of go on living this way. Please Review, and check out Version 2 when it comes out :)