Forget It
"...Hello? Oh...hey Urameshi...".........
"No, I ain't doin anything."
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"What? Uh, yeah ok...be right over."
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"No, I'm good...Yes, really...I'll see ya in a sec...Huh? No, seriously, I'm fine. Yeah, bye."
-Yeah, so what if I was lying? It's not like it was any of his business...nosey jerk. Why does he care if I'm all right or not anyway? It's not his problem; it's mine. Kami, why can't people just leave me the hell alone? ...Ok, yeah, maybe I have been acting alittle short-tempered lately. But, if they knew...they wouldn't be asking...-
After hanging up the phone on the wall, Kazuma Kuwabara walked quietly through the kitchen and into the hallway, grabbing his long white jacket from off of the wooden coat hanger and slinging it over his broad shoulder.
-Well, maybe that's why they ask me...cause they care or whatever. It's not like they're only pretending to so they can laugh about it in front of my face are they? No, couldn't be...although I wouldn't put it past 'em.-
"I'm goin out Sis," he said aloud as he strode past the living room, not bothering to glance over at his sister sprawled out on the sofa busy watching some soap opera, completely oblivious to the fact that her brother was even there.
...But its not like he cared either.
-So, no, I'm not gonna tell 'em. It'll just be a big joke, they won't understand. They can't understand. Even it they tried...they never will, ever.-
Letting a soft sigh escape from his lungs, Kuwabara twisted the knob and pulled the door open, his dark eyes slowly lifting from the floor to focus on the cold rain pouring outside as he stood there for a moment, his face reluctant to show any emotion.
The rain. It reminded him of snow.
It was snowing that day...
-I could try to explain it, but I know it wouldn't work. How am I supposed to make them understand something like that? It would just make 'em laugh harder I bet- I mean, really, how do you even describe it? It's like...you can't put it into words. At least I can't, and I've tried. I've tried to explain it to myself, to figure it out on my own, but it didn't work. It only made me more confused if anything...-
"Geez, come off it," he mumbled to himself as he shook his head and went down the steps leading from his apartment towards the street, his head lowered away from the rain that sent chills up his spine as it dotted his neck and slid down inside the white collar of his sleeveless T-shirt and onto his back. He shot a quick glance at his jacket on his shoulder, but only shrugged and walked across the street, ignoring the water that seeped into his shoes as he stepped through the puddles on the road.
The neighborhood was empty and silent as the rain cascaded down the old apartment buildings and onto the sidewalk benches and lights, but it's not like it was unusual for it to be. It was a weekday, so most likely people were just off living their lives. He should've been busy himself, but he hadn't gone out much since then. If he weren't at Genkai's he'd be found sitting in his room, either silently staring out the window or playing with Eikichi, whispering to the small kitten as if it were his only friend. It had gotten so bad that Shizuru had even called Yusuke and Kurama to have them come over to visit. The trips had been in vain, though, as they both got the same silent stare from the teen. While Yusuke stayed with him for a few hours, just listening to music in his room, Kurama left after only about fifteen minutes, telling Shizuru at the door not to look into his eyes, as tears filled his own.
But there was nothing anyone could do. There was no comfort that they could give him, because what troubled the nigen's mind could not be eased by comfort alone...
Stepping up onto the sidewalk towards Yusuke's house, Kuwabara slowly lifted up his head to look into the sky as the rain fell on his face, fighting back the tears that threatened him along with the stinging of his nose as his mind flashed back to unwanted but unforgotten memories...
-- "So... you really gotta go then..."
"Hai, I'm sorry, but I must return to my world, just like you must return to yours..."
"But Yukina-san, I don't care about the Nigenkai, I want to stay with you! I-I can get used to the cold, it really doesn't bother me that much, I swear! All I have to do is-"
"No Kazuma, you have to go back. You know just as well as I do that you wouldn't last long here...no matter how hard you tried."
"B-but Yukina-san, I don't want you to l-"
"I'm sorry Kazuma, I should go now...I'll miss you...Goodbye."
-And that was all I could do- just stand there and watch the only important thing in my life walk away from me forever, leaving behind one white tear gem in the snow at my feet as I was left to whisper into the falling whiteness.-
"No...Please, come back...I love you..." --