a/n: Episode Tag: HELLO CRUEL WORLD. Dean's POV
SAM'S FAULT
This was all Sam's fault. It's always Sam's fault. First it was the Demons and the Demon Blood, then the whole leaving thing, letting Lucifer in and going to Hell, coming back soulless and pretending that he's not, getting his soul back and ringing Hell's Bells. And now this.
Cas was gone and it was all Sam's fault. If he had just told me that he was going bat shit crazy, then I wouldn't have let him go alone, and if I hadn't let him go alone, then when Cas sucked in everything from Purgatory and got taken over by black snot, then I wouldn't have had to find him while Cas stumble from the building. If I didn't have to go find the missing Sam, then I would have been able to catch Cas. If it wasn't for Sam, I would have lost my only Best Friend. I wouldn't feel such a hot resentment towards my brother.
He was so selfish. He was to blame for everything.
I wished that I hadn't gone to Stanford when Dad went missing. If I hadn't, this wouldn't be happening. Because he never would have gotten hooked on Demon Blood. I knew it was horrible, but due-ly justified. Everything up until this moment of time was Sam's fault. It was his fault that he cried when the Yellow-Eyed Demon was feeding him blood; if he hadn't, Mom wouldn't be dead and Dad never would have learned about the supernatural. From the very start he had been messing everything up. This hate was deeper than anything I had ever felt, it was darker than anything in existence.
My friend was gone, and all I had left was his wrecked tan coat. It was wet, torn, covered in red blood, and black. My hands tightened around the material. It was Sam's fault that the Leviathan were out there, and Castiel was gone. I looked up from the coat and right at Sam,
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT."
And then I turned and left. Everything was Sam's fault...
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