Christmas Isn't Supposed to Be Like This.
It's not supposed to be this way
It's just too messed up
And i'm tired of fixing it
I can't keep up with this anymore
I know it's my fault
But I got tired of holding on
Christmas was all I was dreaming of
Because I thought this is when I need to be happy
It's all I wanna be
But it's too complicated
Cause
Christmas' before was more alive
Everything changed
Christmas this year was so broken
I didn't mean to
But I feel not belonging here anymore
I see everything in its bad
Just like Christmas
It was supposed to joyful
But its just a filthy wreck
I wish it was all a dream
But no
I can't open my eyes to reality.