Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. I WISH I DID!! But sadly, Twilight and it's characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Author's Note: This takes place when Edward returns in New Moon. He comes to her house to see her in her room, laying limply over the end of her bed. She was as pale as a ghost. Her eyes had lost their lust, and there was no trace of anything left from a smile in what looked like years. It starts with Edward's reaction.
"Bella, Bella" Edward quietly whispered as he stroked her hair.
No response.
Edward began silently crying. He could not believe what he had done.
"Bella, I am so sorry…." Edward whispered.
"It wasn't you fau-" Bella could barely make out. She strained her throat, it hurt even just to breathe.
"Yes it was, I should have never left you"
"No," Takes a deep throaty breath "Edward, I love you. I always will… (coughs), I just knew I was right, I don't deserve you" Bella makes out in between coughs and sobs.
"Bu-"
"No." Bella cuts him off "Not only that, but I don't even deserve to be like you."
"Bella don't say that. That's a load of bull and you know that!" He gently kisses her neck "I just left because I didn't want to hurt you, and because I knew…. I knew that we could never be together. I mean, I don't deserve you, and I just doom you to a life like this. I could never do that to you"
"But Edward, what would happen if I died right now, right here……"
"I would too."
"NO!"
"Edward, I need you to do me a favor, before I die."
"I'll do anything, besides change you"
"First, please, kiss me. Remember me forever- as I am now." Edward goes in for a gentile kiss, but Bella wouldn't let go. This time, she didn't hyperventilate like she normally does.
"Edward. I was just wondering… will you open your mouth- I wanna see what you teeth look like- just so that I can remember everything about you. But just close your eyes. You look so peaceful with your eyes closed" Bella lied. She could not believe what she was about to do. Bella took a deep breath.
Bella POV
I tried to convince myself that I was ready. I braced myself and thrust my neck squarely in his widely open mouth. I jabbed my neck on his teeth and before I knew it- everything just blacked out. The last thing I heard was Edward say:
"BELLA! NO!!!! DON'T!!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH!" by the time he said it, it was too late.
Edward POV
I can't believe it. Why would she do that to herself- to ME! Doesn't she know how much I didn't want her to do that to her self I am not worth it. Now I will feel guilty for eternity for giving her the opportunity to do that. I feel so stupid. I guess I just kind of… wished… that I could….. maybe…. have her forever. I am just SOO GREEDY! I knelt over Bella's body and carefully held her limp figure in my hands. I gave her a gentle kiss. I AM A MONSTER!
Carlisle POV
I was just sitting down when I heard Edward running towards the house. I opened the door to see Bella in his arms. I first thought it was fine, but when I saw Edward's face I noticed the problem. I looked back down at Bella and saw the teeth marks.
"What happened?!" I screamed
"She…she did it to herself! She tricked me."
I know I showed my smugness but I thought, how could SHE do it to HERSELF, because Edward 'tricked her'. Edward being tricked- that Must be a joke.
I cleared a table and told Edward to lay her down.
"Edward, it's a bad wound. I am going to need your help to suck the venom out." I demanded.
Edward reluctantly slugged over.
"On the count of three I want you to suck her blood, just clean a small portion of it out, and stop when I tell you." I explained, "One, two, th-"
"Wait! Carlisle!" Edward screamed.
"What is it?!"
Edward POV
"Well I am just confused! I don't know what the hell I should do!"
"What do you mean-"
At that moment I saw Esme rushing in to the living room where we were stationed.
"I knew I smelled her, what happened?!"
"Long story-" Carlisle responded for me.
All this time I was thinking- why not let her transform, that's what she wanted. Not only that, but that's what I want, but, it isn't my choice. If later she finally convinced me, she would have to go through all this pain AGAIN. I just wish I could read her mind. I made one last useless attempt to, and I guess, because of all that was going on, I was able to. I just couldn't believe what I saw. It was hard to concentrate with Carlisle and Esme talking so loudly explaining what had happened.
"SHUT UP!" I screamed, the room was suddenly unnaturally quiet, "Carlisle, you can let go of Bella, this is the best thing for her."
"How do you know?"
"If you saw what I just did, you would understand."
"What did you see?" Esme asked.
"In Alice's mind she had a vision. It was of us- well I mean, me and Bella- together- it was our 670th anniversary and she was thanking me for changing her. Then I saw- our kids."