A Different Kind of Pain by Betty Bokor
Sam/Daniel/Teal'c? Sam experiences a difficult loss.
Spoilers: All seasons, including 9 and 10.
Disclaimer: The Stargate original characters belong to MGM/Showtime, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Film Corp. This was written strictly for the purpose of entertainment. No attempt at copyright infringement has been made.

A Different Kind of Pain

Chapter 1

When they finally got through the gate, Sam was doubling over in pain. Teal'c picked her up in his arms and the whole team rushed toward the Infirmary instead of waiting for Dr. Lam to come to the gate. After they had left her in good hands, Cameron, Teal'c, and Daniel sat outside the Infirmary waiting for news. Soon they were joined by General Landry.

"At ease, Colonel. What happened out there with Colonel Carter?" he asked.

"We have no idea, " Cam confessed.

"First we thought it could be appendicitis, but the pain was in the wrong side of her abdomen," Daniel explained.

"She wasn't injured by the enemy?" Landry tried.

"We were already far from their camp. I don't think they even know we finally escaped. They usually didn't come to check up on us for at least four or five days."

"Besides, she didn't have any visible external injuries, but she must have been bleeding internally. She started hemorrhaging right before we got here." Daniel added.

"ColonelCarter began suffering pain after the second day of our journey back to the stargate, when we were already out of reach from the Baraits. There could have been other tribes faithful to the Ori around, but I believe we were not approached by any of them," Teal'c concluded.

"Well, we'll have to wait and see. I'm only glad that you're all back here. If this had happened while you were still imprisoned by those people, who knows if she would have survived it," Landry said. "We have a very lengthy debriefing coming, but I think we can all wait until the doctors are done with Colonel Carter and all of you. I have many issues to discuss. You've been away from here for more than a month and, in spite of all the intel you've gathered, we have been struggling without you."

"I know, General, the SGC can't live without us," Cam joked.

"I'm starting to think so," the General said and left the room

"Dr. Jackson, what are you doing out there?" Dr. Brightman asked as she opened the Infirmary door. "According to these reports, you suffered serious injuries during your captivity. You may still need medical attention. Please, come in." She looked at the other teammates and added. "We'll check up on both of you soon."

Daniel looked at Cam as he followed the doctor. "How did they know?"

"I had to tell them when I was radioing my reports," Cam answered as he shrugged.

Inside the Infirmary, Dr. Lam approached Sam.

"Sam," Carolyn said as she carefully touched her patient's shoulder. "I know you're in pain, but before I give you anything I need to talk about this with you."

Sam was lying on her side, in a fetal position, trying to control her pain. She turned around slightly and Carolyn helped her slowly sit up. "What's going on?" Sam asked.

"Sam, are you seeing someone?"

"What?"

"I asked if you're seeing someone, if you have a boyfriend or something like that."

"No, why?"

"I've checked everything twice to be certain, but there's no doubt of what's going on."

"What?"

"You're having a miscarriage."

"No! It can't be," she immediately said. Then she leaned backwards against the pillows and closed her eyes. Carolyn saw the tears coming down her cheeks and held her hand. "It could be," Sam said very softly, without opening her eyes. "It could be."

"All right. Do you know who's the father, Sam?"

"Yes."

"Was it forced or consensual?" the young doctor asked.

"Consensual," Sam answered very softly.

"Would you like me to call him? He probably should know."

"I don't know. It was more an act of desperation than anything else."

"I understand, but still, you'd better have him here."

"Do you think I miscarried because of the escape?"

"No, Sam, I believe you'd have miscarried anyway. From what I've seen, it was an ectopic pregnancy. It's better that you lost the baby so early. It could have damaged your Fallopian Tubes if it continued growing there. It really didn't have a chance." More tears fell down Sam's cheek and Carolyn asked one more question. "Sam, did you want this baby?"

"I don't know. I didn't think I could get pregnant."

"You shouldn't. The Program is still keeping you on contraception shots. It shouldn't have happened. We'll have to investigate that, but my question was if you wanted a baby."

"I really didn't think about it. There's always been something more important, but now that he was there, inside me, I would have carried him all the way. I wish he was still there," she sobbed.

"I'm very sorry, Sam. Listen, you're going through the miscarriage in a natural way. Your body is almost done with the hard part. It will take a few more days to clean up inside, but the pain will go away soon."

"Okay," Sam said, moving back to lie on her side.

"I have to report this to my father and Cam. Do you have any problems with them finding out through me?"

"No."

"Do you want me to tell Daniel and Teal'c too?"

"No, please. I'll tell them. Ask them to come in before you talk to Cam."

"All right. I will. Hang in there. It's almost over."

As soon as Dr. Lam left her alone in the room, Sam started crying again. She was surprised about how sad she was that she had lost the baby. She had never even thought seriously about having a child and now that the baby was dead, she wanted him more than anything in her life. She would have left everything, everything for him.

A while later, Teal'c entered the room following Daniel who was wearing the Infirmary scrubs.

Sam raised her head and saw them and she immediately grew concerned.

"Daniel, are you all right?"

"DanielJackson will remain in the Infirmary until his injuries have healed," Teal'c said.

"They're healing fine. They just want to keep me here longer as always," Daniel protested. Then, he kneeled by the side of Sam's bed and grabbed her hand. "Dr. Lam said you were going to be fine, but that you wanted to talk to us."

"Yes, I wanted to tell you myself." She stretched a little to be able to look at both of them. "You're the only people who know what happened the night of the rain, so you'll understand what's going on." She paused for a second and sighed. "I'm having a miscarriage. I was pregnant, but the baby was in the wrong place, so I lost it."

"Ectopic? An ectopic pregnancy?" Daniel asked.

"Yes."

"Oh, Sam, I'm so sorry," he said. He squeezed her hand and, as he noticed that she had been crying and was about to cry again, he asked, "Did you want the baby?"

Sam nodded as she started crying again and Teal'c approached her. He sat by her side and held her other hand. "You will have more chances of having a child, Samantha. It is indeed sad that you have lost this one, but you are still young and you will be pregnant again."

"No, I won't," Sam said as she sobbed. "I don't have anyone in my life. That was my last chance."

"This is all my fault," Daniel said as he got up and sat in front of Sam.

"You were injured, DanielJackson. You did not participate in the decision-making," Teal'c reminded him.

"I didn't stop it either."

"This is no one's fault. If anyone's, it was the Barait's, but it happened and we were all fine about it afterwards," Sam said feeling more worried about her teammates than about herself. "Nobody would have ever known if this hadn't happened. Now we'll have to explain it."

"Indeed."

"You won't try and absolve me because I was injured," Daniel said.

"We will tell the truth," Teal'c firmly said.

"It really doesn't matter. What I want to know is what we can do to help you, Sam."

"Nothing, just be here like always," she said as she held both their hands.

A couple of days later, Cameron was called to General Landry's office.

"Colonel Mitchell, please, sit down," Landry said from behind his desk. "I called you here to talk about your team. You've read the reports on what happened between your teammates before you were captured by the Baraits and I'd like to hear your opinion on the matter. If you think they'd be a liability for the team, we might need to separate them and put them on different teams."

"Oh, no, General. You know how hard it was to get them all back. We can't separate them now. We need them all together. They work together like a fine machine. Sometimes I feel I'm just going along for the ride." Landry made a fake gesture of surprise and Cam smiled. "I shouldn't have said that, eh?"

"Do you really think this wouldn't disrupt the team's concentration?" Landry went back to his original point.

"It happened almost a month ago and I haven't seen any difference in them since then. We concluded the mission as planned, we gathered all the information we needed, we made it out of there alive… I mean, if they hadn't told us, I'd never have guessed."

"That's what I thought. These days, there's not much I have to justify about SG-1 to the President. He trusts your team. No matter what we asked for them, I'd say Hayes would be willing to help, especially for any of the other three, if you don't mind me saying so. They've saved this world more times that we'd like to remember."

"I understand, General, and, to be honest, I don't care what they do as long as they keep working with us. I know that Sam would have to get a desk job if she got pregnant, but meanwhile, I want them all. I don't mind if they decide to marry, be lovers, or just sleep together on occasion. I think we've already asked too much of them."

"I don't think this will go beyond what happened there. However, if it does, we'll re-evaluate the situation then," Landry said, ending the conversation.

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