Two is enough

Disclaimer: I don't own Ouran

On this chapter it's going to be Kaoru's p.o.v. and on the next chapter it's going to be Hikaru's p.o.v. ok on to the story. Dunn dun duh duunnn. By the way in this story Kaoru is a little emo so yah on to the story.

Kaoru's P.O.V.

''Hey Kaoru I'm going to walk Haruhi home so I won't be walking with you''

''Ok'', I replied almost whispering it.

I watched as Hikaru was leaving with her . After they disappeared from my view, I went walking to our limo. I sat down and stared at the ground and just started to think. Ever since Hikaru and Haruhi started dating I've been like a little speck in Hikaru's heart and life. Wow that's kinda deep but that is how I feel I am in his life. It kinda scares me that I can't read his mind anymore. It all started because she told us apart.

I remember when we were little, it was snowing and we were at school. Then a girl from our class came up to us and asked us if we wanted to play with her and her friends. We told her we would play with them if she could tell us which one of us is Hikaru.But she couldn't tell us apart, it was always like that nobody could tell us apart. I felt Hikaru squeeze my hand, when she gave us the wrong answer. I knew Hikaru wanted someone anybody to tell us apart so badly, she apologized to us and then she just left us. I didn't want people to tell us apart, I thought if they told us apart they would start talking to us and the more they talked to one of us the less time me and Hikaru would have to be together.sigh Ever since they started dating the more I have been thinking about our past.

''Master Kaoru…Master Kaoru...MASTER KAORU!!''

''Huh oh sorry did you say something''I should really stop daydreaming

''Oh sorry for disturbing you master Kaoru''

''It's ok, but why are we not moving?''

''Uh master we have arrived at the house''

''Oh sorry''

I got out of the limo and went straight to our room, once I got into the room I dropt my bag on the floor. I went and sat down at my desk and I just waited until Hikaru came back.sigh I don't think Hikaru will come home tonight its already dark outside. I got up and decided to go sleep, I went over to our bed and removed my ouran school uniform.

Dream:

I was at the host club and we were outside, I looked around and everyone from the host club was there and we were surrounded by sakura trees. I was staring at the sakura trees and then I realized Hikaru wasn't here, I kept on looking around I couldn't find him. I started walking around trying to find Hikaru but I didn't see him anywhere, I started panicking. I got lost and I was scared I was alone and I couldn't find Hikaru.I kept on walking straight and then I was in a clearing, and what I saw made my eyes watery, straight ahead Hikaru and Haruhi were making out. I tried looking away it was painful looking at the one person I truly loved with all my heart kiss someone else. I finally was able to look away but when I looked back up Haruhi wasn't there anymore. Hikaru was staring at me he started walking towards me, I just looked down I didn't want him to see me like this. I looked up again and Hikaru held his hand out to me. I didn't even remember falling to my knees, I took his hand either way. Once we were both standing Hikaru started wiping my tears away I immediately started blushing, Hikaru was being so gentle with me and then he punched me in the stomach. He then kicked me on my side, I fell down while trying to catch my breathe, I couldn't stop the tears from falling this time.

''Why Hikaru…Why?'' I whispered

When I looked back up I was not looking at Hikaru anymore, instead I was looking at myself.

''You really want to know why''

''yes''

''Because he would never want you seriously who in there right mind would want you''

''Your lieing Hikaru would love me back…. Wouldn't he?''

''Of course not he already has someone better than you, he doesn't need you anymore, he is going to leave you and you will be left all alone''

End of dream

I woke up startled and crying I slowly sat up on our bed. I looked at my right and saw the most handsome person...Hikaru. I don't understand how people can't tell us apart, he is more muscular than me, he looks so peaceful when he is sleeping. The dream kept on coming to me, the scenes keep on replaying in head. I could already feel the tears welling up, I heard Hikaru mumble something so I started to calm my breath down

''Mmm Haruhi''

I am so mad and sad I can't believe he is dreaming about her. I can't stand it I get up and go to the bathroom. Once I was inside I looked at the mirror and I kept on picturing the dream. I am so mad because Hikaru was dreaming about her and deep down I know he would never return my feelings. I feel stupid because I actually believed that he might like me back. I am looking through the drawers until I find what I'm looking for, I take out the razor blade and just stare at it for a while. I have never ever thought about cutting before. But one cut would make the pain go away wouldn't it? Oh of course. So I take the blade in one hand and cut my wrist slowly but not to deep just deep enough to draw out blood. I t felt so good , I cut once, twice, three times and each time the pain in my heart slowly faded away. I was so caught up in cutting that I didn't even hear the footsteps heading my way.

''Hey kaoru are you ok?''

''Yeah''

''ok if you say so''

''I'll be out soon so go back to sleep ok''

''ok''

We are so distant now that he doesn't even realize when I'm lieing, I hate lieing to him of all people but I don't want him to see me like this. I stood up and went to the sink after I heard Hikaru walking back to our bed, I put my arm under the faucet and watched my blood mix with the water.

''Kaoru hurry up and come back to bed'', Hikaru whined

''In a minute'' I replied

I took a towel and wiped away the blood, I looked through the rest of the drawers and I took out some gauze, I raped it are the cuts and slowly got out of the bathroom.

''Kaoru are you sure nothing is wrong cause you can tell me anything I'm here for you, you know that, so if anything is wrong you can tell me''

''I know and nothing is wrong''

I got a long sleeved black shirt and put it on then I went to go lay down next to hikaru. When I layed down I could see hikaru staring at me. I knew I was blushing so I turned the other way so he couldn't see me blushing, I could feel hikaru wrap his arms around my waist. My heart started pounding a lot I tried calming down but hikaru's breathe on my neck did not help at all.

''Kaoru why are you wearing a shirt?''

''I'm just cold'' I didn't even look at him

''I could have warmed you up''

''Uh….. Ummm no thanks'' shit he doesn't know how sexy he just sounded

''Argh kaoru there is something your not telling me now tell me''

He turned me so I was lying on my back and he was straddling my hips. I tried getting him off of me but he is much stronger than me.

''Kaoru please tell me I'm worried just tell me''

''You really want to know''

''Yes I do just tell me''

''You are!''

''I'm what?''

''Your what's wrong with me now get off of me!''

Hikaru was so shocked and I felt kinda of sad but I finally got him off of me. I turned to the side and slowly went to sleep.

Review please ,flames are welcomed.Second chapter coming soon.I need a beta please.