Her Little Girl
Written by WickedSong
Disclaimer : I do not own Glee, belongs to FOX.
Quinn liked to pretend.
She liked to deny everything and her Cheerios uniform, when she put it back on that first week back at school, was like her tool in erasing the past.
With it on, she was no longer the girl who was pregnant in her Sophomore year. No, now she was a Junior and she was once again the Head Cheerleader and therefore, high up on the food chain. She wasn't taunted and she wasn't slushied. She was popular again.
With this popularity came the freedom to forget her pregnancy. She could forget that she gave birth to a baby.
Her little girl.
Now with her popularity she had to also distance herself from those things that tied her to her past, tied her to that little girl who she held in her arms and then gave away.
Her little girl.
So, she broke up with Puck, despite his insistence that he could be better. She wouldn't be lying if she didn't find it tempting to be with him but everytime she looked at him she would see him standing by the hospital bed while she had his child. Whenever she looked at him she saw him telling her that he loved her at that moment as they looked on at the sleeping baby. She couldn't let herself be with him, she couldn't let herself remember that little girl.
Her little girl.
She also kept out Mercedes, who had given her a place to stay, a place to feel safe towards the end of the pregnancy. Her family were the most welcoming people and they didn't judge her for her situation, taking her in with open arms. Yet, when she looked at Mercedes, she only remembered the nights she would lay awake, crying about her life, crying about what to do next. These would be the nights when the other girl would comfort her, holding her while she sobbed. It was a comfort she would eternally be grateful for.
But Mercedes reminded her of that baby as well.
Her little girl.
Because she had been there in the delivery room as Puck had, she had been by her side.
So she wouldn't deal with it and leave Beth Corcoran (she had never been Beth Fabray or Beth Puckerman or anything like that) as the baby she found herself carrying when she was sixteen years old.
Because Quinn liked to pretend that that baby was not hers, that she wasn't her little girl.
And sometimes it was easier to pretend.
Just wrote this short thing as kind of why I think in Quinn's mind, she and Puck never talked about Beth or got any closure (trying to justify the writers lacking continuity in S2 is hard but I think I managed).
Please tell me what you think,
WickedSong